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Post by sarajay28 on Feb 23, 2006 16:08:53 GMT
Hi girls,
Again I can't believe its been so long since i wrote on here. I must try and keep up as i'm missing out on talking to you all. I don't know whats going on with me at the moment, i'm feeling pretty crappy at the moment, stressing about everything and generally feeling down and i have no motivation. Am hoping this will be very temporary as i feel as though i just can't go down that road again, do you know what i mean? I'm keeping busy and active and am really enjoying my kids and life, so why do i feel crap? I'm slowly losing weight too, its not much but at least its better than nothing. I'm trying to stay positive and think about the good things in my life but am finding it pretty hard at the minute. I know this probably sounds horrible but i'm glad some of you are feeling the same cos then i know its NOT JUST ME!!! not that i wish anyone to feel like i do but hopefully you'll know what i mean... Oh i wish this dreadful black cloud thats hanging over us all would go away for good.
Hopeful, my kids next school holidays are Easter? don't know if this is what you call half term? They had a long weekend over valentines weekend though? Yes Robbie did have a good night out, he was drunker than i was!! lol and bless him, it was hilarious, he forgot his keys (which i knew) and he knocked on the door at 2.15am soaking wet and said in a puppy dog face "i've lost my keys" and i just burst out laughing, he also told me that he'd spent all his money, bless him, he only went out with £15!!! i think he thought i would go mental at him??? My mum says i must be a right witch if he thought he would get a telling off!!! (which made me feel great!! not...)
Anyway thats about it for today, my mind is very blurry today.
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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have 1 daughter and have had this since 30 weeks of pregnancy :( my daughter is 27 months.
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Post by gail on Feb 23, 2006 19:23:53 GMT
hi sarah
sorry your not feeling too good at the mo, i started to feel awful again at the beginning of the week, foggy vision/head weepy, feelings of dread etc, but then my period stared so could it be something to do with the time of month? or are you under any stress that you can think of?
remember (as i try to tell myself although its hard when your in the midst of things) these lows dont last long then you bounce back again xx
thinking of you gail xxxxx
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Post by sarajay28 on Feb 26, 2006 15:07:06 GMT
Hi All,
I've been alot better the last couple of days, don't know what was wrong with me? I know i'm pretty fed up of living where i do, i really want to move, away from the town i currently live in and the house too, we are only in a 2 bedroomed house and with 3 kids and 2 adults and the cat it is really too small. It stresses me out cos the 2 elder kids fight all the time about who's playing in the bedroom, who's using the tv/cd player etc and it really gets to me. Also when its time for Nathan to go into his own room (soon i think!!) i don't know where he's gonna go, in their room the kids have bunk beds and all their toys/books/tv blah,blah just the usual stuff that kids have and there is absolutely no room for a cot let alone everything else that a baby has. We have been on the transfer/waiting list for nearly 3 years now as Cameron and Kirsty shouldn't be sharing a room but still nothing. I know the council can't just magic up bigger houses but it annoys me when there are single people who have big houses (maybe families have grown up/out) and then people like us who are squashed into tiny houses!!! OOOOOOOHHHHHHHH its something thats really annoying me at the moment. I also feel like until my housing situation changes i'm never gonna get rid of that source of stress and will be dependant on meds forever. With Robbie being at college for the next 2 years we aren't in a position to buy a house either and the private rents are really expensive, well much more than we could afford. We should maybe just pitch a tent in a field somewhere!! or live in a huge caravan................. anything to get away from this house/area. Enough moaning on that subject anyway else i'll drag myself down again!!. We've had a good weekend so far, just a lazy kinda day yesterday it was nice not to be rushing around for a change. Today i must go food shopping else we'll all end up starving by teatime! lol.......
Hope you girls are all enjoying your weekend?
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by Veritee on Feb 26, 2006 16:26:38 GMT
Hi Sarah
Re your housing problem - I am not surprised you are fed up with this - five people in a 2 bed house is really to much, even if some of your household are quite small yet ..,...
and of course you can not afford to buy with Robbie at college !
I am sure you will get on the housing ladder one day and if indeed you want to but in the mean time I am sure you are good tenants and pay your rent so I feel it is appalling you have not been offered at least a three bed by now!
No wonder you are annoyed - this would probably get on anyones nerves and be an ongoing pressure.
Someone I know with four children and living in a housing association house ( we have little council housing in Cornwall it is all now run by housing associations that are charities - cheaper for Cornwal County Council )
with no offers of alternative accommodation she solved her problem by putting a small towable caravan in her drive as a bedroom for her 17 year old ( she has 17 years 15 years 7 years and 18 months old children)
But of course none of yours are old enough by far to sleep in a caravan -
Of course I can not help or suggest anything as I am sure you have kept in contact with the council who house you and have collected as many points etc as you can and are on the exchange list in case there is an older couple in the area you want to live who can not manage their bigger home now their children are left - and so want to exchange?
So I can not help but I do sympasise and I agree their are many couples in larger homes that may no longer need this size accomodation - and in fact if it was made easier and more common for them to exchange might happily exchange for a smaller home nearby.
But I do not think enough help is given to make it easy as when you are older it is very daunting to think about moving from a home you have lived in for so many years but I am sure with a bit of help it could be made easier, and a lot more help given to those in your position.
So sorry if I have not been of help but I do understand the strain you must be under - I only have one child so I am very lucky/privailaged and so is Caja to always have her own space and space away from Barry and me - and boy did we all need it sometimes
but my heart is with you on this one
VeriteeXX
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Post by sarajay28 on Feb 28, 2006 10:59:07 GMT
today i have a hospital appointment for nathan to attend, his thumbs on both hands have been tucked in to his palms since he was born and he was referred to a physiotherapist but she said she didn;t think he had a problem as it doesn't stop him doing anything but wanted him referred to the paediatrician just to make sure she was telling me the right thing.! So today i am taking him on the bus for the first time as the hospital is in the city where robbie goes to college so we are meeting him outside the bus station. Hopefully things will be ok but its still worrying isn't it? I'm still really fed up with the housing situation, i just don't know what to do for the best, there is a house on the mutual exchange list which is a 3 bedroomed but is in a little village about 30 miles away from where we are now so although we would have a slightly bigger house we would be miles away from our friends/family and all the things our kids are used to and like such as swimming lessons/brownies etc. There are no amenities like this in the village so now i have a dilemma, do we go for a house with one extra bedroom which is still gonna leave us in a similar situation to the one we are in now or stay put and hope something better comes along soon??? Any Advice???
Anyway just a short post as i have to get ready for the bus now, this should be fun......
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
P.S Thanks Veritee, your reply made me feel a bit better knowing that i'm not the only one with this problem"!!!
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Post by sarajay28 on Feb 28, 2006 20:43:56 GMT
Well Nathan's appointment went really well (apart from the 1 and half hour wait!!!) the consultant said he doesn't think its anything to worry about as he has full use of his thumbs and it doesn't bother him in anyway, he also said he's very advanced for his age which made mummy and daddy very proud!! lol. Sorry just gushing about my brilliant baby. hahaha. We have to take Nathan back in April as the consultant just wants to check that he can do the 'pincer grip' with his finger and thumb and he'll take it from there. So i was really pleased as was robbie. Nothing much else to say as most of the day was taken up with waiting in hospitals!!! and then when we came home we made pancakes!!! cameron couldn't flip his and kirstys landed on the floor and then robbies all folded up in the pan when he tryed to flip his!!! it was quite amusing but they were good all the same.
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Post by sarajay28 on Mar 1, 2006 20:46:16 GMT
Today has been fantastic ;D Robbie had the day off college due to the snow, unfortunately the kids didn't have the day off school (or fortunately??? ) so we decided that we would take Nathan and my niece Chloe sledgeing, my sister also came with us. We found a big hill with loads of snow on it and then sledged down it a few times before Nathan decided he didn't like it so we then moved to a smaller hill and he decided he like that!! it was really funny watching his face trying to work out just what the hell we were doing! ;D My niece absolutely loved it, she has just turned 3 and is at the age where anything remotely adventurous is exciting and 'cool'. She was laughing and screaming, although she looked like this hahaha. We then went for fish n chips at a nearby cafe before coming home for a nice cuppa. Its been a really good day today and tonight Cameron went swimming with his cousin so me, robbie and kirsty went into the front garden and had a snowball fight which in the end me and kirsty won against robbie, we managed to put snow down the neck of his jacket ;D and up the back of his jacket so his back/bum was wet and cold!!! it was hilarious and he couldn't fight us off cos he was laughing that much I just hope tomorrow is as fun?? I am taking Nathan and Chloe to Mother and Toddlers so that'll be good and then i have an appointment with my GP for a review of my meds/condition.
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Post by susanneb1984 on Mar 4, 2006 21:48:58 GMT
Hiya Sarah,
I wouldn't worry too much if even later on, Nathan doesn't have the pincer grip, Thea never did, she's too heavy and hyper to worry about pincer grips! lol
Glad you had a nice day xxxx
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Post by cheshire on Mar 11, 2006 18:41:01 GMT
Hi Sarah
How are you? The snow was great wasn’t it – brought out the kid in me!
How's the weather with you now? It’s been raining here – not the best weather for fun, but at least I suppose the house looks straight! How are your 3 – and Robbie?
I wrote this yesterday but woke up this morning to inches of snow and a blizzard, lol!!! I bet you'll hv snow today too?
Hope life is treating you kindly
Love and hugs HopefulXX
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Post by monica on Mar 12, 2006 16:07:14 GMT
Hello
i was just thinking you haven't been on recently. I hope you're well. You day sledging/snowball fightning sounded like lots of fun. It does make a huge difference when you start to enjoy life.
Take care
Monica
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Post by sarajay28 on Mar 13, 2006 10:48:48 GMT
Hi Everyone, Thanks for thinking about me, its good to know that people notice when your not around isn't it? so thanks for making me smile girls. I've been having such a good time lately its been great. Last week i was as busy as ever with the kids. They got 2 days off school because of the snow and we had great fun sledging and making snowmen (well a whole family of them really!! hahaha) i've took some pics and tried to post them on the blog but it wouldn't upload them? will try again today if i've got time! Last week i went on a school trip with Cameron to a science festival, it was good fun but i could never ever ever be a teacher!! lol. I really enjoyed it and cameron was proud (and a bit embarrassed) to have his mum there!! then on friday Kirsty took part in a our local music festival, she is in her school choir and they were competing in the festival and her class won their category. I was so proud of her. We also had the usual mother and toddler group on tues and thurs, took nathan swimming on friday with my sister and her 2 girls, robbie came with us and it was an excellent day out for us all. This weekend the kids were away with their dad so me, robbie and nathan went to Aberdeen for the night to stay with friends, they used to live near us but moved last year and this is the 1st time we've been to their new house. We had a fantastic time. They live out in the country near Aberdeen and they have the most beautiful old farm house (roaring coal fires etc,etc) and with all the snow it was really scenic. We had a meal on sat night and then a few drinks while catching up and then on sunday we went into aberdeen for sunday lunch. We had to come home earlier than planned because of the snow, i was worried that we would get stuck and not be able to get home for the kids coming back!! The road home was awful, at one point we did get stuck in a snow drift but we managed to get out eventually after robbie helped push the car in front of us out of it!!! It was horrendous. Where we live is completely clear of snow now though although it still feels snowy?! ie cold enough for it and the sky is very gray and fluffy. Well i have the HV coming out today, it was originally about Nathan not sleeping through the night and still waking for his night feed (which we wanted to stop) but she was going on holiday so couldn't come for 2 weeks!!! I turned to 'The Baby Whisperer' for advice (that is my bible from now on) and now he is sleeping through the night everynight and no longer has a night feed!!! YAY.... If ever you need advice buy that book or even just go on the website, its fantastic. So when the HV comes out i'm going to rave about the book!!! lol. Anyway thats all my news and its probably turned into a bit of a book!!! lol enjoy the read. Hope your all well and feeling happy? if not, take it from me this illness DOES NOT go on forever. Loadsa Love Sarah.xxx
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Post by susanneb1984 on Mar 13, 2006 11:46:00 GMT
Hiya Sarah,
I'm so glad nathan is sleeping better for you. Do you fancy swapping babies for a while!? lol send her back when she's an angel! pmpl you'd have her for a VERY long time!
Susanne xxxx
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Post by monica on Mar 13, 2006 14:38:04 GMT
Hi
Glad things are going well for you. You really sound happy! Your night away sounded lovely apart from the horrendous driving conditions.
Take care
Monica
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Post by natalie1985 on Mar 16, 2006 8:07:43 GMT
Just wanted to pop my head in and say HI!!! Havent spoken to you for ages Sarah! Hope all is well! Love Nat xxx
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Post by sarajay28 on Mar 16, 2006 16:25:22 GMT
Hi All,
Thanks so much for your messages, like i've said before its great to know people are thinking about you even when you're not around much. thanks girls.
lol@ susanne.....swapping babies!!! ermmm nope think i'll give that one a miss!! hahaha, its hard enough trying to 'train' one baby never mind anymore! When the HV came i did 'rave' about the book and what achievements i'd made on my own and you know what? all she could focus on was the fact that we give Nathan half a spoon of hot chocolate in his bedtime milk!!!!! No congratulations, well dones or praise of any kind just "oh maybe you should try cutting the hot chocolate out next or give it him in his cup as it'll rot his teeth" ............well bloody thanks!!! I was/and still am so proud of myself for the progress i've made and at how strong i've had to be to follow through with getting him to sleep alnight/cutting out his night feed and she goes and knocks my confidence and gives me something else to worry about!! I turned round and said to her "well tell me this, i exclusively breastfed kirsty until well over a year old because of her illness and when her first 4 top teeth came in they were completely soft and rotten and had to be taken out" at which she was quite stumped and made some ooohhhhing and aaahhhing noises!!!! so she can bog off with her assumptions that 1/2 spoon of hot chocloate in his milk at bedtime WILL rot his teeth!!! Sorry about that girls, it just makes me so mad that they think they are actually helping you!!! all they do is hinder and worry us and by reading some of the posts on here i'm not the only one who feels this way!!! Ok rant over.......
Anyway this weeks been pretty quiet, no parties, meetings, school trips, etc etc and its been lovely although at times i've thought, mmmm what shall i do now? lol. I took Nathan and Chloe to mother and toddlers today, it was good fun, all the kids seemed very grumpy today and were either screaming or crying so Nathan was whizzing about in a baby walker screaming with the best of them, it was very amusing!!! He's turning into such a funny little boy! he's currently lying on the floor next to my computer chair and kicking the seat which he seems to think is hilarious and if i don't acknowledge him he starts blowing raspberrys at me!! lol...... i must buy a video camera.
I am hoping for a quiet weekend, we have no plans as yet but i'm sure the kids will think of something they absolutely must do!!
Hope your all well and feeling fine.
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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