Post by Veritee on Jan 27, 2005 19:35:36 GMT
Hi
I can not write poems but I got this from a web site - but I can not remember where or who wrote it. I will see if I can find out.
I hope whoever wrote it does not mind me putting it here - but I do know the author had PNI so maybe she will not mind?
Out of the Hell Hole
In a turbulent world, no one else could see,
An unfamiliar place of plexus misery.
Confusion erased my name from my mind,
Terror and hopelessness was all I could find.
Ignorant comments reaped frustration and pain,
Would I ever be in their world, ever again?
Afraid to hold her, afraid I would fall,
Off the moving carpet which was still to all.
Disturbance dictated, sweat smeared my palms,
I wanted to hold her steady in my arms.
Howling in anguish for I could not cry,
Irrational grieving, no reasons why.
Phobic of everything and everyone near,
In a time of ruin, torment and fear.
Morbid anxiety took hold of me strong,
I delivered a child, I did nothing wrong.
Dejected and hollow, with progress slow,
A love for my baby that just wouldn’t show.
Safely in my heart I cherished her with care,
I was a mother in turmoil of total despair.
Recovery hindered by prejudice remarks,
The soul inside me took walks to the parks.
Despondent dispirited by words unjust,
I learned to forgive and in myself to trust.
Courage gradually led me to a path of new,
Where grass became green and the sky became blue.
Learning to live again now an obsession,
My baby I missed – in a world of depression.
A life was taken to a traumatic hell,
Painful to recall, painful to tell,
As far as you can fall, is as far as I fell,
Tears from a mother – now living life well.
Update - it came from here www.snowqueen.eurobell.co.uk
but there is no contact e mail so I can ask her permission to post her poem
I can not write poems but I got this from a web site - but I can not remember where or who wrote it. I will see if I can find out.
I hope whoever wrote it does not mind me putting it here - but I do know the author had PNI so maybe she will not mind?
Out of the Hell Hole
In a turbulent world, no one else could see,
An unfamiliar place of plexus misery.
Confusion erased my name from my mind,
Terror and hopelessness was all I could find.
Ignorant comments reaped frustration and pain,
Would I ever be in their world, ever again?
Afraid to hold her, afraid I would fall,
Off the moving carpet which was still to all.
Disturbance dictated, sweat smeared my palms,
I wanted to hold her steady in my arms.
Howling in anguish for I could not cry,
Irrational grieving, no reasons why.
Phobic of everything and everyone near,
In a time of ruin, torment and fear.
Morbid anxiety took hold of me strong,
I delivered a child, I did nothing wrong.
Dejected and hollow, with progress slow,
A love for my baby that just wouldn’t show.
Safely in my heart I cherished her with care,
I was a mother in turmoil of total despair.
Recovery hindered by prejudice remarks,
The soul inside me took walks to the parks.
Despondent dispirited by words unjust,
I learned to forgive and in myself to trust.
Courage gradually led me to a path of new,
Where grass became green and the sky became blue.
Learning to live again now an obsession,
My baby I missed – in a world of depression.
A life was taken to a traumatic hell,
Painful to recall, painful to tell,
As far as you can fall, is as far as I fell,
Tears from a mother – now living life well.
Update - it came from here www.snowqueen.eurobell.co.uk
but there is no contact e mail so I can ask her permission to post her poem