Anne
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Post by Anne on Feb 4, 2005 22:04:51 GMT
Hi Colette
I haven't posted on this site for about a year but reading your post made the hair on the back of my neck prickle. I had ,and still have, the terrible fear of going out in public with my little girl. The thought that she would cry would send me into a complete panic, running with the buggy back to the car. The paranoid feelings you describle are so completely normal for PNI. You think everyone is coping better than you are, are a better mother/wife than you are, can juggle work better than you etc, etc. I also HATED the thought of someone else caring for my daughter. I didn't even let my mother have her even for an hour until she was almost 2. I look at mums with screaming children who carry on chatting to their friend and seem completely unfazed by it. Even their child crying brings me out into a cold sweat.
So you see - you are normal. In every way you are like us here. You cope because you have no choice. Hopefully your anti d's will kick in in a few weeks and you will feel a little less like this. The wierd feelings are very normal for the first week or so taking anti d's. They are all different - I have tried 5 before I found one that suits me. So if in a few weeks you feel no different - please please go back to your GP and ask that he change them. I was on Citalopram but came out in a really bad rash with it.
You really really do have to take one day at a time. I go to bed and tell myself 'made it through another day'. Small steps - it's the only way to succeed.
Anyway, enough of my ramblings. You have come to the right place for help - even to pour out how you feel to like minded people is a great release.
We are all here to listen and help if we can. Nothing will shock us - absolutely nothing.
Take good care.
Anne x
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collette
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Post by collette on Feb 5, 2005 22:26:31 GMT
Hi there,
Thanks everyone for your helpful replies. I feel so reassured that I am not the only one now. I have not been feeling as weird the last day or so with the tablets. I have only been on 5 days though so shouldn't see any positive change for 2 to 4 weeks gp said. Today I went off on one when attempting to put wee one in buggy for walk and nap. HE was already tired and crying because he was getting hat etc on. I tried to ignore and sing to him but he was crying real tears etc, v upset and I felt like worst mum ever. I was thinking he is not like this with anyone else, why is it always me? My hubby got out of bed to help which annoyed me and house was a state too. We did get out though and I felt much better after walk.
I am obviously expecting too much too soon with the anti-ds, it will take a while for any effect. Does anyone know what the positive effects are that I am watching for? I was told I would feel better able to cope in certain situations etc? is that right?
Also told a friend today that I have started tabs. I don't think she had a clue how I have been feeling and I didn't feel like putting a face on anymore so I told her. I feel a bit ashamed about this. My mother in law know too and she suffered from PND in the 1970s and was hospitalised so maybe she might talk to me about this. However, she is not the most open of people with these things. I don't have a brilliant friendship with her either so may be awkward.
Any that is how things are at the mo.
Love Collette xx
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collette
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Post by collette on Feb 6, 2005 23:15:00 GMT
hi there have had a better day today. Had a long walk and have felt v energetic long may it last !
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Post by wendabell on Feb 7, 2005 1:42:57 GMT
Hi collette, The positive sides to takeing tablets for me i think and this has ben my trouble for three times now is that the good days gets more and the bad days get less.It becomes so that you can cope better with the downs and can bring yourself out of them and reason with your thoughts. Any pains or fears you have of terrible illnesses will start to subside and you will begin to have fun again.The panic i still there for me but on good days i can rule the world and on the bad days i dont answer the phone still or the door. I said it has been my problem only in the fact that when the meds do start to work for me i get this notion i am better and take myself off them as i really do hate taking any form of medicine. Hence i then go back to my origional state of pni. For me i didnt notice an initial change or reaction.The change is very subtle and you might not notice the benifits until one day you achieve something you havnt done for ages like i.e answering the phone.thats a biggie for me. When it happens you think wow....and then you realise that there have been other little things that have changed for the good. My only advise and this really is the voice of experience is keep taking the meds until the doctor stops them,no matter how well you might be feeling take them until he says so.
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banana
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Post by banana on Feb 7, 2005 11:18:31 GMT
how you getting on Collette?
You shoud try and post on my new thread about positive thoughts if you feel up to it. Whether it be one thing or a hundered things - let us all know.
Banana x
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Post by Carol X on Jun 29, 2005 0:00:44 GMT
Hi Collette!
Give your meds time! Be patient, it can take a long time and several visits to your doctor to get a) the correct meds for you and b) the correct dose for you!
I wouldn't even think about going back to work until you feel you are back in control. This could take a while (4-6 weeks) Meds don't work immediately! I know this can be very frustrating for you, hey, many of us have been in the same boat! I know you don't feel like being patient right now, but that's what you need to do!
Remember you are not alone, talk to friends and family about how you feel, if you can't do that, talk to the wonderful p.n.i. sufferers / survivors on this site! Their help / advice has helped many p.n.i. sufferers and will continue to do so.
Getting over p.n.i. can be a long and painful journey, but it is a journey you will make and will survive - Good Luck Colette! I look forwards to hearing about how you too conquer this illness! Big HUgs, Carol X:)
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Post by nel on Nov 27, 2005 10:20:40 GMT
Reading your account the floating feeling and like tingling in my face I have been experiencing since starting to take citroplex. It is only day three and I am not sure I really want to continue on them or not. Obviously I need to talk with the dr before I stop!! I think maybe I will give it two weeks and then see how I feel as I have been warned they take 6 days to settle down. Having never taken any medication (the odd paracetamol) it is hard to think that of taking anti dep. drugs. Hope this strange feeling goes ....... but I feel more energy and less tearful - it was getting silly every morning I was in tears and panic about the day, so something had to happen! I don't feel so angry either, I was yelling at the boys for no reason really, a little thing would set me off and then I went through all the guilt. Lets see what next week brings! Good to read x
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Post by Veritee on Nov 27, 2005 22:35:54 GMT
Hi Nel
Welcome
we are not experts but we can try to support you and I have a GP that advises us on medication.
He does ask if you are sure about the name citroplex?
As he has never heard of it and it is not listed in the British National Formulary.
Citalopram is the nearest he can get to this name which is a fairly common Anti D to be given to women with PNI .
Perhaps if you spell out the exact name and the active ingredients he will be able to help further .
But the advice is that your symptoms are quite common in the first days of taking Anti D's i.e 'floating feeling and like tingling in my face '
but that as they 'kick in ' this will usually go.
I tis important to try them for at least 3 to 4 weeks as although usually they start to work within 2 weeks they can take 4 and you have just not taken them long enough yet to know if they will work for you.
I totally understand the reluctance to take medication but now you have started my advice is you may as well keep taking them for 4 weeks to see if they help as many women with PNI have found them really helpful after the initial period of them not working or side effects has passed.
But in the meantime perhaps you would like to join us
I notice you have already introduced yourself - great to meet you.
But please confirm the name or active ingredient of the medication you are talking and I will ask the GP to advise
All the best
veritee
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Post by monica on Nov 27, 2005 22:55:24 GMT
Hello Nel
PNI gave me many physical symptoms, however, when I started anti ds they seemed to get loads worse for about 2-3 weeks. I had the tingling and numb patches (not at the same time)in my arms and on my body. My legs and arms felt odd as if they wouldn't work. I can remember thinking that I wouldn't be able to get out of bed in a few days time. I felt really out of it particularly a few hours after taking the tablet. I ended up going to the emergency drs after and she prescribed me tomazepam (I think) to help me get through it.
Apparently it is common to feel rough over the first couple of weeks, indeed worse than before. But it did get better for me after this initial period. I just realised I wasn't thinking about my horrible sypmtoms so much.
If obviously you have any concerns go and see your GP. I'm sure they'll at the very least put your mind at ease. And you know we're all here to support you.
Take care
Monica
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Post by wswillsmithe on Mar 18, 2008 6:10:43 GMT
Antidepressants are used commonly in medical and psychiatric practice. As a class, antidepressants have in common their ability to treat major depressive illness. Most antidepressants are also effective in the treatment of panic disorder and other anxiety disorders. Some antidepressants effectively treat obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) and a variety of other conditions .
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