Post by Gayle on Oct 31, 2003 1:19:09 GMT
Hi Everyone
I too am suffering again with PND. Fortunately I have recognised the symptoms but it doesn't seem any easier to bear. One of the awful things apart from the 'horrible thoughts' about people (including baby) is that I don't 'feel' anything.
Nothing. Its like i'm dead inside, screaming to get out and willing myself to survive.
The worst thing being that I made my GP put me on anti-depressants while pregnant because I had such a negative pregnancy and I was frightened that I'd get it 2nd time round. My other son is 10 years old, and I've battled with depression after being diagnosed with PND when 1st son 6 mths old, for all that time now.
One of the reasons I didn#t want anymore kids was because i was frightened of getting PND again. Thought I was doing V well this time round (baby is 6 weeks old) as I had a very good support network when baby was born and my current partner is v supportive, albeit much younger than I. He's so loving and patient, but even he doesn't incite any feeling in me other than irritation when he asks me whats wrong?
I've been taking my anti-d's since birth (stopped taking during last 3 mth pregnancy) but I also take pain-killers for back pain which has flared up big time since about 2 wks after birth. This has a knock-on effect and can make me depressed, as if I wasn't enough already!
If anyone has any words of wisdom for me I'd appreciate it so much. At the moment I'm hanging by a thread, hoping I'll wake up one day and want to either cry or laugh.
Just anything would be better than this awful 'limbo'.
regards to you all
Gayle x
