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Post by carlie on Sept 9, 2007 18:08:43 GMT
hey, i cant understand how pni can cause physical symptoms that i have. I went to bournemouth this weekend with my oh- no baby jus us. It was really nice. But the whole time i had a headache and felt dizzy/off balance. Even feel like it when my mood isnt too bad- how can this be the pni? Surely i must have some physical illness jus like i thought a brain tumour or something. I have a headache every day and feel dizzy/off balance everyday with the odd parts thro day where its not as bad. But if this was depression related surely i would only get these when my mood is low? not during the nitte when i sleep and as soon as i wake in the morning before i even have time to think or get anxious? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh jus want it to stop
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Post by winegirl on Sept 9, 2007 19:02:54 GMT
Hi Carlie
You sound just like me a year ago. Honestly, go back and check some of my posts if you get chance!
I am the same still, feel dizzy etc when I think I am perfectly chilled! Oddly we went to Bournemouth this year (it's lovely isn't it?) and I had a lovely time but still suffered with the physical cack. The mantal health lady I have been dealing with is adamant it is an underlying anxiety that is subconciously causing you to feel like this. I didn't believe her for months, but now I realise that the dizziness is worse when I am out of the house or wound up, so guess she may be right.
I know it stinks. I prayed for it to just disappear and leave me alone, but it does get better with time. It may take weeks, months or even longer but hang in there and it will go.
In the meantime we are here for you when you need us x
Winegirl x
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Post by carlie on Sept 9, 2007 19:23:21 GMT
hey, where will i find your posts? Did u suffer headaches aswell? Bournemouth was lovely, it was really warm went on the beach it was just really relaxing. At least it was all good apart from the physical stuff and worries about it wizzing round my head. My mood there was pretty ok, but since i been back its dropped. Feel guilty but i been thinkin i wish i hadnt had a baby i wouldnt have to have this horrible illness and i could be having a nice life doin things like goin to bournemouth! I know it sounds awful. I dont get this cos when i first got pni it was really severe i had to go to a day hospital. But i got over that hurdle and was doing good. But the last month or so things got bad again and i feel s***t for the want of a better word!!
maybe its because a month ago my mum went on holiday with my auntie, she met another man and came back to leave my step dad. She has now moved abroad. My step dad of 18 years i have realisd is not what i thought he was infact hes not very nice at all. Its wierd cos my mum has a drink problem (she wont admit to) and i could never stand to be around her when she was drunk so kept my distance. I missed her even when she was here if that makes sense because i feel i dont know who she really is and have no bond with her.
Sorry maybe i shouldnt have written that, jus kinda came out. xx
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Post by winegirl on Sept 9, 2007 19:28:04 GMT
Thats Ok Carlie
All of these things have an affect on our PNI and our recovery. Are you stiil talking to your Mum even though you are abroad?
There is some stuff on me in my PNI Diary and more stuff from the beginning here in this physical symptoms link. Have you read through the Physical Symptoms thread on here? Reading it was like a weight off my shoulders to know I wasn't going to die!
I did suffer headaches in the past but not really so much now. Oddly I got my first ever Migraine when my daughter was 4 weeks old.
If you need to chat I will be around on and off most of the week as have been signed off work due to side effects from my new meds, so feel free to chat if you need too.
Will be thinking of you x
Winegirl x
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Post by carlie on Sept 9, 2007 20:01:01 GMT
are u on msn? x
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Post by melly on Sept 9, 2007 20:47:49 GMT
I feel the same. I dont know why I feel so ill, im scared stiff that something is wrong with me and everyone keeps telling me its anxiety. Just say they are all wrong. My neck is killing me today and i just dont feel with it a lot of the time. Im getting told its anxiety and pnd just like u. Also carlie it could be the meds your on. I was really dizzy on the meds, the doc did a funny move on my head and my eyes twitched from it, he said my balance was all over the place. We will get through this together. How often do u get support from a counseller or phyciatrist?
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Post by winegirl on Sept 10, 2007 10:41:47 GMT
Hi Carlie and Melly,
How are you guys doing today? Will be thinking of you both x
Winegirl x
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Post by carlie on Sept 10, 2007 18:56:57 GMT
hey, i went to the gym today which made me feel a bit better. My daughter is at a really demanding age which is tough when i cant be bothered to do anything! Just feel really flat. melly, well done again for today. We will get thro it!!!! I think u are well on ur way took huge steps today. How r u winegirl? xx
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Post by winegirl on Sept 10, 2007 19:03:08 GMT
Hi Carlie
Glad to see going to the gym helped! Good for you! I am still struggling with the extra anxiety caused by my meds but remaining positive that it is just a side effect and will get through it.
Well done again on going to the gym, excersie is a great way to deal with anxiety and depression so I hope you manage to stick with it. Good for you!
Winegirl x
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Post by mnlly on Sept 10, 2007 20:53:06 GMT
Thankyou everyone for being so supportive. Im feeling ok today got meds but dont want to take even though i know i have too. Trying to be very open minded about it all. For some reason i feel better today and dont feel i need meds at all but obviously i do.
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Post by winegirl on Sept 11, 2007 7:16:18 GMT
Hi melly
Glad yesterday was ok for you. What meds have you been given? I hope you get on ok with them. Will be thinking of you x
Winegirl x
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Post by stevensmummy on Sept 11, 2007 8:54:02 GMT
Hi girls,
I just noticed your thread and thought i would comment on the physical symptoms part. I too had rather a lot of dizzy spells and headaches etc I even fainted regularly. I was told by the do that it is a result of the anxiety from pni. They have recently discovered that I have epilepsy and they now reckon the stress of pni, and all the related dizzy spells etc is enough to have triggered this. Apparently epilepsy is something to do with brain signals and I have a scar on my brain so they get cross routed and can cause misfires ie the dizzy spells. My epilespsy nurse said this is the same under severe stress. It can cause cross routes and misfires of the brain, hence leading to the physical symptoms many of us discribe. When I asked about pni she said she reckoned this is something that would cause such things as it is a time of severe stress and anxiety. So fear not we're not all dying of brain tumours (as I also suspected) its just another symptom.
None the less I wish you all love and good luck, and I thought you might be interested in what the nurse said to me.
Sarah x
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Post by winegirl on Sept 11, 2007 11:15:18 GMT
Hi Sarah
Very interesting what you say about the brain `misfiring' under stress! Never thought of it like that but it actually makes alot of sense! Thanks for sharing that x
Winegirl x
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Post by melly on Sept 11, 2007 17:59:44 GMT
they put me on venlafaxine which i cant bring myself to take yet even though i have to wait till tomorrow. They made me have a bad day, coz the docs saying i NEED it and that they cant stress it enough that i take the meds. But my brain is saying NO DONT DO IT THEY WILL MAKE U LOOPY AGAIN. I know i cant carry on like this at the moment, i dont want to take meds, i just want to go and hind away from everything coz this stupid illness is doing my head in. Thats if it is really pni which i think im seriously ill. I even dont believe that everyone on this board is as ill as me. I think IM ILL AND GONNA DIE. Pleases help me!
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Post by winegirl on Sept 11, 2007 19:24:34 GMT
Hi Melly
Honestly, you sound just like I was a year ago. I thought noone else was as ill as myself, there were days when I could only crawl across the house with the dizziness.
The meds could potentially make you feel worse for a couple of weeks as they build in your system, but then they could make you feel better. Dont you want to give that a shot? I have gone 16 months without meds and have finally caved to taking fluoxetine. I am still in the first two weeks so admit I am feeling bad at the mo, but I am hopeful that they will make me better, and will now do whatever it takes to make me normal again.
Think about it Melly, I know its tough but think about the potential postitives. You could take these and a month down the line ask why they werent given to you sooner.
I know this is awful, but am here whenever you need to talk.
Winegirl x
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