Post by julianne on Nov 13, 2003 13:44:26 GMT
Hello,
I've been visiting this site now for about a year. I have twins that are 15mths old and have been taking anti'd's since they were 6 weeks. I feel as though I have just been left to get on with things alone. I have recieved no counselling. I was refered to a pysciatrist who basically confirmed that I wasn't crazy and was just suffering pnd. Which reasured me for a day or so but then he old feelings of lack of self worth came crawling back in. I have been on 2 different types of anti'ds and am currently on my highest of 5 levels. I have thought maybe it's related to my time of the month so have brought a natural alternative that is meant to help. I really just don't know what to do. I hardly leave the house I just don't want anyone I used to know to see me. I used to be popular and have lots of friends to talk to but now feel I only really have 2. I have put on alot of weight and am currently the biggest I have ever been. I over eat, for example the other day i eat a box of chocolates and 4 bars aswell as my normal intake of food. I am becomming increasingly worried about the relationship I have with food as I feel i can't control the amount I eat. I have considered plastic surgery but can't warrant spending that much money on myself. I have also recently brought some diet pills hoping that they may help. I never thought I was that big until I looked in the mirror recently and feel that I truely saw myself for the first time, as a big fat lump with no distinguishing features. This is also having an effect on my marriage. I don't feel i am attractive enough to have sex so am always turning my husband down. He nows thinks I don't love him and is constantly asking if I do. He thinks that I don't find him attractive anmore but I do, it;s me I just can't convince him of that. Has anyone got any ideas???
I've been visiting this site now for about a year. I have twins that are 15mths old and have been taking anti'd's since they were 6 weeks. I feel as though I have just been left to get on with things alone. I have recieved no counselling. I was refered to a pysciatrist who basically confirmed that I wasn't crazy and was just suffering pnd. Which reasured me for a day or so but then he old feelings of lack of self worth came crawling back in. I have been on 2 different types of anti'ds and am currently on my highest of 5 levels. I have thought maybe it's related to my time of the month so have brought a natural alternative that is meant to help. I really just don't know what to do. I hardly leave the house I just don't want anyone I used to know to see me. I used to be popular and have lots of friends to talk to but now feel I only really have 2. I have put on alot of weight and am currently the biggest I have ever been. I over eat, for example the other day i eat a box of chocolates and 4 bars aswell as my normal intake of food. I am becomming increasingly worried about the relationship I have with food as I feel i can't control the amount I eat. I have considered plastic surgery but can't warrant spending that much money on myself. I have also recently brought some diet pills hoping that they may help. I never thought I was that big until I looked in the mirror recently and feel that I truely saw myself for the first time, as a big fat lump with no distinguishing features. This is also having an effect on my marriage. I don't feel i am attractive enough to have sex so am always turning my husband down. He nows thinks I don't love him and is constantly asking if I do. He thinks that I don't find him attractive anmore but I do, it;s me I just can't convince him of that. Has anyone got any ideas???