Post by caz on Jul 24, 2003 19:01:56 GMT
hi everyone
I've only just discovered this site, so please bear with me. I feel so anxious and low today. My baby is nearly 10 months old, and I also have a daughter aged 4 years. I absolutely adore them both, but haven't been well for some time. No one has officially said that I have pnd (my GP just signs my sick notes with "anxiety/stress", although my health visitor told me a while back "of course you've got post-natal depresion!)
I went back to work following maternity leave, but only lasted 5 weeks as I wasn't coping AT ALL. Now financial pressures have urged me to go back to work, but although I'm meeting my manager next week to discusss this, I really don't want to go. I think there are 2 main things stopping me: I don't enjoy my job very much, it is extremely stressful, and yes, I have thought about changing to do something else, but as i am a health care professional, I can't find anything else that would pay as well.
The second thing that is making me feel awful that I absolutely DREAD the thought of leaving the girls, the baby in particular (the eldest is about to start school). I am so fearful that something is going to happen to her and I won't be there. I didn't feel this heightned anxiety first time round. The baby care is shared by my mother and my in-laws, and I don't feel as bad leaving her with my mother as with my in-laws.
I lost my first 2 pregnancies (one stillbirth, one miscarriage...read into that what you will). I would deeply appreciate some help and support as the days get nearer for me to HAVE to return to work. thanks for listening
I've only just discovered this site, so please bear with me. I feel so anxious and low today. My baby is nearly 10 months old, and I also have a daughter aged 4 years. I absolutely adore them both, but haven't been well for some time. No one has officially said that I have pnd (my GP just signs my sick notes with "anxiety/stress", although my health visitor told me a while back "of course you've got post-natal depresion!)
I went back to work following maternity leave, but only lasted 5 weeks as I wasn't coping AT ALL. Now financial pressures have urged me to go back to work, but although I'm meeting my manager next week to discusss this, I really don't want to go. I think there are 2 main things stopping me: I don't enjoy my job very much, it is extremely stressful, and yes, I have thought about changing to do something else, but as i am a health care professional, I can't find anything else that would pay as well.
The second thing that is making me feel awful that I absolutely DREAD the thought of leaving the girls, the baby in particular (the eldest is about to start school). I am so fearful that something is going to happen to her and I won't be there. I didn't feel this heightned anxiety first time round. The baby care is shared by my mother and my in-laws, and I don't feel as bad leaving her with my mother as with my in-laws.
I lost my first 2 pregnancies (one stillbirth, one miscarriage...read into that what you will). I would deeply appreciate some help and support as the days get nearer for me to HAVE to return to work. thanks for listening