I'm pregnant!

[stevensmummy]

I have just discovered I'm pregnant again. I have had a broken computer for about 2 weeks now so have been worrying away on my own. You can not believe the relief to get on here 2nite. For that already girls I thankyou.

As i said i am pregnant again and am already concerned, they guess I am abut 11 weeks already and already I am starting to worry. Whats the chances this will come back? I'm not sure I will cope again and what if I hate my little boy again all coz of a new baby. That cant be fair on him, he didnt ask for a brother or sister! Part of me longs for that feeling once again, I know when I feel the baby move I will want it all the more but I cant help being concerned. Deep down I am looking forward to that being in hospital and being just me and the baby just after it is born, I guess thats the one true time I felt close to steven, maybe if i can fix this early on this time I might not get it. Is that insane? But what if i love the new baby more? How can I share my love which I feel I have just discovered again with another child? I dont think i can.

Does anyone else see my point or am I having pregancy hormone overdrive and just panicing?

Thankyou
Sarah xx

[kl77]

Hi Sarah

Don't think we've spoken before because I haven't been on for a few weeks, just wanted to say 'Congratulations' x

The benefit this time round is that you have an awareness of PNI, would probably spot the signs earlier and can get preventative support through your pregnancy.

I think a lot of your worries are the same for people who haven't had pni. I've just got the one little man who's 7 months now but I remember when I was carrying him I wondered if I'd ever have another baby because of a lot of the reasons you mentioned above - that was well before pni. Would I be able to love another one? Have I got enough love to go round? would I love one more than the other? Would one of them be missing out? How do you share yourself?

What I'm trying to say is that these thoughts are probably very normally for a newly expectant mum who already has one child, pni or no pni.

I'm sure you will cope with whatever happens being the survivor you are.

You have a lucky son and another lucky baby on the way having you as their mummy x

Take good care and congratulations again

KL x

[stevensmummy]

Hi,

Thankyou for replying, just hearing what u have to say helps a little. I actually had the courage to discuss it with my OH last night and he smiled and said of course you will, u still love me dont you! Some comparison eh? But I guess he has a point, a good few years ago I could never have imagined having one child and now I guess 2 wont be much different.

And I supose you are right i dont think my concerns are any diff to an non pni mother.

Thankyou for replying its just nice to know someone is there

Sarah xx

[Veritee]

Hi
I said my congratulations on another thread
but I will say it here too.

I do know you will cope - any pregnancy is always daunting and of course you do need extra understanding and empathy.

There is no definitive evidence that I know of that says you will definitely get PNI with a further birth...
some PNI theorists do think that you are more likely to get it if you have had PNI before.......

but others see no link

On here a good few have found that with a further birth they were OK and did not have PNI again - the rest did - but....

I do not know if it will be of any help? but they have often found that forewarned they can cope better with PNI -

and the second time around many say that although they know they have PNI they are far more able to cope with it because this time they know what is happening!

before they just did not know what was wrong or what to do, but the next time they did and got the right help and medication ( if they took medication) and their partners and relatives were forewarned too

which all helps

but you may be OK - and many have been fine

Lots of love

VeriteeXX

[francoise]

hi

dont know if you have read my thread , or even actually that im up to date on it thinking about it but yeah about pni afterpni , i was absolutely scared to death of getting it wiht this one , but like vee said you can get support thru pregnancy and your hospital visit, to be honest mine was different as she was transverse so was in hospital first and then got induced and then she was ciollodian so had to be in special care but my physcologist wrote a letter for my notes about my pni with the last baby and all the midwives and consultant followed it , just saying i needed to be in control and know exactly whats happening and various things , didnt want to be in a ward so had my own room but necause of pni didnt have to pay for it , , very lucky coz the amount of time i was in would of cost me thousand quid at fiffty pound a night ,

thing is im fine , yeah i had a dodgy week or so there but im in the fourth week now and feel pretty normal and only thing i have is a bad back which is normal , slightly panicky but i was always like that , really though just feel fine , lovely baby and to think of all those days and nights i worried myself sick over pni again , funny thing is knowing the signs is a massive helpin itself and support is more readily given as they know how bad it can get if its left ,

hope its been abit helpful , got to go now as the bab is crying or i could of typed about this for hours ,sorry if it doesnt make sense , just trying to rush thats all as she gets a bottle every two hours at the moment , whys that , have no idea but hopefully it will go to four soon eh


francoise

[cheshire]

Hi sarah

Was wondering how the pregnancy is going? ...Think I wrote to you recently about something else and didn't ask.

Hope you're okx
Hopefulxx

[stevensmummy]

hi Hopeful

Thanks for asking, all is not bad considering whats happened lately. I maybe could ask some advice from you or anyone actually. I'm 17 weeks on and I'm sore but I was last time and i was asulted on boxing day, (you can read it on the help and support section I have a thread there, I posted as a guest as forgot password, its down as sarah as a guest) but I feel like I have a swollen vagina area. I'm not in the habit of poking about down there but i was uncomfortable so I did and it felt kind of fat and swollen. Is this normal? I didnt want to go to the doc esp, incase it was normal and i felt stupid, lol. I also have a bit of a discharge, but I thought that was normal. I often feel damp, I surely cant be leaking already, and my pelvic floor is strong i'm told, so I cant be wetting myself surely. Its disgusting really, lol. One of the joys! Thanks for asking though and for the previous help

Sarah x

[cheshire]

Hi Sarah,

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you on boxing day - that's awful

Are you feeling any more comfortable? What did your GP say?

Love
Hopefulxx

[stevensmummy]

Hi,

I havent actually been to the doc, I havent had the time, pathertic excuse but it feels like everything is on top of me just now and I've so much to do. I'll get round to it. I'll let you know how it goes. Thanks for asking x

Sarah x