Obsessed

[mum2leahnjosh]

My little boy is a week old and ever since he was born I have been obsessed with him dieing. I dont want him to die or anything, its just I worry he will. I worry that much I cant sleep because I think he will be sick and choke and die. Then thoughts go around in my head about what will happen if he did die.

I cant sleep unless I can see him which is never really because my other half doesn't like the light on at bed time. I am getting about 2 hours sleep at night.

Does everyone feel like this when they have a baby or could I have PND. I am going to talk to my midwife about it tomorrow. I dont remember being this paranoid with my first baby.

[winegirl]

Hiya

Yes, it could be PNI related, but having said that I felt exactly the same for the first couple of months of my baby girls life but it did ease off. I still worry a lot but not to the obsessional point that I did at the begginning.

I think talking to the midwife/HV would be a really good idea because then they will be able to make other assesments on you to decide whether or not you are suffering PNI.

WG x

[Scarlet]

Hi,

Being obsessive about the health of our children can be one of the symptoms of PNI so please do have a word with your midwife today and find out for sure. I didn't have PNI with my eldest and I worried a little as well when he was a baby, but not to the point that I didn't sleep, or that I made myself sick with worry. With my youngest I had worries that didn't seem to go away so easily and I then started to worry about trivial things as well, things which I would never have been fearful about before, and I would dwell on these worries and couldn't function properly because of them. It was definitely not the same type of worries I'd had with my first.

If you feel differently about your baby and you don't feel quite right then you are doing the best thing talking to your midwife and telling her your feelings. Please let us know how you get on and we will be here for you to offer you support.

Love and hugs

Scarlet
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[samantha77]

Hi there,

I had these thoughts at the begining of my illness! It started when my daughter was about a few weeks old. I was totally panic stricken if she had a cold or cough, unfortunately she had four colds and coughs when she was only a week old and it was horrible, i kicked my fella out of bed so the she could sleep next to so i could hear her breath. I rarely slept. But these thoughts and worries did subside, only to turn into other symptoms. I did not have pni with my first child and never worried to the degree i did with my daughter.

Anyway it may b worth a chat with hv or gp to express these fears and keep an eye on you.

Hopefully you will be fine, but if not then early diagnoses is better for a quicker recovery.

When we have a child some of us are more prone to worry than others, and with our hormones being everywhere i think some worries are natural especially if it is your first child! Please don't panic if u think u may have pni, like i said identifying it now is better for a quicker recovery- having said that it may pass and you might be fine.
Good luck !!!!

[cheshire]

Hi

I had obsessive thoughts like this too - I didn't want anything to happen to my baby, I just convinced myself that something would (and possible unwittingly, at my own hand/ through 'negligence' etc.).

Did you speak to your midwife? How did you get on?

Hopefulx

[mum2leahnjosh]

I couldnt do it I just got scared. I dont really feel like I can talk to them. I dont really trust health professionals. Im scared they will blow things out of proportion like they did when I told them me and mark were having problems (mark like to drink ALOT).

I will go to the docs as soon as I can.

I have been talking to a counsellor and I have been given some details for a womans centre near me. I will contact them asap.

[winegirl]

Please let us know how you get on x

WG x