my poem - bad year 2006

[shell79]

Here is my poem which sums up my life over the last year and still suffering now:

2006 has been so bad
The worst year I’ve ever had
It started off so very well
But soon changed into living hell
I’ve lost my husband, I’ve lost my home
I’ve lost my family, I’ve lost my son
I’ve lost my confidence, self esteem and pride
I’m on a rollercoaster ride
I’ve become a prisoner in my own four walls
My spirits been knocked from constant falls
I wish I could be happy and look forward to life
I wish I had been a better wife
I wish I was a better mum
To my little boy, my gorgeous son
I wish my family cared about me
That’s never gonna happen, why can’t I see
I feel so lonely it never ends
Despite the fact I have good friends
Who’ve stuck by me through thick and thin
For them, this depression I need to win
I need to get strong and put up a fight
To feel the need to do something right
To love myself, to want to live
To show the world I want to give
I want my mood to lift and feel joy
And to get back my little boy
I’m in for a struggle, a tough time in store
But hopefully this year I can nail shut the door
Of this horrible illness and all of its pain
To all of its sadness that’s making me insane
To stop the self harming and stop hurting inside
To face life head on and try not to hide
I’m hoping this year I can finally say
I live for each minute, each hour, each day.

Shell

[sadmum39]

Hello Shell
That is a sad and powerful poem.

How is life for you now?
SMx

[sare]

Hi Shell,

I think that is a wonderful poem and I hope it helped to write it all down like that?

Never forget that we are all behind you and will help you along the way

Lots of love,
Sare
xxx