Post by rosa on Jun 10, 2005 9:17:42 GMT
Hello everyone,
I'm new here. I'd just like to say that I've finally plucked up the courage to go and get some help. I saw the program on TV the other night and thought it sounded like me - I don't want to get worse and i've already been living in a state for over a year now. I'm really not sure even now whether I have true PMI or whether the traumatic events of my late pregnancy and post partum days have made me just more susceptible.
My story began when I was pregnant and had a about 6 weeks to go till my due date. I had just moved house a month before which was really stressfull as I'd been really happy in my old house. I think I'd only moved because my partner complained about living in what used to be me and my ex's house.
Anyway, someone knocked on the door asking for my partner. it turned out to be the police. They asked if I was aware that he was on the sex offenders register with a caution. I wasn't. My life just seemed to crumble since then. I went into labour two weeks later probably because of the shock. Then whilst my baby was still only a few weeks old, I had to go through conferences to prove that my partner wasn't a threat to my other child(not his) and our new baby. I didn't ask him to leave, I just couldn't cope with being alone I suppose. I belived him when he said that what he'd done had been a mistake - he'd used his crdit card to register on what proved to be the operation Ore website. the police backed up his claims in this fully. BUT the one thing he didn't do was to TELL ME. He should have before I got pregnant so I could make a choice. In this, I don't think i can ever trust him again.
I haven't been able to talk to a soul about how I'm feeling, the sadness, the crying constantly, the paranoia, the hopelessness of my life. I'm not suicidle, my babies keep me from doing anything, they are my life, though if they weren't there i'd probably seriously think about it.
For the first time today i talked to the doctor about everything. I felt better and she gave my some anti- depressants. i can only wait now and hope that they work.
It's helped reading through the posts on here too. I had no idea that you could still have PNI after ayear. It's good that the subject is finally coming out in the open.
Thank you for listening.
Rosa
I'm new here. I'd just like to say that I've finally plucked up the courage to go and get some help. I saw the program on TV the other night and thought it sounded like me - I don't want to get worse and i've already been living in a state for over a year now. I'm really not sure even now whether I have true PMI or whether the traumatic events of my late pregnancy and post partum days have made me just more susceptible.
My story began when I was pregnant and had a about 6 weeks to go till my due date. I had just moved house a month before which was really stressfull as I'd been really happy in my old house. I think I'd only moved because my partner complained about living in what used to be me and my ex's house.
Anyway, someone knocked on the door asking for my partner. it turned out to be the police. They asked if I was aware that he was on the sex offenders register with a caution. I wasn't. My life just seemed to crumble since then. I went into labour two weeks later probably because of the shock. Then whilst my baby was still only a few weeks old, I had to go through conferences to prove that my partner wasn't a threat to my other child(not his) and our new baby. I didn't ask him to leave, I just couldn't cope with being alone I suppose. I belived him when he said that what he'd done had been a mistake - he'd used his crdit card to register on what proved to be the operation Ore website. the police backed up his claims in this fully. BUT the one thing he didn't do was to TELL ME. He should have before I got pregnant so I could make a choice. In this, I don't think i can ever trust him again.
I haven't been able to talk to a soul about how I'm feeling, the sadness, the crying constantly, the paranoia, the hopelessness of my life. I'm not suicidle, my babies keep me from doing anything, they are my life, though if they weren't there i'd probably seriously think about it.
For the first time today i talked to the doctor about everything. I felt better and she gave my some anti- depressants. i can only wait now and hope that they work.
It's helped reading through the posts on here too. I had no idea that you could still have PNI after ayear. It's good that the subject is finally coming out in the open.
Thank you for listening.
Rosa
