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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 16, 2008 10:54:22 GMT
Also feel very very tearful and depressed today, up until now anxiety's been the problem but it looks like depression is also setting in, oh to feel normal again.
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Post by cheshire on Apr 16, 2008 10:56:56 GMT
Sending you a BIG hug - x
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Post by sianyc on Apr 16, 2008 12:14:47 GMT
I hope your day picks up for you lovely x
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Post by winegirl on Apr 16, 2008 14:44:04 GMT
Hi Tabbysmum
Have things picked up for you at all. I found the depression kicked in with me after a while too - but it is expected when you have suffered so bad with the anxiety.
Have things improved at all this afternoon??
WG xx
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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 16, 2008 15:18:36 GMT
Hi WG,
Yes, I'm feeling a bit better this afternoon, thank you, calmer and not so tearful. I've had to pick Tabitha up from nursery early as they think she has conjunctivitis so more time on my own with her, but I know it's got to be done if I'm to get over this
TM xxx
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Post by winegirl on Apr 16, 2008 16:19:28 GMT
Hi Tabbysmum
Glad you are doing better this afternoon xx MY LO has had conjunctivitis more times than i can count - she normally gets it after a cold. If you take her to the DR to get some eye drops tell them she has had it for 3 days. They will only let you have eye drops if they have had it for 72 hours as they like to see if it clears up on its own.
I hope the rest of your day looking after her goes well xx
WG x
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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 17, 2008 20:05:17 GMT
Well today has been good by recent standards. Had the little one at home this morning with her sticky eyes but hubby was here too, then my cousin picked her up this afternoon when dh went to work. Was supposed to be working this afternoon but didn't have much to do and decided to save what I had until tonight in order to keep me occupied. Thought I'd lie down on my bed and try and read my book, managed to have a lovely little sleep instead which was well overdue, although it will no doubt mean I have even less sleep tonight. Went to pick Tabby up and ending up staying for my tea, didn't get home until 7 o'clock and started feeling quite anxious and tense on the way back but so far am coping. Am now supposed to be working, have done some bits, but still have more to do and just can't be arsed - which has to be a good sign as I'm not desperate for a distraction - yet, watch this space!
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Post by winegirl on Apr 17, 2008 20:54:31 GMT
LOL! Yes wanting to work really is desperation for distraction!
Well done today hun, sounds like that nap really did you some good too!
Hope you manage to get some work done tonight babes, rather you than me, i have to hit the sack!!
Always here
WG x
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Post by cokey on Apr 17, 2008 21:02:13 GMT
Hi
You seem so much better since the other day, must have been time of the month flaring it up. I was just the same.
Glad you got some sleep, it makes a world of difference.
Cokey xxx
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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 18, 2008 10:54:21 GMT
Well that's another day I've survived. Managed to get through the whole day without crying, the thoughts wont leave me alone but I'm coping. Hubby is obviously worried about me as he now keeps asking how I am and if I'm not hysterical he thinks I'm putting on a brave face for him. I don't really want to talk about it at the minute unless I have to as it's boring me, which I'm hoping is a good sign. Even my bad thoughts, which I've thought for a while now are becoming a habit are starting to get a bit stale (not enough so they don't bother me yet though) I've got to the point where everything I see I think something bad/scary about and even I realise that's ridiculous, I honestly believe I'm testing myself to see how scared I can make myself, don't know if anybody else ever feels like this? I'm seeing my counsellor on Tuesday so am looking forward to that, this last week has been tough and I need her to talk some sense into me - if that's possible!
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Post by sianyc on Apr 18, 2008 12:35:26 GMT
Hi
It makes perfect sense. I'd have a thought about me/oh/kids dying and couldn't stop myself elaborating on that - planning funeral, picking songs etc. I'd be a gibbering wreck in minutes, big ball of anxiety in my throat and crying.
I can't remember the last time that this happened - it was the last thing to go for me though unfortunately.
It sounds stupid but I used to blast music to distract myself from the thoughts and jump around to them if I was in the house. I had to sing along too - works a treat as you can't concentrate ont he words to the song and think horrible thoughts at the same time x
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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 18, 2008 14:15:56 GMT
Hi Sianyc
I was playing some music last night as I thought it was probably a good distraction, it definately helped, though when I'm really freaking out I don't think it would - but then again does anything x
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Post by winegirl on Apr 18, 2008 14:31:16 GMT
Hi Tabbysmum
The only thing that ever gave me a break from it was sleep! Which isnt always practical! Distraction and keeping busy was always good though.
Hoes thigs been this afternoon?
WG x
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Post by tabbysmum on Apr 18, 2008 14:49:10 GMT
Having a bit of a wobble at the minute, a new thought has popped into my head which has scared me, trying to ignore it.
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Post by winegirl on Apr 18, 2008 15:02:08 GMT
You ok? Remember it is just that, a thought, nothing that you will act on and it is just trying to test you.
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