anonmoms diary

[anonmom]

Ok thought id give this diary a go.. At least i can share how im feelin and will get advice aslong the way..

Well a lil bout me my LO was born over a year ago after a very straightforward planned pregnancy she arrived perfectly healthy everything i ever dreamed of.A few weeks after the birth i was prescribed anti d's and reffered to a physchiatrist..At the time lookin back i was very scared my daughter would b taken away etc so i didnt tell him about the intrusive thoughts i wish i did..So he sent me away not wanting to see me again!!

I kept gettin thoughts all the time around PMT was worse sometiems i went weeks without havin them then i would have a blip..3 months ago i found out i was expecting which it was unplanned i felt scared didnt know what to do was i gunna keep my baby would i get worse anyway i came off the meds we decided we were keepin baby..Thats when it all started again the thoughts came back worse than ever so now im back on the meds which are safe in pregnancy and im waitin to get reffered for CBT.

Thanx for reading just wanted to let you know a little bit about me

[anonmom]

Today ive felt so down..tired, anxious, sick, had no energy whatsoever!! A few of them horrible freakin thoughts.they havent been too bad cos im back on the meds im feelin a lil better but they never just disappear!! The weather being crap probably hasnt helped its so cold and i was stuck indoors with LO all day..Im goin to bed just now need some sleep these kinda days wear me out!!

[winegirl]

Hi Anon

How are you doing today hun? Did you get some sleep and do you feel a bit better for it?

Hope you dont mind people writing in your diary, please say if you would rather we didnt x

WG xx

[anonmom]

Hi WG

Its fine of yu wanna write in my diary...Yeh today ive felt better after a good sleep last night ive been to town shopping with my friend today so ive been ok..it tends to be when im alone i get the thoughts more but luckily my meds have kicked in and i feel better within myself... ill keep chatting to you girls on hea!!

Thanx for reading chat soon

Anon mom x

[sianyc]

Hi anonmom

Welcome to the diary section. I have 2 years and a month between my two. The youngest one was a surprise as I did not want them so close together. In retrospect, this was probably a factor in my PNI - I had already convinced myself that I wouldn't be able to cope.

Glad the meds work for you and hope the CBT comes soon x

[anonmom]

Today ive felt like shit!!! Had a few of them horrible thoughts god i wish they would just leave me the heck alone....Last night tho i remember havin a horrible dream and thats probly played on my mind today!!! I cant wait till my OH gets home from work i feel so tired i just wanna sleep and i was thinkin i was gettin better..shame everyday cant be a good day with this pni...In reply to sian im starting to already think what if i cant cope how am i gunna do it when i feel like this some days it quite frightens me cos i feel like its difficult now with having PNI with my daughter and how the hell weill i do it with two babies!! Luckily i have my man for support but he has to work too

[gizmoracer]

I've just noticed your diary here. All of 5 mins after writing in your other post and saying you should start a diary.

I know what you mean with the dreams, thas something I suffered with too. They do get easier, the more you get as after a while you can train yourself to think its just a dream and I mustn't get worked up by it. I had one the other night and much to my surprise I was telling myself its just a dream in the dream.

[sianyc]

How've you been lovely?