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Post by monica on Jun 18, 2015 16:57:24 GMT
That's such a lovely thing to say. All the ladies here are just wonderful . PNI is a horrible and debilitating illness - people don't really understand exactly how much . Have u suffered with pni urself?
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Post by Brittany on Jun 22, 2015 7:23:03 GMT
Hi Monica,
Unfortunately - yes! I've had OCD since I was a child and always suffered from intrusive thoughts/images of a sexual nature. Whatever I thought would hurt me the most my mind would picture and it distressed me to no end. Having recently had a beautiful baby girl - I have since suffered from the ITs that all the women are discussing. It makes me sick to my stomach but I am slowly getting better - much is thanks to this thread and knowing there are other amazing mothers out there who are suffering from the same ITs. Praying for everyone xxx
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Post by laus1987 on Jun 29, 2015 7:24:27 GMT
Hi all, having a bit of a bad morning thought wise, which is causing me some of those anxiety symptoms you all talk about. I now accept that they are anxiety now and not me being weird so that makes it a bit easier. It's because of a dream I had last night where I was talking and thinking some of the horrible thoughts if that makes sense? They don't usually come in my dreams and so I think when they do it knocks me a bit. It wasn't anything too awful but just when I feel I'm getting better It me like a sledgehammer. It then causes my thoughts to 'grasshopper' and I start thinking them again. Using my CBT techniques helps but I know it will take time. I read a fantastic link on Facebook the other day about Postnatal OCD, it was really interesting and a recommended read (I think it was on Net mums) it's everything I have been and am still slightly going through. Without doubt I have had PND but it's the thought part that's the worse now that makes me depressed rather than just depression if that makes sense. It's like the depression has lifted but only appears with the thoughts, I just want my mind to be my own again! Hope you are all doing ok. L x
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Post by monica on Jun 29, 2015 22:12:20 GMT
Dreams can knock u for six big time. Hope u had good nights sleep last night and this has lifted you. You're making great progress -well done. I know having a blip can feel so horrible after you've seen improvement but it will pass. Understanding and accepting pni and its symptoms really help the recovery process x
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Post by monica on Jun 29, 2015 22:12:27 GMT
Dreams can knock u for six big time. Hope u had good nights sleep last night and this has lifted you. You're making great progress -well done. I know having a blip can feel so horrible after you've seen improvement but it will pass. Understanding and accepting pni and its symptoms really help the recovery process x
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Post by monica on Jun 29, 2015 22:17:33 GMT
Hi Brittany
Sorry you are suffering from this horrible illness. The intrusive thoughts are some of the most distressing symptoms of this illness. It's really pisitive things are improving for you. Cbt can be really useful for relearning negative thought processes . Have you heard of this?x
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Post by laus1987 on Jun 30, 2015 8:08:10 GMT
Hi Monica, yeah dreams can be a nightmare (literally!) didn't sleep last night really either as my little boy has chicken pox bless him! I just had a really bad day of it yesterday. Maybe it's the tiredness of having a poorly little one. The thoughts just came into my mind Tourette's like several times in the day and knocked me for six. They are just the most awful of sickest thoughts at times and it makes you wonder where it comes from, it certainly does it's job though because it left me feeling nauseous all day! I just hope one day I can recover from all of this, I'm still not on any meds but have a one off session of CBT on Friday (I did a course on it but not one to one) I really want to steer clear of meds as with past experience I think any of them will make me worse. I really am going to ask and look into herbal meds though to see if they can help. Thanks for your reply L x
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Post by monica on Jun 30, 2015 9:43:58 GMT
Hi L
Tiredness was always a huge trigger for me so if you've not been sleeping due to ur lo chicken pox (poor thing!) that might also be a reason for the blip. Hope u catch up on sleep and the one to one cbt goes well 2 let us know how u get onx
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Post by laus1987 on Jun 30, 2015 11:06:23 GMT
Hi Monica, once again thanks for your reply! You are a constant on this site and your replies help loads! Yeah I suppose the tiredness doesn't help. I've just had a little cry and that's helped a bit. I'm mid cycle at the moment and always find I'm worse around ovulation and a couple of days before my period. Maybe I should ask for more hormone tests now I've moved doctors. I've come so far without meds so I don't want to just give in even though I've felt like it today. I just want to feel myself again :,( L x
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Post by monica on Jun 30, 2015 21:19:22 GMT
Thank you for your kind comments. Really pleased I can help.
Many women find that they can get worsening symptoms with pmt. I never suffered from pmt prior to pni but did quite badly with it. I remember my cpn saying this common. In time though it does lessen in intensityx
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Post by laus1987 on Jul 1, 2015 8:53:00 GMT
Hi Monica! Yeah I think it may have brought a bit of pmt out in me to be honest as I have never suffered with it. I'm just feeling tired and angry at the moment, that I have reverted back to feeling this bad. Going to try and get out today or tomorrow and get some at johns wort to try to see of that helps. I just hate that anxiety feeling first thing in the morning when I wake up and my head is full of crap that I can't seem to shift... Then that starts me up a day full of bad thoughts and anxiety. Just hoping it shifts itself soon because I'm feeling quite hopeless at the moment Xx
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Post by laus1987 on Jul 7, 2015 7:08:11 GMT
Hi all, hope everyone is feeling ok. I was just wondering at what point those of you who are on meds decided to go on them? Does it make the thoughts better? I've started taking at johns wort and have been on them about 5 days but they don't seem to be doing much. I'm feeling horrific at the moment which is all of this combined with a bit of PMT too. I feel like I can't go on anymore like this and I will never get better L x
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Post by monica on Jul 7, 2015 16:46:24 GMT
Poor u - it's everything at once.
I don't know much about St Johns wort - perhaps speak to pharmacist for advice? I imagine it might take a few weeks to work??
You ask about the decision to take meds - for me it was out of desperation. I had about 4 mths of feeling so ill, anxious, and basically having zero quality of life. I was desperate for anything to feel better.
My thoughts revolved around illnesses and dying - I was obsessive about this . After an i rial period of feeling even worse I found that my thoughts lifted - I didn't dwell on illnesses etc and in the long run found that I was even more chilled out about this than ever (I'd always been a bit ocd about illnesses ).
I know some ladies say it still takes time to rid itself of the thoughts but you get that lift which makes them more manageable and in time they do go.
Hope u pick up soon - pmt sucksx
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Post by laus1987 on Jul 12, 2015 10:31:48 GMT
Hi Monica, yeah it's so difficult at times. I have peaks and troughs with it when sometimes I feel ok and other times I feel awful and the thoughts overwhelm me. I know it just takes time and practice with the CBT techniques. I've been talking to Nat and she's been a great help as have you so thanks. Just home the end is near with this nightmare! Going to persevere with the St. John's wort for a while and see how I go. L x
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Post by monica on Jul 15, 2015 10:14:29 GMT
Hi
This illness is so tough. You are really doing so well and whilst I know the lows or blips are difficult to get through in time you'll have a better control of the cbt techniques and they'll lessen in intensity.x
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