Something has to be wrong

[Momof3]

I had my 3rd baby on 1/10 and have literally been a mess ever since. I had a csection and almost did not make it through it, because I could feel it. they kept me for 4 days because of anxiety and not being able to lower blood pressure. My postpartum check (3 days later), they checked my BP again and kept me there the whole day because I was getting spikes that were way to high. All along was having blurry vision, dizziness, pain in my abdomen, which I still have after a BM, but it will stay there all day. Last Monday, I started hemorrhaging. I called the doctor and they told me to immediately call 911. Since it was flu season I didn't want to bring my newborn into the ER so I had to go all by myself I have my boyfriend stay with my baby. It was so scary sitting in waiting 4 results. They didn't ultrasound and I thought that it looked like there just been some blood that had pooled and they didn't see anything else. And I had a lot of pain and wasn't sure if it was from all that ultrasounds and probing they did or if it was something worse. They also did just CBC and said it was normal. Even after all this I can barely get out of bed. I am petrified that I've lost all 30 pounds of my baby weight in two and a half weeks. I know part of that comes from maybe eating one meal a day and being too scared to eat anything, but still my mind races towards cancer. I was also overwhelmingly tired the first two weeks all I wanted to do was sleep. Also a sign of Cancer. The part that's freaking me out the most is I hear a whoosh sound if I turn my head to the side which makes me go right words brain tumor. I don't know what CBC is look for but I'm not sure they would find anything then I'm scared of. Has anybody else had any of these symptoms?

[frogface]

You've been through an appalling trauma with your c section. It's really, really common to have paralysing health anxiety after what you've been through. Even having to go to the a&e without your baby sounds traumatic. Can you go to your gp and tell them what you're going through or write it down? They could do tests to try and ease your mind regarding your health and may be able to help you or refer you to someone else to dea with the anxiety. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It does get easier.

[monica]

Welcome

I can only echo what frogface has said that your c section was horrendous and negligent? You shouldn't feel anything so something went wrong. Possibly the way youre feeling could be due to some sort of post traumatic stress or something similar. Any physical symptoms whether anxiety induced or not should be checked out by your doctor. What does he or she think?

on the plus side it does sound like you were thoroughly checked out at A&E and if it were anything sinister it would have been noticed.

I suffered with awful health anxiety when I had pni and in my case it was triggered by strange and seeimingly inexplicable health symptoms, one of which was debilitating exhaustion as if I had the flu. Anxiety can trigger terrible symptoms . Perhaps some sort of counselling or support might help. Do you have close family or friends or your bf to confide in and talk to?

Please keep talking x