Having a bad evening

[nicolad]

Hello all

Well, I am having a terrible evening. I have been a bit pre-menstrual all week, plus my glands have been up this week so immediately thought the worst, although have then had a sort of cold thing since.

Then, have had lots of gurgling stomach and wind today - and eventually went to the loo and just seemed to pass bile-y stuff (very pleasant indeed to share this!) Of course, I got into a complete panic and made an appointment to see the doctor straight away - luckily got in to see him.

So, he had a really good feel of my tummy (from my previous threads you'll see I have an ongoing right hand side pain issue going on). Of course, he could feel nothing, but asked if my weight was okay. I said I'd stopped weighing myself as that's one of the things I'm becoming obsessed with and worrying I have cancer as I have lost weight through my anxiety.

So, although he was incredibly reassuring I am now replaying his questions in my head and worrying that he may be thinking something worse. I am going to see the gynaecologist on Tuesday - finally the appointment is near - but of course now am thinking 'I've been feeling much better, Christmas is all getting exciting, now I must get some bad news to put a lid on all this progress'.

I am feeling so cross, frustrated etc that I'd been doing so well, am even more worried about this tummy pain business, and generally cannot believe I feel like this again. I am just hoping it is a blip and my period has now arrived, so maybe over the next few days I'll perk up again - but am starting to dread the appointment on Tues.

Love
Nicolad
x

[winegirl]

Hi Nicolad

I have the wierd tummy thing and suffer with the `going to the loo' problem too, I think it is prob due to IBS which can be brought on by stress and anxiety. I hav a squishy tummy every morning I wake up and know how horris it is.

I am sure all this will have been brought on by PMT and will pass really soon hun x Always here if you need to chat x

WG x

[nicolad]

Hi Winegirl

Thanks ever so much for replying - I definitely needed to be on here this evening and try to reassure myself and hear some friendly comments!

I hope you are okay - how long have you been suffering from PNI? (Do you have a diary on here?)

xx

[winegirl]

Hi Nicolad

I have been suffering for 18 months. But I dont want that to scare you! I didnt start getting treatment till two or three months ago as the medics had spent over a year trying to tell me had a virus etc.. before they realised what it was!

How are you feeling now hun? How is the tummy doing? I sometimes find when i have the horrid stomach that those Rennie fruit pastels help a bit.

WG x

[winegirl]

Hi Nicolad

Just wondering how you were doing today hun? Any better?

Always here if you want to chat xx

WG x

[nicolad]

Hi Winegirl

Doing a bit better yesterday and today, thanks ever so much. Have been able to keep busy with my four year old's Christmas plays at nursery etc and generally sorting out for Christmas. Am trying not to think about my appointment tomorrow as I am getting in a right stew about it. My mum is going to come with me, so at least I'll have her there.

Hope you are ok.

xx
xx

[winegirl]

Hi Nicolad

Brilliant! So pleased you have had a better couple of days! Amazing what keeping busy can do for us! Best of luck with your appt tommorow, please come back and let us know how it goes.

Will be thinking of you x

WG x