Bobyn
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Post by Bobyn on Dec 10, 2007 19:30:18 GMT
Arghhh, I've had a rollercoaster 24 hours. Last night I was meant to be going out with my NCT girlfriends but cancelled as I couldn't face seeing them and pretending I was ok. I just felt like crying all night and cried whilst feeding Robs to sleep and then cried on my OH and Freya while she was reading her story at bedtime. Freya was lovely and we had a cuddle and talked lots in the dark in her room about holidays we have planned for next year.
I curled up in front of the TV with my OH and then tried to sleep but couldn't get to sleep for ages. Then I was up and down all night feeling sick but not actually being sick. I realised this morning that I've been so worried about my hospital appointment today. I'd been trying to forget about it but obviously it's been on the back of my mind.
The consultant I saw today was nice and checked every mole on my body - if only I'd remember to shave my legs!! There's one on my brest that has started to turn funny and the doctor had referred me to him because of it. So at some point in the next 30 days he's going to cut it out and stitch me up. He said he'd like to get it done in the next 2 weeks so I'm to wait for a phone call from the hospital. He then asked if I had critical illnes cover in case they find it is cancer and said that after he's cut it out he'll contact me to let me know. By letter if its all ok and by phone to come in and see him if it's not. I've never wanted a cute guy to not call me more than I do now!!
So I'm now feeling better, albeit worried and a bit fragile... at least on the PNI front I feel like yesterday afternoon/evening I hit the bottom of a downward loop so the only way now is back up for a while.
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smiley
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Post by smiley on Dec 11, 2007 17:31:37 GMT
Hey bobyn
Your absolutely right after a downer the only way is up!
I think your really brave copign with all this and pni aswell. Hope you feel better now.
Smiley
xx
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Post by Bobyn on Dec 11, 2007 19:31:46 GMT
Thanks Smiley. My lovely compassionate sister called me today from Oz to see how I got on at the mole clinic and when I told her one was going to be removed she asked me what type of cancer it would be if it turned out to be cancer!! Thanks little sis, I think she's inherited my dad's knack of always saying the wrong thing.
Today was an ok today PNI wise but I had awful IBS pain probably from worrying, lack of sleep as Bobs now gets up for a night feed again after weeks of sleeping through (ready for food soon I think), and from eating butter yesterday. The roll at the restaurant came with butter and I thought I'd see how it went. But this afternoon I've been in pain and Bobs has been screaming and refusing to feed and vomitting so she's not ready to tolerate dairy yet it seems.
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Post by winegirl on Dec 11, 2007 20:23:30 GMT
Hi Bobyn
Funny you should mention IBS as it is something I have been suffering with for a while but didnt realise till recently what it was and didnt realise it can be caused by stress and anxiety - guess all the takeaways i eat dont help either!
Sorry Bobs has been poorly hun, hope she is better today and you can get a full nights sleap again x
WG x
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Post by sianyc on Dec 12, 2007 13:14:55 GMT
Hi lovely
What is your sister like!
How many weeks is Robyn now - 17 or 18? Worth a shot at weaning I'd say. You need all the sleep you can get and if vegetables mean you get that, go for it.
Thinking of you loads - would call you from work but the big boss is visiting today and he's sat right next to me!
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Post by smiley on Dec 12, 2007 21:23:44 GMT
oh god IBS I had it for months after birth of baby defo anxiety and stress related!
Nice to hear you had an ok pni day! Heres to many more..
Smiley
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Bobyn
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Post by Bobyn on Dec 13, 2007 18:17:41 GMT
Arghhh, had a totally crap couple of days. Kids whinging constantly. Want to drink lots of wine and smoke but can do neither, oh joy. Went to Tesco to get out of the house for an hour but now back to crying kids. If I wasn't breastfeeding I'd run away for tonight I think. Had to put Bobyn in bed earlier as I really wanted to shout or smack her. That's the first time I've felt like that about her and I really feel like the PNI is getting worse at the moment.
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Post by cheshire on Dec 13, 2007 18:48:31 GMT
Bobyn,
Sending you a BIG hug - xx
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Post by Bobyn on Dec 13, 2007 18:59:34 GMT
Thank you Hopeful. I really need that at the moment. I wish I knew people close by to run away to and chat tonight but although I have good friends around there's no one I feel I can cry on and let it all out. I think maybe the stress of Bobs and I both going to hospital in the past week and the effects of the dairy on Bobs have caught up with me. It's just been one of those days. I've now put them both to bed and I'm going to put on my PJs and curl up in front of the TV. Something positive to end on - I have discovered that Alpro make dairy free custard and cream so I will be able to make a trifle at christmas, plus there is always Swedish Glace ice cream too in many flavours. And I've now lost 3/4 of a stone since dropping dairy a few weeks ago. It's the best diet plan I've ever found!
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Post by Bobyn on Dec 14, 2007 18:59:17 GMT
A slightly better day today. Robyn's smiles returned and Freya wasn't so grumpy at me as we spent the day at Crealy Park. A somewhat delayed start to the day as my OH went off to work with my keys but nevertheless we managed to make him return home and spent an enjoyable rest of the day. Freya met Father Christmas which she enjoyed and I liked having another Mummy to talk to. I think Bobs is ready for rice soon as she fed constantly today so we might consider that this weekend.
I think maybe I'm delaying it and trying to put it off as it's the first step away from her being my little baby. I never thought I'd want a baby to not grow up, it's a very strange feeling. My OH is off to his work do tonight and after a day out with the girls I'm so glad I said I wouldn't go too. I'm looking forward to my night home alone - the chips are in the oven and Ugly Betty is awaiting me later. If only I could complement the chips with some cheese life would be perfect - oh and wine too...
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Post by winegirl on Dec 14, 2007 19:01:57 GMT
Oooh Bobyn I want a night like yours! Wish my OH would go off out for the night so I could have the house to myself!
Glad you have had a better day babes, hope you have a fab weekend too x
WG x
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Post by Bobyn on Dec 16, 2007 20:42:43 GMT
A fairly nice and quiet and uneventful weekend. Bobs started baby rice yesterday and took to it quite well. Freya's a bit under the weather and I started with ANOTHER cold today. Bobs' cold never left her so I guess I should be thankful for the 3-4 days I had without blowing my poor red nose. I'm counting the days til my OH finishes work. He's off from Wednesday at 4.30pm til the 2nd January and then on the 3rd I get my best mate and her lovely girls to see me. Then my Mum staying from the 8th til the 11th Jan. I've been holding out for these few weeks 'break' for ages and I can't wait.
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Post by smiley on Dec 17, 2007 9:28:02 GMT
Oh Bobyn thats great! Isn't it just wonderful to have your mum around when your poorly? My hubby is off for 2 weeks too so looking forward to the company and help over the festive period not to say the food and wine! ;D
Smiley
xx
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Post by Scarlet on Dec 17, 2007 9:48:38 GMT
You sound like you will be having an eventful Xmas Bobyn...just what you need.
Sorry about the colds, but hopefully they will be over them before next week, and soon you'll have hubby around to help.
You are doing fine, and this time around you can be sure it won't last two years, you are already making a good recovery hun.
Love and hugs
Scarlet X
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Post by nishka on Dec 17, 2007 12:59:40 GMT
Hiya
Wow what a terrible time you have been having lately.. I feel terrible posting all my rubbish about the christmas party etc when you have been going through so much, sending you lots of lots of hugs.
IBS is a terrible thing - its so debilitating. I had it severely for 2 years to the point I had every hospital exam they could possibly give me (something shoved up every end!!) but to no avail, and it came back as I "only" (!!!) had IBS... Its such a horrible thing. You have my every sympathy with that, the PNI and the screaming kids!! I can't offer much advice to be honest - I found paracetamol seemed to irritate the IBS for some reason and I was better on Nurofen (which should be the opposite!!) and I found Colpermin peppermint capsules quite good. I had terrible stomach cramps and the runs though rather than the constipation - so I guess it depends what your personal symptoms are.
I hope everything is okay with the moles.
Sending you all my love and support,
Nishka xxxxxxxxxxx
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