sorry to barge in !!!

[m]

Hi , before I start , apologies for rambling - this is going to make me sound completely dotty and I'm not ( well ...lol !!!!) I have posted a couple of things on here before , can't remember password etc and sure could find it , but bit concerned and mildly paranoid at min that people will read all the details and know it's me . Have been well for while now and thought over worst , which know I am , but big blip at mo , am not neccesarily as down as have been but HUGE temptation to cut , have resisted so far and know for my lo's sake can't do it again - but can barely touch a pair of scissors !!!! Thansk to Michelle for the "cutting warning" it is soo true , started as teenager , then stopped and started again with the pni , have never cut partic deep but became my coping strategy + think now na ingrained habit . Some issues regarding family member - they're busy but not returning calls etc , so am irrationally thinking I've done something etc etc - oh the joys of this rubbish !!!!! Hope you are all doing ok xxxxx

[winegirl]

Hi M

Firstly WELL DONE you for resisting that temptation, it really is half the battle. I think that once you start again it can become out of control so you are doing really well not to let it go that far!

I know what you mean about the irrational thinking. I used to get like that too! So and so is obviously not talking to me, so and so gave me afunny look - what have I done etc... Paranoia comes with most mental health problems, but you seem to realise that it is irrational which is a great start.

Please feel free to continue talking here if it helps, we wil do our best to support you through this xxx

Take Care

WG xx

[michelle79]

Hi M

Dont ap;ologise - you are not rambling and you dont sound dotty.

Well done on resisting the temptation. That must be so hard trying to fight the urge. I really hope you dont resort to self harm again as it doesnt take long for it to spiral out of control. Hopefully this is just a small 'blip' and that you get over it soon.

I understand those feelings of paranoia too well as i get them all the time. I have to try and tell myself that they arent talking about me and that people arent staring at me and that sort of thing but it is hard.

Shell

[cheshire]

Hi M and welcome to the sitex

I'm sorry you are going through this blip and I have some understanding of self harm too - as I used to with PNI (+ the paranoia).

So I'm sending you my support too.

Hopefulx

[m]

Hi , just a quickie as desperate for my bed lol !!!!!!Thank you all so much for your replies - made me cry , but in good way if that makes sense ?!!!! Am touched by the kindness of everybody on here - is just an amazing site !!!
Is still a struggle not to do anything , but know once there getting out of it again will be difficult - I feel it is like an addiction , just not one that many people can understand . Sounds weird , but thinking today if I'd had a physical reaction / illness after birth and was still suffering now , would be no issue with people knowing or helping or being "sympathetic" etc if had symptoms of physical illness - could rant forever !!!!!! Am still paranoid as person need to contact still no reply , I know that my reasoning is all wrong and there will be ( as has been every other time in the past when I've been like this) but can't get it into my head yet - have ben having cbt so trying the alternative thinking , but each alternative thought is more negative than the first - not quite what the therapist had in mind I imagine lol !!!! Have hugley overactive imagination too , so can imagine every scenario running through my head !!!!Anyway so much for a short post . THANK YOU all again - you are all wonderful . Really hope you all doing ok . Keep going !!!! Lots of love and hugs to you all xxxx

[monica]

Hi m

how are you doing? Hope the blip is passing. I felt 'recovered' from PNI after just over a couple of years, however, from time to time, a blip does appear on the horizon. I think to get this completely out of your system it can take quite a while but that's not to say life isn't good in general.

I do understand about the paranoia - I had it to. I canremember doing an aerobics class and getting really paranoid the instructor was looking down on me, for no real reason! Why dont'you get in touch with your family and put your mind at ease.

Well done on resisting the temptation to cut - it must be so hard, but you can do it.

Take care

Monica