Recovered thanks to this site

[Cokey Not Logged On]

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Hi everyone. My username is Cokey and I used this site well over a year ago.
Currently, a good friend of mine (who incidently I met through a forum when I had PNI) is suffering from PNI and OCD interlinked for the second time and it has made me realise how well I am personally.

I wanted to come back on here and tell everyone who is suffering right now that you will get better. People told me I would (and I made two other good friends through this forum LisaNurse and Carmen, who helped me along) but truly without the patience and understanding and strict control of this site, all actioned by Veritee and some key moderators, my life would have been a lot more difficult.
I have had a few friends now with PNi and each and every one I send straight to this forum because it is the trusting companionship and sharing of other women recovered or suffering that make the hellish journey of PNI bearable.

So little is understood of PNI and whether you duffer from associated OCD and thoughts or not, it is excruciating and probably one of the cruelest conditions to suffer.

If you are suffering right now, then I hope my story gives you comfort. I had terrible thoughts of self-harm, harming my baby and just general stuff about bad things in the world. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't even bear to breath because it was too painful to live. At the point where I truly thought I didn't want to go on with life, my husband stepped and in and I was lucky for that support. This forum was then my walking stick and just knowing that it was here 24/7 was beyond wonderful.

My son is now 2 and I feel great. We are thinking of trying for a second child and I know it is possible I will get PNI again and I know how terrible that will be. I also know I can get help.

You are very strong women and you will all get better. I send you all my love and wish you a speedy recovery. I hope you reach that light at the end of that dark tunnel very soon.

Cokey xxx

[yoyo]

Hi Cokey

Thanks so much for your post - it makes me feel so much more positive and I'm sure many women will be pleased to read of your experience and also the fact you are even contemplating another baby - this is something dear to my heart x x

Well done you x

[michelle212]

Ya thanks for your post its great to know that you have recovered from this horrible illness and that others will to..... I myself suffer from the evil thoughts about harming my baby and i also know how great the girls are on here for support whenever you have a bad day.

So really cheers its nice to know that there is some light at the end of the tunnel and that you have found it.................Take care

[wendabell]

hello cokey,
great to hear from you and so glad its over for you.
Take good care of yourself now and live life to the full.Thank you so much for posting your recovery though it means so much to those still in the dark place.
Love and hugs
wendabell

[Summer]

Hi Cokey- It's me! Thanks for introducing me to this site. It is great. Perhaps I won't have to phone you and hassle you quite as much eh?!!

Love Summer xx

[cheshire]

Hi Cokey

Thanks for such an encouraging post, so glad things are better for youxx

I agree with what you say about the site - key members/ moderators and Veritee of course made a huge difference to me and still do.

It really is always so great to hear positive stories of recovery

HopefulXXXXX

[Cokey NLO]

No problem ladies, I wouldn't be at this stage without the help of others.

Summer- hassle me as much as you like! The site is great though :-)

Cokey xxx

PS Nice name Summer lol