Post by Fay on Nov 17, 2003 17:43:00 GMT
Hi there
I was diagnosed with PND when my son was just over a year old but I think that I might ahve had it on and off to varying degrees since i had my daughter narly 4yrs ago.
I've been on Zispin for about 5 momnths now and while I felt a huge lift when I was first on them I feel myself spiralling down and down again.
Today I managed to get up and give the kids breakfast but after going upstairs to get dressed, came back downstairs to find that hubby had taken over and told me that I needed to try harder. This escalted into a huge row wich ended with him saying that I should think about my place in the family. To this I stormed out the door, walked round the block and came home (while he took my oldest to nursery).
I then hid in a cupboard in my sons room for 5hrs as I just couldn't face life or anything. Now I know things are really bad. I've had suicidal thoughts today although not acted on them.
Life is so hard. I don't feel as if I have anything to live for, nothing to get up in the morning for for me. I feel like I'm sinking into thick black quicksand and can't see a way out.
I'm on a waiting list for counselling nad have a CPN who is ok but not brilliant.
Is it possible my medication isn't working any more? Could I need new ones? Could the dose be increased (on 30mg a day at the minute)?
I really don't know what todo anymore.
Fay
I was diagnosed with PND when my son was just over a year old but I think that I might ahve had it on and off to varying degrees since i had my daughter narly 4yrs ago.
I've been on Zispin for about 5 momnths now and while I felt a huge lift when I was first on them I feel myself spiralling down and down again.
Today I managed to get up and give the kids breakfast but after going upstairs to get dressed, came back downstairs to find that hubby had taken over and told me that I needed to try harder. This escalted into a huge row wich ended with him saying that I should think about my place in the family. To this I stormed out the door, walked round the block and came home (while he took my oldest to nursery).
I then hid in a cupboard in my sons room for 5hrs as I just couldn't face life or anything. Now I know things are really bad. I've had suicidal thoughts today although not acted on them.
Life is so hard. I don't feel as if I have anything to live for, nothing to get up in the morning for for me. I feel like I'm sinking into thick black quicksand and can't see a way out.
I'm on a waiting list for counselling nad have a CPN who is ok but not brilliant.
Is it possible my medication isn't working any more? Could I need new ones? Could the dose be increased (on 30mg a day at the minute)?
I really don't know what todo anymore.
Fay