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Post by Stephy on Oct 23, 2004 4:00:10 GMT
Thanks for being so honest with me. will have to do some serious thinking then.
Am fed up as have been awake since 2.00 and cant sleep. Want to punch something. This is really getting to me now!!!
Had a whole bottle of wine last night in the hope it would help me sleep through.
Is this the prozac? Have been on it before and it didn't do this. Why now when I am lower than ever?
Am thinking of paying to see a phycotherapist. Wonder how much they are as the thought of waiting months to see one is useless.
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Post by Veritee on Oct 23, 2004 16:07:19 GMT
Hi all
Jennie
Have not got time to check the spelling!! and I can not spell at all!!
I will take the word substitute for 'nuts' off I must have missed this one.
Some of your your experiences at work seem so simular to mine - again some could have been me talking.
I would never again teach in a school and gave this up years ago before I'd realy got started but I did manage and enjoy over 20 years as a youth worker until I got a bad boss who was a bully which co incided with my having PNI then endured total public humiliation at work. I too know what it is like to speak in a meeting and be ignored. I too cry when I think of it
So I think you have to be very careful about your choice of work when you have PNI.
I do not think you should worry at all about what you said about supply teaching - this was your experence and I thing this forum is about honestly.
Obvously it is about caring and support too - but I think you can still tell the truth and care too.
Stephy
I feel that your male friend probably/maybe was trying to be supportive in that what he meant was that he sees you as a strong coping person and so could not have PNI. I am afraid the public understanding of PNI or rather PND is that women who have it are not strong and coping. This and the opinion that it only affects the minority and then those who are somehow weak is something I and others are trying to work so hard to change As it could not be so wrong.
Just look at who uses this site , there are many professioal and or working, women who are coping with considerable stresses and many others with more on their plates than that man and many others could even begin to cope with. But we all have PNI.
Also as I have said before so many women hid it so well and it is only when they can go on no longer that they seek help.
Have to go now
Veritee
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Post by stephy on Nov 15, 2004 10:15:29 GMT
Have not been on the web sight for a long time as have not had access to a computer.
haven't had time to read any new threads and catch up. I have made a lot of progress since my last reply. I had a bad week a few weeks back and decided to call my health visitor, She did the diagnostic assessment thingy and told me that I was moderate/severely depressed. she listened to me ramble for 2 hours and that really helped. she suggested that I do a self esteem/assertiveness course that is running at the local family welfare association place. Started that last tuesday and although I felt a bit of a twit as I was the only one who cried i think it is going to be good.
My health visitor also got me in touch with the mental health team in medway and I have been seen by two mental health nurses who have also been very supportive. I am going to see another lady soon who is going to teach me anxiety management techniques.
I am sleeping a lot better and although I am treading carefully and not putting myself in any kind of situation that could provoke a panic attack I am feeling a lot better and more positive.
Have been contacted by occupation health people from work and will be having a meeting in the not too distant future about how to phase me back into work, all going to plan just 3 days per week.
I look and feel better, my appitite has picked up a bit and I want to wake up in the mornings!
I hope others get hope from this as I thought I was trapped forever. I am not there yet but I feel i am on the way. Long may this last.
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