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Post by Bobyn on Dec 27, 2007 18:48:25 GMT
Hi Rinny, I hope you managed to have a good day for christmas and enjoyed the day as much as possible. Good luck getting that GP appointment... You sound like you know that it'll be a good thing to go and speak to someone about how you're feeling so I hope they can fit you in sooner rather than later while you're feeling brave about talking. Let us know how you get on. x
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rinny
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Post by rinny on Jan 26, 2008 23:23:37 GMT
Ive been away from the interwebs for a while now as we changed suppliers and got disconned for 10 days then we had blue screen of death after just two days of it working now we have an older slower computer up and running. I phoned up the hv last week and made an appointment to see her on monday which was ok then bloke rang her up after i told him i made the appointment unbeknowst to me and told her all about it and she told him that if i didnt mention it to her she would bring it up. So now im all worried about what shes going to say and what i should say. I dont want to come across too crazy in case she thinks i need to be taken away from the kids but at the same time perhaps i shouldn't be near them i went over a bridge again the other day and had to keep as far away from the edge as possible in case i threw bubs over i didnt want to but i could just see it happening. The sensible part of me says this is for the best another bit says theres nothing wrong and im just a headcase fraud and the rest of me wants to stick my head in the sand and hope it all goes away most of all i dont want to cry on monday sounds silly but i get myself in a right state and wont make myself understood and ill feel like a complete fool well thanks for giving me a place to let off steam.
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Post by winegirl on Jan 27, 2008 0:12:02 GMT
Hi Rinny
Best of luck babes for your appt with HV. I dodnt want to cry in front of mine either (i NEVER cry in front of anyone), but when i cam to tell her how i was feeling she was so understanding and i just broke down. But i was reassured by the fact that she sees this all the time and was not phased and knew EXACTLY what to do to help me.
I am sure it will go fine for you hun and please keep us updated with how it goes.
Will be thinking of you x
WG x
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Post by Scarlet on Jan 28, 2008 11:17:59 GMT
Hi Rinny,
Hope all goes well today hun. You are going to be fine, and I'm sure she'll have heard it all before. She's not going to put you anywhere Rinny, you belong with your kids, and you are not crazy..PNI is very common.
Let us know how you get on.
Thinking of you
Scarlet xxxx
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Post by rinny on Jan 28, 2008 13:28:19 GMT
well shes been and gone and i didnt cry though it was a close call she understood what i was saying and has made an appointment with my docs for me for wednesday she wants to get me refered to the mental health nurse which sounds a bit scary and is coming back on thursday to see how im doing so at least thats the first step taken and i can breath a bit easier now. Though im not looking forward to wednesday as im not to keen on my doc but i never said that to her so she wasnt to know. Im feeling quite positive about things at the moment. Thank you for taking the time to reply it does mean a lot to me
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Post by Scarlet on Jan 28, 2008 16:33:13 GMT
Rinny no worries about the CPN referral hun. I went to see one and she was very understanding and has seen many women with PNI. If you want to know any info about what she'll ask you, what to expect, I'll let you know tomorrow when I have more time hun...but above all please don't worry, all will be well.
Love and hugs
Scarlet xxxx
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Post by rinny on Jan 30, 2008 23:32:00 GMT
so off to the docs i went today and again poured out all my embarrassing symptoms it always sounds crazy when i hear myself saying what ive been thinking but he said it was anxiety and he wasnt sure what path to take to cope with it he mentions a psychatric nurse i think i take it that these are the same as mental health nurses. also it said on screen in my notes that i had reported to hv that i has psycotic episdoes do they mean the bad thoughts as that sounds worriying. Doc also asked if there was anything that could of triggered the anxiety and asked how the birth was etc my birth was fine it didnt go as planned but how many births do? i wanted a homebirth but changeover mw didnt know she was working that night and didnt want to stay with me (she didnt say this but was implied i felt) so convinced me to go into hospital she wouldnt even officialy say that i was in labour as if she did that then she would of had to go in the ambulance whereas as she didnt she got to go straight home as a result of me going in my partner couldnt be with me so i had to give birth alone. now ive said that though perhaps there are some unresolved issues with the birth i had never thought to much about it before but the more i sit here thinking about it the more pissed off im am getting with that mw. but i dont know if thats the cause of it.
Anyways i went off on one then so what does a psychatric/ mental health nurse do with you then is it just another name for counsilling? ive got another docs appointmetn on monday after hes spoken to hv and another hv visit on thursday looks like they are keeping there eye on me. Another thing i wanted to ask if anyone could answer if the doc says its anxiety does that mean its not PNI?
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Post by Scarlet on Jan 31, 2008 7:57:20 GMT
Hi Rinny,
I'm glad that you went to the docs hun. I think it's a good idea to refer you to the CPN, as you'll have access to allsorts of services, 24 hour help line, counselling, psychiatrist.
PNI encompasses a broad range of symptoms of which Anxiety is the main one (imo), although depression and obsessive behaviour are also symptoms,
also it said on screen in my notes that i had reported to hv that i has psycotic episdoes do they mean the bad thoughts as that sounds worriying.
Did you mention your intrusive thoughts to your HV? If so these are not psychotic episodes, but sometimes having hallucinations and hearing voices (which can be part of PNI) are sometimes classed as borderline, and different nurses will classify the symptoms differently. Perhaps you could ask about this, but please try not to worry as long as you are getting the help you need, and you will recover from ALL of this anyway, no matter what the HV or doc labels you as. I
I think to start with hun, it's often difficult to pinpoint a reason, but like you say you had to give birth alone and the midwife wanted you to go into hospital when you wanted a home-birth. Birth experiences and inadequate treatment by medical staff are well know triggers.
Always remember that it is a temporary illness one which you will make a FULL recovery from, and know you can ask us anything on here Rinny and we will always help you as much as we can,
How are you feeling today hun?
love and hugs
Scarlet xxxx
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Post by winegirl on Jan 31, 2008 15:30:37 GMT
Hi Rinny
My diagnosis was anxiety, i think its just a more medical term than PNI. They dont treat the PNI they treat the anxiety. I hope that the docs really get the ball rolling for you now hun.
I prmise it does get better hun, you just have to hang in there and take all the help you can get get xx
WG x
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Post by rinny on Feb 5, 2008 23:50:50 GMT
Firstly i would like to say thankyou for all the replies and im sorry if i seem to be using this place just to blog in at the moment its just i dont feel i have much input to offer others though i do lurk around. I feel quite selfish just posting all about me but this is the only place i have really to air how im doing.
So went back to the docs on monday as he wants to be kept in the loop regards what im feeling and he told me that the hv was coming on thursday (which i knew) and she was bringing mental health nurse with her so i guess thats a good thing. Im having fewer bad thoughts at the moment but i dont know if thats just cause im too exhausted to think as im not sleeping too well and i just feel so blah at the moment not exactly sad just empty somewhat so i dont know if thats an improvement healthwise or not. Ive also been feeling like im someone else about to wake up and realise that this isnt my life and im trying to stop myself freak out when this happens is that a usual thing or is that my own brand of crazy? anyways thats me done for now thanks again to any who read this
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Post by Bobyn on Feb 6, 2008 14:35:29 GMT
Hi Rinny, I hope things go well for you tomorrow with the HV and mental health nurse, just remember that they're coming out to help you, not to judge you or criticise you and be as open with them as you're able to be. It will get better over time and with the right help and support. You're not selfish for only posting about yourself in your diary, it's YOUR diary and not anyone elses and it's important at the moment that you look after yourself and seek out any support that you can. People will always be here to listen to you on the site so just keep talking and take one day at a time. I remember those feelings of detachment about life and how it felt that you're living someone elses life and not your own. They do pass with time and slowly you'll start to regain control for your life and learn happiness again. Best of luck and hugs for tomorrow's visit. Bobyn xxxx
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