Post by Susan on Oct 22, 2003 9:25:15 GMT
I have two beautiful children a 31/2 year old and a 8 month old, I love them both dearly and my 8 month old daughter is such a good little girl I just can't believe she's mine sometimes. My husband is trying to start a business and is away alot as he also works at a job. I belong to a playcentre and go there two times a week, life should be great, but it's not!!.
I feel like a huge failure and a fraud . I try to act normally but find myself crying and feeling miserable all the time,Than I feel guilty because there are a lot of people worse off than me.I feel I'm just going through the motions and not really living.I find it hard sometimes to just do the basic things around home,just looking at the dishes on the bench seems like such a big hurdle.
My husband knows something is not right but I feel that he doesn't want to know and already has too much pressure with trying to start this business and everyday pressures. I'm scared to go to a doctor for fear they will put me on anti-depressions ,which my husband has strong views on. My family recently visited and helped out around the place doing things that needed to be done and seem to be of the opinion that I'm a bit down and should get on with things. But I just can't seem to break free and if I do feel good for a while I just seem to come crashing back down and seem to be getting further into this hole.
But I feel like a fraud because maybe I'm just a weak person and don't really have PND at all. I know what I should do, I should go to my doctor , but I don't what to turn the spotlight on me, so to speak, and with the new business I feel I am not a priority . Sorry for going on , just thought I'd tell someone, pathetic really
I feel like a huge failure and a fraud . I try to act normally but find myself crying and feeling miserable all the time,Than I feel guilty because there are a lot of people worse off than me.I feel I'm just going through the motions and not really living.I find it hard sometimes to just do the basic things around home,just looking at the dishes on the bench seems like such a big hurdle.
My husband knows something is not right but I feel that he doesn't want to know and already has too much pressure with trying to start this business and everyday pressures. I'm scared to go to a doctor for fear they will put me on anti-depressions ,which my husband has strong views on. My family recently visited and helped out around the place doing things that needed to be done and seem to be of the opinion that I'm a bit down and should get on with things. But I just can't seem to break free and if I do feel good for a while I just seem to come crashing back down and seem to be getting further into this hole.
But I feel like a fraud because maybe I'm just a weak person and don't really have PND at all. I know what I should do, I should go to my doctor , but I don't what to turn the spotlight on me, so to speak, and with the new business I feel I am not a priority . Sorry for going on , just thought I'd tell someone, pathetic really