Bloss's Diary

[bloss6]

I haven't been diagnosed as having PNI but alot of people seem to thing I have it.
I am very tearful, often crying over silly little things or sometimes nothing. I'm completely off my food and don't think I've slept properly in weeks. Everything feels like a struggle and I feel like I'm in a black hole. There is no way out.
I have 6 kids aged 10, 9, 6, 4, 3 and 7 months. I feel like I am being judged on having that many kids and the fact that if I even hint I'm not feeling right then it's my own fault for having all of them.
I am being very snappy and irrational and horrible (according to my hubby).
I just want to be left alone to hide away. Curl up into a ball and make everyone and everything go away.

[Weeble]

Wow six kids how lovely and what a lot of hard work too. I always wanted to be a mother hen with lots of chickens. What you describe sounds like it might be pni, have you spoken to your gp or health visitor?

Keep talking to us, it's great you have joined the diary area.

Kat

[juppster]

Hey and welcome to the diary section
As Kat says, it certainly wouldn't hurt to visit your gp to talk about how you're feeling. Do you still see your HV? If you feel you can relate to her more than your gp then mention to her how you've been feeeling. You don't have to feel this way and you certainly don't have to go through it on your own.
Keep talking here mate, we will do all we can to support you xx

[Victoria]

Hi, as has already been said, it does sounds like you could have PNI. First step, and often the hardest, speak to your GP or HV about how you are feeling. You need support. xxx

[monica]

hello bloss

Just thought I would add to your diary if you don't mind. You certainly tick the boxes for pni with your symptoms. Please do seek help - you don't have to feel this way and with help and support you will recover. Life must be hard caring for six children - when you feel low it's so difficult doing all the practical stuff. it's unfair if anyone thinks you are to blame for the way you feel because of the number of children you have. You can feel the same way after only having one!

Please come back and let us know how you're doing> the ladies here are really supportive and will understnad what you're going through.

Monicax