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Post by yoyo on Apr 26, 2006 11:55:31 GMT
big hug your way x x
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Post by noodles on Apr 29, 2006 8:23:33 GMT
been really busy, been in touch with english people living in bulgaria, been looking at houses on line, sorting out lyla's passport and got some one coming around to value our house on friday, so busy busy!!! feeling a bit run down and tired today, lyla had a bad night and then got up at 5 so im knackered!! hoping my mil might turn up.... might be wishful thinking though!!! not looking forward to the funeral tomorrow!!! suppose you just gotta get on with it!!! mum popped round the other day without nyree, so that made me feel a bit better but heard nothing since!!! really need a holiday!!! x
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Post by sarajay28 on Apr 29, 2006 18:38:14 GMT
Hiya noodles,
You have been busy! I really admire you for 'just doing it'. I wish i had the guts to just pack up and go. Just want to say i'll be thinking about you tomorrow and if you need any support before or after the funeral we are all here for you.
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by marion on Apr 30, 2006 19:16:20 GMT
Hi Noodles. Hope everything went as well as it could for you today. Take it as easy as you can over the next few days. Love Marion.
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Post by hannah457 on Apr 30, 2006 23:13:45 GMT
hi noodles how you doing sweety how did it all go take time for yourself
love hannah xx
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Post by noodles on May 1, 2006 15:19:35 GMT
the funeral was sad as expected, my sister apologised again but i just don't wanna know at the mo... think i am using the anger to help motivate me to get me out of the country... my brother held my hand throughout the service and my husband the other side so i felt well supported!!! as funerals go though it was lovely and there were loads of people! dad was a real character you either loved him or hated him! and it seemed that alot of people loved him! after we went back to my brothers had a few glasses of wine and a glass of champagne, then carl and i sneaked off and went in to town and got hammered with loads of old mates that we hadn't seen in ages, was drinking vodka from 3 in the after noon till 12.30 at night, it was brilliant, live music in the pub carl and i were dancing it was wicked really good humour, carls mum had lyla and kept her up all night!!! hahahah!!!! hope she doesn't do it tonight though! fully focused still in getting out and neither of us having to work for a while so we can both enjoy lyla growing up. in myself i am feeling quite good today, it was good closure yesterday followed by a good night out. plus my sister is going home tomorrow, so every thing is good apart from feeling a bit hung over..... Thanks for all your support over the last week it's a horrible time for any one you just feel in limbo, like booking an appointment to have a tooth pulled you know it's coming and you know it's gonna hurt but afterwards you feel better!!!! still can't believe that he is gone, but in a funny way i feel closer to him now as i know that he can love me and my family without all the physical health restrictions!!! i know that he is with me and smiling on me!!! and today i can smile right back at him!!! x
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Post by cheshire on May 1, 2006 17:26:43 GMT
Hi Noodles,
That's so lovely what you say there at the end of your postxx
Love and thoughts Hopefulx
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Post by marion on May 1, 2006 19:13:14 GMT
Glad all went well - certainly sounds like you're busy at the mo - great to have things to occupy your mind at these times. Love Marion.
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Post by sarajay28 on May 1, 2006 20:02:07 GMT
Awww noodles that is such a nice way to think about your dad, i'm glad you feel like you can move on and live your life. Funerals are horrible aren't they but i'm glad you've got some kind of closure from it. Well done for coping so well.
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by noodles on May 2, 2006 20:05:57 GMT
feeling ok today, been tidying the house, carl and i are getting on well, my sister and mum have gone to germany so that's a load off... lyla has a cold and was up nearly all last night but can deal with the tiredness easier that i used to... feel that every thing has slowed right down, inc. my brain speed, thank god!!! still can't wait to move away though... as soon as the money (left to me) and passports get sorted i can have a nice long holiday, looking at houses!!!! yea!!!! things finally seem to be sorting them selves out!!!! all of this has made me look at things differently, i think that you have to be true to yourself and do what YOU need that suits YOUR personality and what may suit one person will not sort another, i.e i am not my sister and i am not my mum i am me!!! i can't be normal and sit in and be a house wife and i don't want to do a boring job!!! life is short and you should strive for your dreams, i know now that if you want some thing bad enough one day the chance will come and when it does grab it with both hands as they don't come along very often!!! you only live once and it's YOUR life no one elses, do what you need to make you happy and f**k every one else!!! this doesn't make you selfish it makes you human and true to yourself!!! my mum is going to be so pissed off that i am going away (again) but i can see now that she has my sister and does not need me, so all things happen for a reason!!! and your all welcome to come and stay at my relaxation retreat when it's done....x
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Post by sarajay28 on May 2, 2006 20:58:43 GMT
Wow, noodles. Its so nice to read such a positive post and i for one will be at that relaxation retreat as soon as its done!!! I really agree with all you say and often think it myself, but i'm one of the people that say it then never do it!!!! and then i beat myself up about it. I'm so glad for you that you've got this sorted in your own head. I can' t think what else to say apart from wow. Your post is really inspiring tonight.
Loadsa Love
Sarah.xxx
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Post by hannah457 on May 2, 2006 21:11:21 GMT
well done noodles. you sound so positive and strong. your right be true to yourself. I'm gonna take your advice and I'm gonna seize the day and apply to college to become a councilor.
let us know how your house huntings going
love Hannah xx
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Post by noodles on May 3, 2006 7:32:38 GMT
yea... well done han and thank you sarah!!! when the house and that is sorted im going to study counselling as well hopefully through OU, i think they will let you study abroad!!! definetly seize the day, every one is valuable!!! you never know what budda might be round the corner to brighten your mood or teach you a valuable lesson, i must thank my father for being my budda this time and to remind me how valuable life is!!!! go get them girls!!!! x (oh so good to feel like my old self again) x
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Post by marion on May 3, 2006 7:53:45 GMT
Hey Noodles So great to hear you sounding so good - sounds like you have so many wonderful things on the horizan for you and your family at the mo- well done you! Love Marion.
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Post by noodles on May 4, 2006 8:32:10 GMT
feeling like poo this morning, been down the doc's and said i got broncitus which will be why i feel like poo, was up loads with lyla too..... feeling tired and impatient, i just wanna go on holiday now!!!!!!! oh well ho humm.... hope all out there are ok!!!! nx
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