Post by newmodel on Jan 1, 2009 13:42:07 GMT
It is really not easy to ask, but really I have to. (I put it down to my new year resolution to get myself out of the black hole that is sucking me in and my kids...)
Dh and I never really had great sex... well it was great when we had it at the start of the relationship... then, it just did fade away in frequency over the years. We have been together almost 11 years, I had to beg (tears and all) for my first DD, 4 years ago, and almost fill in an application form for the 2nd DD who is 8 months now.
We had many rows and arguments about sex, the lack of it and me getting despaired at not having children, no wonder I feel I forced him now... as it is /was always me having to start things going.
To resume we argued a lot about it, and it didn't improve.
After DD1 our relationship really degraded, on other levels than sex, trust is totally gone as I had many proofs that he lies to me on some petty things (he likes to have a secret life, "that is NONE of my business" he says) there's really not much left for me to him (and then again a despaired part of me who wants to have someone there in life,someone who clearly doesn't want to and says it as well...), it is a bit like living with a ghost...
Anyway,a while back (now obviously he hides even more about it and does it somewhere else I guess) I noticed he was very keen for all of us (me and the kids) to leave for bed so he could surf porn websites... fine.
But we come to it, what am worried about is that those sites he was going on where of under-age girls... Some where also foreign and etc...
At the time I was really scared and I guess I could not understand why he REFUSES to talk about it (well at least to let me know what is going on - I can take a lot, like he had pity of me, that is why we are together, so I can take a lot of rejection...LOL) but I was worried that he doesn't see that I have 2 girls... and they are going to grow up as teenagers too...
What am I suppose to think?
I just want to understand his position/opinion regarding sex with underage girls with ADULTS his age...
Please help me, I find it so hard to deal with things that are scaring me, especially when there's no one to discuss it with, that is why I came here, I hope you ladies can bring me a more objective approach to my fears.
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Dh and I never really had great sex... well it was great when we had it at the start of the relationship... then, it just did fade away in frequency over the years. We have been together almost 11 years, I had to beg (tears and all) for my first DD, 4 years ago, and almost fill in an application form for the 2nd DD who is 8 months now.
We had many rows and arguments about sex, the lack of it and me getting despaired at not having children, no wonder I feel I forced him now... as it is /was always me having to start things going.
To resume we argued a lot about it, and it didn't improve.
After DD1 our relationship really degraded, on other levels than sex, trust is totally gone as I had many proofs that he lies to me on some petty things (he likes to have a secret life, "that is NONE of my business" he says) there's really not much left for me to him (and then again a despaired part of me who wants to have someone there in life,someone who clearly doesn't want to and says it as well...), it is a bit like living with a ghost...
Anyway,a while back (now obviously he hides even more about it and does it somewhere else I guess) I noticed he was very keen for all of us (me and the kids) to leave for bed so he could surf porn websites... fine.
But we come to it, what am worried about is that those sites he was going on where of under-age girls... Some where also foreign and etc...
At the time I was really scared and I guess I could not understand why he REFUSES to talk about it (well at least to let me know what is going on - I can take a lot, like he had pity of me, that is why we are together, so I can take a lot of rejection...LOL) but I was worried that he doesn't see that I have 2 girls... and they are going to grow up as teenagers too...
What am I suppose to think?
I just want to understand his position/opinion regarding sex with underage girls with ADULTS his age...
Please help me, I find it so hard to deal with things that are scaring me, especially when there's no one to discuss it with, that is why I came here, I hope you ladies can bring me a more objective approach to my fears.
x X x
Aline