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Post by carlie on Dec 9, 2007 20:26:32 GMT
hi how is everyone? hope ur all doin ok. Il jus quickly say where im at, i get out and about most days and for about a month now iv not suffered physical symptoms other than headaches really. i still have bad days but they r managable i stil get out and about, then now and again i have a couple of days where its like im back at day one again! luckily these r not to often. anyway this weekend was my daughters 1st birthday its been really manic. for the first ime in ages i cant even remember, today i have felt really dizzy and off balance, nausea, headache,body heavy like its weighed down with weights. My mood has been really low and jus not had the energy to do anything.
im startin to worry somethin is wrong with me as iv not experienced it for so long. do u think its the pni? i sruggle to know if it is or not, or if im physically ill with somethin nasty.
altho my daughters birthday was lovely im not enjoyin this time of year as it brings back memories of how bad i was this time last year wen i had her .
any advice greatly appreciated xx
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Post by monica on Dec 9, 2007 21:02:38 GMT
Hi Carlie
Good tohear from you and that you've been well. Happy Birthday to your daughter!
Sounds as if you're having a blip - this is very very common and indeed quite a normal, but horribel part of the recovery process. It can feel doubly bad if you've been well for a sustained period of time.
Porbably, you've been very busy with your daugher's 1st bday and maybe run yourself down abit. And also birthdays are often a reminder of how unwell you've been and can make you feel unwell. Both these things can trigger blips. But it will pass I'm sure. If you're worried why not go and see your dr?
Monica
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Post by winegirl on Dec 9, 2007 21:21:28 GMT
Hi Carlie
I remember being so excited about my daughters 1st birthday. I spent all day preparing food, table decorations, cleaning etc (only had a few adults over) but right before they were due to arrive I startes to feel sick and dizzy again, to the poit where 5 mins after everyone arrived i ended up leavin them al to go to bed as i though i was gonna be sick!
I think anxiety had took over, tho at the time i did not feel anxious and was really looking forward to it! But anxiety has a way of getting you like that I think.
Glad you are getting out and about a bit these days, you're doing so much better than i was at that time!
Take Care
WG x
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Post by carlie on Dec 10, 2007 21:15:58 GMT
hey monica and winegirl, thnax for replying. i feel a litle better today i managed to get into town altho i stil feel dizzy and faint im tryin to ignore it the best i can! its worse tonite i must say. I feel like i wanna cry but it wont come out. This time last year was the worst time of my life and its like i cant stop thinkin about how bad i was.
Its a time of bad memories for me not a happy time to celebrate xmas! i hope its not gonna feel like this every year, i hope its jus cos its the first one?
Monica i dont speak to my gp about my pni, i dont believe they have any idea on mental health! i see a care co ordinator and im havin physchoheropy so i will tlk about it at my next session. xx
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Post by winegirl on Dec 11, 2007 14:42:51 GMT
Hi Carlie
Yes I was like that with the first Christmas but am SUPER excited this year. I still suffer with the physical stuff on and off but for some reason I just dont care and i wont let it ruin Christmas!
You will feel like this too son, I promise x
WG x
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Post by carlie on Dec 12, 2007 20:14:41 GMT
do ppl think its is normal to feel crap around the time its the anniversary of when we got ill? like for me it was pretty much straight away which was this time last year. I dont know if mayb in my sub concious im feelin bad bcos of it bein this time of yr wen things were terrible last yr. lastxmas was crap it didnt feel like xmas, i was so ill with pni.
does anyone else feel like this or have felt like this? scared im goin downhill again. xx
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Post by cheshire on Dec 12, 2007 20:45:20 GMT
Hi Carlie,
Looking back can be hard - but also try and see how far you've come.
Thinking of you
Hopefulx
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Post by carlie on Dec 12, 2007 20:49:41 GMT
do ppl think its normal to feel crap around the time of year they got bad last yr? this time last yr was hell for me and im wonderin if this is why im feelin bad at the moment? did anyone else find this? cant believe i still have his horrid illnesss after so long! wen does it end. i was doin so well. maybe its a mixture of my partners mother bein horid, it bein this time of yr?
appreciate knowin if anyone else felt crap at the time it was a year since they got ill x
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Post by cheshire on Dec 12, 2007 21:08:58 GMT
Hi Carlie,
Sorry, I didn't answer well there did Ix
Yes, anniversaries - Christmases, birthdays when ill can be an awful memory looking back.
I do look back - and it is painful.
Don't know if this helps. I suppose it's all relative too, as it now helps a bit to look back to see how far I have come. So yes, it does get better, it just takes timex
Love, Hopefulxx
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