weight loss - not posted for months

[minkysmum]

Hi, It's been months since I posted here. I tried to distance myself from everything pnd related as I did go and see my doctor and he diagnosed "new mum syndrome". Told me to get some sleep, maybe go on holiday, and I'd be fine.

Well. I did get married, and managed to muddle through the day. This was now 7 months ago, and I'm still struggling every day to cope with this.

I'm posting in this section as I weighed myself this morning, and have lost 4 stone since my wedding. I need to go back and see doctor, but after last time I did wonder if I'm making all this up. I still have the visions of throwing daughter downstairs, I did hit her twice in the middle of the night when she wouldn't stop crying, and then I feel disgusted with myself again. Every morning I feel sick at the thought of another day of the same routine.

I'm sat here writing this now just letting go really. It's a relief to write again, and be honest and open about my feelings. I'm normal and coping really well with this on the outside, but am just trapped.

Sorry if this in the wrong section. Just the weight loss prompted me to post here.

[wanagetoverthis]

Hi minkysmum

Sorry this has not got much better for you. I do definitely think your symptoms sound like PNI, maybe your doctor thought he/she was being kinder not diagnosing you but I found that that made me worse... As at least knowing it's PNI gives us a reason for why we feel that way and we have something a bit more concrete to fight.

Thinking you should ring your HV for some support and to talk it over, be really honest as they see this all the time... and also ring your GP again. If you feel desperate then make your feelings known.
Sometimes we have to act a bit extreme in order to get GP's to listen (cry,beg etc) as they can so easily overlook our cries for help.

Keep talking to us, we're here for you. How old is your Daughter? Do you have family support so you can have a break etc?

N xxx

[Weeble]

Hi minkysmum

Really sorry things are so hard for you, just know you are not alone and your feelings are really common. However, do get help this is an illness and you do not need to suffer needlessly. Everything wantogetoverthis says is true and sound advice.

Kat

[juppster]

Hey Minkysmum
Firstly Congratulations on your wedding!
I can only agree with the girls above. It sounds as though you definitely need to talk to someone, be that going back to your gp or talking to your hv if you're still in contact with them?
You don't need to feel this way and you certainly don't need to be suffering on your own. Come back and let us know how you're doing xx

[monica]

Hello and welcome back.

Congrats on your wedding! I'm sorry things are tough. I would go back to drs - maybe a different one - and say how you feel. You are not making up your symptoms and I thought maybe your dr was a bit dissmissive, as many are when it comes to pni.

Where do you thnk the weight loss has come from? Stress? 4 stone is alot - I would get it checked out - I don't mean to worry you at all as it could well be stress, not eating but things like overactive thyroid can also make a difference which can also affect how you feel. You don't have to feel the way you do and help and support can make such a difference.

Do come back and let us know how you ae.

Monicaxxx

[monica]

Hi

Just wondering how you are doing? Hope things have improved.

Monicax