Post by quootiepie on Jul 16, 2005 22:37:46 GMT
Hi everyone,
I have just found this website tonight and am relieved as doctors tell me nothing useful. Ill just tell you all alittle about me...
I am 19 years old and am a student. November 2004 i found out i was pregnant with my first child an initially was very very happy. My fiance was, at the time, very under the influence of his parents, and was of no help and as panic set in, i had no one to help me. I then decided, on my first visit to the midwife, explain my fears. She was very keen that i should have an abortion, and i felt it was the right thing, id be doing the best for my fiance, and both our parents. But not me. The day after the operation, he left me. Just walked out the door. 24 hours later he came to collect his bags. For two LONG months i didnt give up hope and it wasnt until i begged him to take me to hospital (3 weeks later, i was still bleeding. The operation wasnt complete and i had a D & C) he realised he was being controlled by his parents (after they told me to go away when trying to ring him to take me to hospital). During this time, i was in deep depression with many suicide attempts. I managed my best to put the abortion behind me, and as my fiance left his parents for good, my life was on the up. But nearly everyday i was having really bad episodes of... deep fear, panic... and i was convinced it wasnt related to anything that had happened, as when bad things went round in my mind, it wasnt the abortion, or months alone etc. I was on diazepam and anti-depressents which took the edge off it, but i was still getting these feeling coming in waves. I kept going back to the doctor who did nothing until i asked to be refered to a phychiatrist (sp) who after nearly two months on a waiting list (and it was private!) i saw her on Monday. She said i was suffering with PND and i am seeing a psychologist on Wednesday. Thats one part of my story... the other is, ironically after taking a leathel overdose which left me throwing up for over 36 hours, im pregnant
I have just found this website tonight and am relieved as doctors tell me nothing useful. Ill just tell you all alittle about me...
I am 19 years old and am a student. November 2004 i found out i was pregnant with my first child an initially was very very happy. My fiance was, at the time, very under the influence of his parents, and was of no help and as panic set in, i had no one to help me. I then decided, on my first visit to the midwife, explain my fears. She was very keen that i should have an abortion, and i felt it was the right thing, id be doing the best for my fiance, and both our parents. But not me. The day after the operation, he left me. Just walked out the door. 24 hours later he came to collect his bags. For two LONG months i didnt give up hope and it wasnt until i begged him to take me to hospital (3 weeks later, i was still bleeding. The operation wasnt complete and i had a D & C) he realised he was being controlled by his parents (after they told me to go away when trying to ring him to take me to hospital). During this time, i was in deep depression with many suicide attempts. I managed my best to put the abortion behind me, and as my fiance left his parents for good, my life was on the up. But nearly everyday i was having really bad episodes of... deep fear, panic... and i was convinced it wasnt related to anything that had happened, as when bad things went round in my mind, it wasnt the abortion, or months alone etc. I was on diazepam and anti-depressents which took the edge off it, but i was still getting these feeling coming in waves. I kept going back to the doctor who did nothing until i asked to be refered to a phychiatrist (sp) who after nearly two months on a waiting list (and it was private!) i saw her on Monday. She said i was suffering with PND and i am seeing a psychologist on Wednesday. Thats one part of my story... the other is, ironically after taking a leathel overdose which left me throwing up for over 36 hours, im pregnant