Shellc2484 diary

[shellc2484]

well i have decided to start my own diary, so i have got somewhere to get all the stresses and worrys off my chest.
Last night i could not sleep much i think i had about 3 hours all in all, just felt really low worrying about why i'm in such a mess. Just lying there looking at my partner and thinking him and the kids would probably be better off without me, i'm just so miserable i hope these anti d's help.
Got up this morning to take eldest to school and i was absolutely shattered so partner had baby and i stayed in bed till 3pm, just lately i could stay in bed all day if i could. I felt a little better when i got up though and managed to get through the rest of the evening without crying until mom phoned to see how i was doing and i started blarting again.
I hope i'm not too bad tomorrow i gotta go visit my nan and grandad and that means i have to put on a front cuz depression just isn't an illness as far as they are concerned we just have to 'pull ourselves to gether' don't we.......

[Scarlet]

Hi Shell,

Hope you don't mind me writing in your diary.

Hope you manage to sleep tonight hun, I know what it's like to lie awake for hours on end. Your hubby and the kids wouldn't be better off without you. I thought the same at one time as well.

Hope you have a nice tie at your Nans, it's always good to distract yourself a wee bit when you can.

Hugs

xx

[winegirl]

Hi Shell

Yeah, most of my family thought mental health was just about `pulling yourself together' too. Its hard to get on with things when you cant be honset about how you are feeling.

I hope you have a nicetime at your Nan's though hun xx

WG x