Post by witsend on Nov 29, 2005 13:56:45 GMT
Hi,
Like most posters on here I am struggling in my marriage and feel at breaking point (altough extremely proud to be a dad and so pleased that baby is doing so well).
I will try to give a bit of history without going overboard on detail.
We have recently had our first child, my wife suffered throughout the pregnancy, not only the physical side of things, but the mental side, for which I take responsibility as I was not supportive enough emotionally and allowed some situations to develop selfishly as they didn't harm me. (I know I have not been in any way deliberately nasty, but I am learning that being too laid back can be equally destructive).
Since the birth we have been through the wringer, from my side it seems I can't do anything right from her side it seems I am still not supporting her enough, we have virtually banned all visitors from the house to help her recover (the only people who visit is her family who she feels cause her no concern), and despite my best efforts (taking over responsibility for the child overnight so she can sleep, hold down a full time job, deal with anyone who wishes to see us, a large percentage of the house work, cooking etc) she seems to be getting worse not better.
Currently not a day passes when she doesn’t tell me to leave and I am no good for her (my bag is almost permanently packed), its true that I tend to do something that starts her off, but these can be fairly innocuous things, certainly they don't always merit the unleashing of hurricane wifey. I try to bite my tongue, even to the degree of taking responsibility for things that are not my fault to placate her (I am terrified these will come back and bite me in the future, but that seems the lesser of two evils at the moment), but I can only take so much and increasingly find myself snapping back at the wrong time mostly in defence (you can only have your heart ripped out so many times I suppose).
I am sure this will improve over time, but at the moment its eating away at me, I'm barely sleeping and eating hardly anything. I guess I need to turn to you for a little support at this time (I hate to burden anyone with anything, so I have spoken to no-one of what is happening), so I can support her fully, which is my only priority (well obviously the baby comes first, the only ray of sunshine at the moment is how well baby is doing).
I need to be strong for her so she can be strong for herself, I just hope the path darkens no further.
If anyone has any suggestions, to help me work towards getting on an even keel with the woman I don't want to be without, please let me have them, I know I cannot go in all guns blazing and try to get her to a GP yet, so I need to be gentle.
I'm sorry if anything comes across a little vague, I'm worried my wife might read this, as she is a bit of an internet demon and I am worried about what she may do if she reads this.
Thanks.
Like most posters on here I am struggling in my marriage and feel at breaking point (altough extremely proud to be a dad and so pleased that baby is doing so well).
I will try to give a bit of history without going overboard on detail.
We have recently had our first child, my wife suffered throughout the pregnancy, not only the physical side of things, but the mental side, for which I take responsibility as I was not supportive enough emotionally and allowed some situations to develop selfishly as they didn't harm me. (I know I have not been in any way deliberately nasty, but I am learning that being too laid back can be equally destructive).
Since the birth we have been through the wringer, from my side it seems I can't do anything right from her side it seems I am still not supporting her enough, we have virtually banned all visitors from the house to help her recover (the only people who visit is her family who she feels cause her no concern), and despite my best efforts (taking over responsibility for the child overnight so she can sleep, hold down a full time job, deal with anyone who wishes to see us, a large percentage of the house work, cooking etc) she seems to be getting worse not better.
Currently not a day passes when she doesn’t tell me to leave and I am no good for her (my bag is almost permanently packed), its true that I tend to do something that starts her off, but these can be fairly innocuous things, certainly they don't always merit the unleashing of hurricane wifey. I try to bite my tongue, even to the degree of taking responsibility for things that are not my fault to placate her (I am terrified these will come back and bite me in the future, but that seems the lesser of two evils at the moment), but I can only take so much and increasingly find myself snapping back at the wrong time mostly in defence (you can only have your heart ripped out so many times I suppose).
I am sure this will improve over time, but at the moment its eating away at me, I'm barely sleeping and eating hardly anything. I guess I need to turn to you for a little support at this time (I hate to burden anyone with anything, so I have spoken to no-one of what is happening), so I can support her fully, which is my only priority (well obviously the baby comes first, the only ray of sunshine at the moment is how well baby is doing).
I need to be strong for her so she can be strong for herself, I just hope the path darkens no further.
If anyone has any suggestions, to help me work towards getting on an even keel with the woman I don't want to be without, please let me have them, I know I cannot go in all guns blazing and try to get her to a GP yet, so I need to be gentle.
I'm sorry if anything comes across a little vague, I'm worried my wife might read this, as she is a bit of an internet demon and I am worried about what she may do if she reads this.
Thanks.