Where is Justme31?

[cokey]

I haven't seen justme31 in days and she normally keeps in touch - anyone else heard from her?

If you are about justme - just let me know you are ok.

Cokey xxx

[winegirl]

Ditto JM, if you get 5 pop in and let us know how you are doing. We are thinking of you xx

WG x

[cokey]

WG

Its okay she#s back, just been ill for a few days )

Worry over. Gosh we are like a little family here aren't we? lol

Cokey xxx

[justme31]

lol at lil family... its kinda true thought i always find myself thinkin i wonder how u lot r in the day!! god am sad!! The thoughts r back with a vengance now it peein me off... its weird i was so ill the last week and i wasnt obssessin about that...instead i was worryin about having an allergy to all the pills and dyin from that! Now am back to thinkin and obssessin about daft stuff.... think am managin to deal with the thoughts a bit better.. am tryin to pay them no attention which is hard. Dont think the kids going back to school today has helped with the way i am feelin(u lot must b thinkin is she mad kids at school is bliss innit!)... the kids do my head in but i find that cos they distract me the thoughts dont seem as bad.

[winegirl]

Hi jM

Great to hear for you, but sorry you have still been struggling with the thoughts.

Sorry its a quickie but I am at work and not supposed to be doing this, but just wanted to say Hi and glad to have you back xx

Spk Soon

WG xx

[cokey]

Hi Claire

I think its that old syndrome of being alone again. I always get worse Sunday night, Monday morning when I know Paul is back at work.

I have been thinking how well I am doing but actually I haven't done what a lot of you ladies have and thats be totally alone without kids. I don't know how I feel about that yet.

So justme its totally understandable you are jittery today with the kids out. My sister came round today and said she can't wait for hers to go back tomorrow. How PNI chnages things eh?

Hope you are keeping up the positive thinking. You will be fine.

Cokey xxx

[winegirl]

Hi JM

How did it go today babes?? Did you manage to keep busy at all??

WG xx

[justme31]

lol tell me about it cokey i used to think yipee kids going back to school...now it just feels me with dread. This sounds mad but i feel so much better about going out to the shops etc when someone is with me even just the kids. Yesterday was a weird day wg... i felt terrible in the mornin the thoughts were so bad then by lunchtime i was cryin and felt so dow... i went to c the therapist at 4 yesterday and spent the whole session just cryin my eyes out.... then last night i felt the most normal that i have felt since this all started and had a brill nights sleep.... i always find it difficult with the pni cos u dont know how u r gunna feel from one moment to the next.

[winegirl]

Hi JM

Yeah the mornings are always the worst and i really do still suffer in the mornings myself. A good sign of being in recovery is picking up in the afternoons.

You got much on today babes??

WG x

[cokey]

Hi JM

Yeah I am the same, feel much more comfortable with someone coming with me to shops, even just my baby in a pram. That was one of the things I discussed with my therapist, that since Evie was born and I guess the PNI started, I have felt panicky if ever alone shopping or just driving to pick my son up. Its like 'aaah I am totally alone' and if I ever forget my phone, I have a panic attack.

Stupid because I used to travel abroad and live and work alone before mobiles were used. I never worried as much then.

Hope you are okay today.

Sorry to hear your mornings are still a bit rough WG, you are so strong for everyone else.

Cokey xxx

[winegirl]

No worries Cokey, starting to get used to it LOL!

How are you guys doing this evening???

WG x

[cokey]

a bit tired. am keeping up with the positivity - my latest is that this is temporary and its just a journey to reach a richer more fulfilled life and every day is a step nearer.

(Just wish I'd reach the blasted destination lol)

How are you?

How are you justme too?

Cokey xxx

[winegirl]

I believe that you are right though Cokey, at the end of this life is richer and more fullfilling than it ws before. There is more to appreciate, a more sensitive side to us and new lease of life. I am pretty sure of that x

[Scarlet]

Hiya

I felt the same when my eldest went to school when he was 3. I didn't have PNI, but felt so alone, and I used to go out and about to places we had gone to together and reminisce. But I found that the more I went out to those places and got myself out and about, the more I actually enjoyed my own company. Even now, I know that when my LO goes to nursery, I'll be fine.

Find as many things as you can to occupy yourself through out the day, make a little plan of things you are going to do, and make sure one of them includes getting outside the house. Go to places you went with your kids, don't avoid anywhere...it is so true that it get's easier the more you do these things, avoidance only makes you more anxious in the long run.

Cokey hun, it is temporary, and when you are fully recovered, you will know yourself so well (all the self-analysing comes in useful in the end ). This is what I have found. Also I am atuned to others suffering as well, and can sense a problem with my kids just by looking at them.

Here's wishing you a lovely day ladies.

xxxxx

[Scarlet]

Apr 22, 2008 20:18:01 GMT @winegirl said:

I believe that you are right though Cokey, at the end of this life is richer and more fullfilling than it ws before. There is more to appreciate, a more sensitive side to us and new lease of life. I am pretty sure of that x

This is so true.

Justme, hows things going for you hun, are you having more good moment?