anxiety !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dustygirl]

,I, as many of you have physical symptoms caused by pni.Idid not truly acknowledge this till i found this site and it all became clear.
My baby was born in 2004 and within a few weeks , i began to feel quite unwell with hot sweaty episodes, churning stomach, and feeling generally unwell.This always was during the night when i was giving night feeds, even listenening to his contented guzzling nearly made me heave.
To begin with i just exepted the way i felt but knew it was not any real illness,it started though to occupy my thoughts during the day.
Ithen started to wake at night a couple of hours after i went to bed feeling really panicky and things seemed to be getting more regular.This then in turn started to happen every day and when i got up in the morning i just dreaded my partner going off to work.I felt sick and anxious and found it a real struggle to function.Things were really hard by then i even remember having a spell where my every thought seemed to be about getting ill, myself,my partner or my child.Ibecame obsessed about tummy bugs especially and started to dread going to playgroups in case we all caught one , we did ,and i coped and we got better i wish that i could make my head see that it was not the end of the world.
Even now 22 months since my babe's birth i still dread these bugs and some times the thoughts spark symptoms of ibs and a dodgy stomach,i really have to tell myself that mainly it is in my mind and more often than not these are symptoms caused by my mind not a bug.!
The truly frustrating thing is that if i take a step back i know my anxiety is causing symptoms often yet i have to keep telling myself this,time and again.
I did feal as though i had a fuzzy head - i believe this is a symptom too-but i feel a little clearer nowadays but it is still a struggle at times , i feel for anyone who also is going throughthis ,my advice would be to read other stories here and realise you are not mad just ill and try to just keep your chin up .
Tracy x

[yoyo]

The anxiety can be so hard to deal with - but it does ease, it will resurface quite strongly during recovery but this too fades. I hope you're managing to cope with it ok x x

How is today?

[dustygirl]

thanks for your message of reassurance, it does really help just being understood sometimes.Today i am not too bad , thought i woke during last night and for about 5 mins had a funny turn tight throat, and panicky , but tried to tell myself it was just anxiety and it passed,
will keep looking to a better future soon.

[cheshire]

Hi DustyGirl

I suffered extreme anxiety too - and remember what you describe above..
I found it helped too to tell myself it's the anxiety, and I got to the point where it would pass without me having to sit up or get out of bed, if you know what I mean.

A turning point for me, was understanding that the symptoms were anxiety and not to 'fear the fear'

It will improve. I rarely get any physical symptoms of anxiety now - only the sorts of stress symptoms I got before my second child arrived.

You can look forward to a brighter future
Love HopefulXX

[monica]

Hi

What you wrote about you worry about illnesses, was liek seeing myself. My physical symptoms preceeded any emotional ones, but I, too, got to the point where most of my day and night I'd be thinking and stressing about illnesses. I've always been a hypochondriac but not to the point where it's taken over my life.

I had the fuzzy head, which for me was as if I was spaced out or deep inside myself. For me the anxiety and the fuzzy headlifted with the anti ds.

I'm so pleased things are better for you.

Love

Monica

[mum2amy]

::)im like this too i use to be a bit of a worrier anyway but since the birth of my baby ive had alot of panick attacks and sweaty pisodes and i have had bad thoughts in my head too which make my anxiety worse, at first when ever i had a rash i always thought it was something serious but ive got to the stage where its not a pertrying illness im scared of... its my own mind im always having anxiety attacks thinking im crazy because of the thoughts im having. have any of you had this? donna xxxx

[cheshire]

Hi Donna,

I had terrible anxiety, panic attacks and breathing problems with PNI. And yes, I did think I was going crazy. But it gets so much better with time - my son is 19 months old now and things are getting back to normal for me. I have a stressful job, so going back to work has knocked me back slightly, but I am still moving forward and the physical symptoms of PNI have gone I believe (do get stressed, but did sometimes before children!).

Just remember it will improve, even though this might seem unbelievable just now

Love HopefulXX