dont feel ready to go back to work

[gilly]

I have just discovered this sight today and feel like i have so much to talk about as everyone seems so fantastic so here are my major hung ups about going back to work.

I am due to go back in September and really do not feel ready unfortunately i work in the special care baby unit as a midwife so i never really get away from the "baby thing" mothers rely on me to help them emotionally and i don't feel that i can cope with my own emotions let alone someone Else's. It is an extremely stressful job and i cant see a way of coping. I feel like everyone is telling me i should go back but i want to scream I AM NOT READY!!!

My wonderful baby Finlay is now 10 months old and i know i am so lucky but i fear that i will go to work and never come home i know it is irrational but it feels so real.

Please help me to feel less alone!! xx

[sianyc]

Hi Gilly

Can you get you GP to sign you off for a little while until you feel ready to go back. When you feel more ready, can work then do rehabilitation hours for you?

I did feel that work helped me but then my job does not have the emotional resonsibility that yours has and it was a break from the whole mummy thing. If you don't think you can cope with going back, try having a chat to your GP/HV to see what they can suggest x

[monica]

Hello Gilly

How are you doing? Have you made any decisions re: work? Did you get to the drs? I was also thinking that perhaps you'd be able to do something else, perhaps admin work at least in teh short term? Maybe if you spoke to work, they'd be sympathetic about your situation and try and do somehting to help you.

I'm sure in time you'll feel ready to face your old job. Luckily I went back to work at a time when I was ready and I started off doing one day, then two a week so it wouldn't be too much. Luckily this was possible in my job and I'm sure it helped me to get back into teh swing of things.

Monica