netty
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Post by netty on Jul 10, 2005 17:30:13 GMT
Hi everyone.
I am so glad that I have found this site. To be with women who understand how I feel is so reassuring.
I have two daughters (9yrs and 4 mths). Both born very premature following emergency sections. I have just been diagnosed with pnd and started treatment. I never had pnd with my first so this came as a huge shock.
I thought I was going ''insane''. I found myself in a very dark place with no escape. Fortunately my HV and GP saw the signs and were really good and started my treatment. I knew something was wrong but admitting it to yourself is another thing.
At least I have stopped crying now. I still feel very very guilty and complete failure who cant doing anything right. Having said that I am one of the lucky ones who has still been able to breastfeed so I can do one thing right.
Looking forward to getting to know you.
Love
nettyxx
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rach
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Post by rach on Jul 10, 2005 19:21:09 GMT
welcome netty
pleased your feeling better
love rach
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Post by yorkslass on Jul 10, 2005 21:42:53 GMT
HI Netty
Welcome to the forum.
I am also glad you found us.
I am also pleased your gp and hv have been a good help.
If i can be of any help even just a listening ear let me know.
Melx
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Post by Veritee on Jul 12, 2005 8:02:20 GMT
Dear Netty
A big welcome to the forum - sorry I did not say help yesterday but I live in a rural area and it was the annual local farmers show that we all go to - so I was out and when I got in felt so ill from the heat - all I could do was go to bed in a dark room!!
But any way I would like to welcome you now!
How marvelous that your HV etc were able to see what was the matter and start you on treatment --
so often on here we are told of a different story whereby a women who suspects she has PNI or at least something feels is not right - is missed by her HV and GP or even goes to them saying something is not right and still doe not get any help, and then the women or her loved ones have to fight for the support she needs or insist on treatment.
we have had a lot of stories like this on here recently - so it is very refreshing to hear that your experience was different!
What sort of treatment have you been given ie what medication and were you offered counseling and do you have regular visits from your HV or CPN etc.
When you said that you ' found myself in a very dark place with no escape' do you want to tell us about this ? ie what your main symptoms are or were.
That feeling of 'no escape' is just so common when you have PNI - I think it is this feeling that this will never end and there is no way out that leads women to feel they want to run aways or worse for some to have suicidal thoughts - when you have PNI it so often feels like it will be this way forever and the difficulties are insurmountable.
But they are not and you will of course get better.
The guilt too is very common - I often wonder why - ie why women with PNI feel so guilty?
It is one factor that I feel that most if not all women with PNI feel yet while women who do not have PNI may feel guilt sometimes - it is not overwhelming and it is only about specific things - not all the time and about everything.
I sometimes feel that if we could stop the guilt we could cure PNI - but I know it is a lot more complicated than this.
What most do you feel guilty about? as looking at this can sometimes help to put things into perspective.
Anyway you do not have to answer any questions - this is up to you
but I hope this forum is useful to you
All the best
Veritee
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Post by cheshire on Jul 12, 2005 22:55:34 GMT
Hi Netty
I found reading other postings really helpful and I often think it may have been a turning point for me.
Good to hear that you were diagnosed early.
Take carex
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Post by wendabell on Jul 13, 2005 19:58:48 GMT
hi netty, so pleased you have found us, Well you are not a faliure and i bet you are doing a fanastic job.You have already brought up i bet a beautiful 9 year ols who is a credit to you.And now you are starting all over again.This illness make us feel a faliure but your not,just ill flower. Looking forward to getting to know you better take care and be kind to yourself. love wendy x.x.x
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