Help one year on

[nicola]

My little boy is one in three weeks and I was wondering whether it's possible I'm still suffering from PNI.

I had a difficult birth, I found bonding hard, I spoke to my health visitor who just referred me to the doctors when he was about 2 months old I was just offered Prozac but didn't feel it was what I needed. It was never followed up to check I was doing ok, I have just got on with things since then.

Nearly a year one I still have days of hopelessness I feel I can't cope and just want to run away. I'm back at work part time and some weeks I dread the days when I'm alone with him, then I feel guilty for feeling like this. I don't want to talk about it to my partner because I don't want to say it out loud. I love my baby more than anything so how can I still feel like this?

[wendabell]

firstly hello and welcome,
Yes you can still be feeling this way one year on.If untreated a lot longer.I have had my ups and downs with this illness through three pregnancys spanning just over 5 years. I concider myself in recovery now but i did need anti dees and coming on a site like this one really helped me to see this is an illness that can be cured,we do get better,we are not alone,we do need help though. We firstly have to admit to ourselves we are ill, we then need the support of our loved ones even our children.But i do advise you to go back to the doctors.Anti dees arnt always the answer but they are very sucessful in their use and they only replace the hormone seratonin that we have stopped producing.And they are not something we will be on for the rest of our lives either.If not the doctors there are alternative therapys out there and you should seek a qualified homeopath if that is the way you wish to go.I suppor t both ways.
But first you need to talk to your partner. To often and too late they can be excluded in this illness when it is them we will rely on the most.If you can talk to him tell him how you feel. If you came on here after watching the report on tv tonight was he watching it with you.Maybe he could come on here and read a few posts,he is more than welcome and we do have a male moderator who is my hubby by the way so he knows everything from a male point of view and we have had our bad times but are still together.
but mostly keep talking,use this site to rant on if you wish but talking and writing things down gets it out and stops you from bottleing it up.Also by writing you can see how you are and how you are improving as you can read from some other posts.
hope this helps and look forward from hearing from you again
love wendy x.x.x

[nicola]

Thanks for your reply, I have finally spoke to my partner about it. I actually showed him this as I didn't know where to start, he had no idea that I still felt this way that's how well hidden I kept it. I'm glad I have spoke to him, to be honest our relationship was on the verge of falling apart, I'm not saying it's all roses now but I think he understands a bit more as to why I seem to be constantly moaning at him, why I hate it when he says he wants to go out even to nip to the shop.

I have decided not to go back to the doctors just yet I'm going to look in to herbal remedies first, I just feel medication is not right for me and want to try alternatives first.

I just want to say this site has helped me so much, it's good to read other peoples stories, I actually felt I was going mad for awhile, but now I realise it's an illness to be taken seriously and that's what I'm going to do.

I will let you know how I'm getting on, today is a good day so I'm focusing on each day at a time.

Nicola

[Veritee]

Thats Great Nicola

Thant you have set the ball rolling and discussed this with your partner.

Wendy is right - most people find that the first set to recovery is to accept that you are ill and start to share it with your nearest and dearest.

We respect your choice not to go for Anti Ds or other medication ( I chose not to others on here did take it - but you could still go to your GP anyway and ask if your surgery has a counselor attached as many do these days.

They could offer you CBT which is very effective with PNI.

But of course this is up to you.

If you are interested in alternative and complimentary therapies have you looked on this section: veritee.proboards7.com/index.cgi?board=meds

there is some info on what has been tried there.

Its great to hear from you and we would love to hear how you are getting on

All the best

Veritee

[Veritee]

PS
Forgot to say - we have a male moderator in the mens section - Wendy's husband Karl -

who would be willing to support your partner through this if he wants to go on there and talk about how he is coping or ask questions on how to help you and how you as a family can share this thing and get through.

Partners and husbands need support sometimes too and their is very little 'out there' for them.