Trying for another one..

[smiley]

Hiya

Just posted this inmy diary but this section might be better for it.

I am (i think!) doing ok, LO is 22 months but since deciding to try for a second on I have been abit . This anxiety I can handle - its nothing compared to what I have experienced with pni but yesterday I started having some intrusive thoughts that really upset me. I am trying to put it down to anxiety and stress but i keep worrying I will never be rid of them and they may get stronger if I fall pregnant. Or worse that I will get ill again.

Any advice at all very much appreciated. I spent most of today crying as I thought I was rid of intrusive thoughts and when they came back yesterday I felt abit shocked... Also, hate being anxious about trying for a baby when its all I want. I feel ready for another and want to put the past behind me and not keep reliving it. How can be sure I dont have pni anymore .. I think I am recovered but these intrusive thoughts threw me alittle..

smily xx

[winegirl]

Hey you

Sorry saw this after I replied in your diary mate xxx

Love me x

[stevensmummy]

Hi,

I am preg at the mo. Just prior to getting preg I was anxious and had bizzare thoughts. I doubted my recovery. I actually took ADs again. But I was over-reacting to a hormone triggered blip. Since being preg I have suffered another 2-3 blips, 1 was quite bad for a period of 1-2wks. But I do strongly believe that they were just that, a blip.

At times I have questioned my own recovery. If I am actually in recovery, if I am silly to have another, if I will ever b better. At times I think yes at others no. In truth its the fear of being ill again that fears me most. Someone once told me its that which shows recovery. I dont think I am recovered, I think pni will always be part of me now, just not nessecarily a leading/active part.

In short what I'm trying to say is that I think u are feeling natural things. Getting preg again after pni is a big step. Its only natural to worry. I suggest you dont suppress these feelings as we all know thats when probs arise. Talking openly helped me.

Good luck with the trying. I hope it all goes to plan

Sarah xx

[monica]

Hi

I would think that the decisio n to try for another baby has brought back the memories of thoughts you had with PNI - you are associating a baby with PNI. Im sure it's just a bit of worry and will pass.

I woudl say though that this time round you are forewarned - you know the signs of PNI and can nip them in the bud should you get PNI second time round, but you may not. I know many women who had it first time round and never again.

I got PNI with my second child - I now have a third who is four months old and yes I've had days when I've thought it's comin back but I think they've been on days when I@ve been tired and vulnerable. so far I seem well overall. When I was pregnant I talked to my hv who kept an eye on me, as did mw.

All the best!

Monica

[winegirl]

Oh you guys inspire to have another baby! Actually as it stands, if it weren't for other life factors right now I would! PNI certainly hasn't put me off. Just need to finish my course and win the lottery

[sally123]

The best of luck to you! It can be very difficult and scary getting "back on the wagon" as it were - but there are plenty of people to help out, both online and I'm sure offline.

Check out the forums at the parenting site gurgle if you want more support or a bit of fun, it's a good site for mums-to-be too!