my depression

[lou]

hi ive now been dealing with this since march and its taken till now for me to finally hit rock bottom to the point that i was nearly admitted in hospital last week they have changed my medication three times now and all i want is to be able to see the light at the end of this very long and dark tunnel

[Veritee]

Dear Lou

I am so sorry you are so low - what help are you getting now.

I have often found that unfortunate most womens stories on here are that they struggled with keeping their lives as normal as possible, hiding the true awfulness of how they felt from every one even themselves and their loved ones - keeping the severity at bay for many months or even years - and then only to collapse completely .

However I can honestly say that for the majority - one they reached rock bottom - this was when they started to go back up and on the road to recovery.

This happened to me and the recovery may be a slow process - but I really do believe that it really helps to acknowledge your illness fully to be able to see that light at the end of the tunnel.

I have every confidence that you will start to recover and hopefully you will now get the help, support and understanding to hep you on that path.

Please tell us what happened to trigger you hitting rock bottom if you want to and what help you are now getting .

If we can help - please let us know?

All the best

Veritee

[yorkslass]

Veritee is right about hitting rock bottom I too hit it over a year ago and from then on things started to get better and are still doing so, even though I have had some crap days too even just last week as you may have seen my thread tired veritee.proboards7.com/index.cgi?board=general&action=display&n=1&thread=1264 but i am feeling a lot brighter this week .

I have started to get the help I need and deserve ie, Homestart for help with my 2 youngest, Family action and support team for my oldest with her behaviour and Ontrack a local mental health suport organisation for ME and also my support worker from ontrack told me that finaly after about 1 yr of waiting I am to get a visit from the Community health team (cpn ithink).

So please lou dont dispare there IS light at the end of the tunnel although i am not quite there I CAN see that light gleaming bright and I KNOW oneday YOU WILL do too and I be waiting and helping you to get there

[cheshire]

Dear Lou

It has been the same for me. I seemed to have a period of about 2 weeks recently when I didn't go anywhere and then I began to realise that I was not crying all the time and that I was driving again - short distances. I have also noticed that I have more of an appetite and am not having any nights when I don't sleep at all. I don't know why things have changed...but they are starting to.

They will for you too
Take care

[Lou]

Well done that brill news all those things are the reverse for me as ive had my car taken off me i cant rember the last time i went out i dont sleep and i dont eat but part of me knows that all this will change and i will be the old me again but i still have part of me that thinks why bother and its that side of me that scares me in to wanting to do things that i know i would regretbut i know that if this rock bottom then thngs can only get better (i hope) i would give anything to have a part of the old me back

[cheshire]

Dear Lou

I never believed I would ever get any better and at rock bottom wasn't sure if I could go on - but I did.

In terms of the oimpact of the symptoms, I honestly believed that I would never be able to drive again (which would mean serious problems re. working again) and as for sleeping for a few hours at a time - the same.

I don't know why things changed and I suppose it must have been gradual - but I started to notice the changes. Have to say, still have days like before when I just want it to be tomorrow (if you know what I mean)

Take care x

[lou]

Hi

Yeah i know what you mean i must say talking to people on here today has made me feel better than going and having a big bar of chocolate as i have always felt so alone as i went to a mum and baby group with 9 other parents and none of those were dealing with this so i felt so alone as they would sit there talking about what they done with there child and im sat there thinking ive done nothing because ive had the motivation then i watched the show on TV with trevor macdonald about the post natal depresson and part of me felt releived to know there are other and part of me felt worse knowing that they wre either at the end or nearing the end of there experence and im so far from that but thank you to all as you have really helped me and i has been help[ful to read other stories i hope people will continue to talk to me and i will continue to talk to them as this is more helpfull to here real life stories than reading information out of a leaflet.

Thanks x

[yorkslass]

Hi lou

Just want to pick up somthing you said

but i still have part of me that thinks why bother and its that side of me that scares me in to wanting to do things that i know i would regretbut

If I am thinking right I may have done what you are on about if you wanna chat but dont want to say it out in the open email me [e-mail]

[lou]

Hi
I think were on about the same thank you i have sent you an e-mail to if you want to chat outside here? Up to you thank you

[yorkslass]

I will chat to anyone with PNI as we are all fellow suffers

[rach]

hi lou

hope your keeping ok i had a real struggle and have been on about 12 diff antie dep as they wernt working please keep perservering as i have finally got there now.

big hugs and welcome love rach