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blue
Apr 28, 2009 9:00:03 GMT
Post by cokey on Apr 28, 2009 9:00:03 GMT
Hi Blue
Its so hard but PNI does affect relationships. It will come right in the end if the relationship was okay to start with (and I don't mean perfect because that doesnt exist, just okay).
Men find PNI very hard to deal with. My husband has become depressed both times after I started to recover because of the worry about us and how we are in general. It doesnt mean thats our fault because it absolutely isnt, we have PNI because we had the babies and we do suffer far more but they do suffer somewhat too. My husband has been down for some time now and being on the other side of it, it really has taken its toll on me. So I can only imagine what dealing with PNI must be like.
Its never an excuse for a man to be cruel or insensitive but it helps to know sometimes they just can't cope.
Having said all that, it does bring you closer together long term and you will get through it. Just think of you and how you feel and don't worry what anyone else thinks.
Hope you are okay today.
Cokey xx
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Sept 14, 2009 13:15:30 GMT
Post by blue on Sept 14, 2009 13:15:30 GMT
I am struggling so much at the moment, I had a good few months but now feel I have gone backwards, I think I am going have to go back to the GP as I can't carry on like this. I feel so stupid.
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blue
Sept 14, 2009 14:11:10 GMT
Post by sianyc on Sept 14, 2009 14:11:10 GMT
There is no shame in going back to the GP lovely. I've done it myself on a few occasions and the relief I felt in having made the effort to get it sorted was almost as good as the meds :-)
In all liklihood, it's a blip and will pass but I know it can feel like you've made no progress at all. It's the shock of feeling the way you thought you'd never feel again (does that make sense?). Whenever I have a bad day now, or a bad week where I'm stressed out, it's a struggle to remind myself that this is not PNI returning but a normal reaction to something. My first reaction is always fear that I'm not well again.
I hope you can get in to see the GP soon x
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blue
Sept 25, 2009 21:13:25 GMT
Post by stephmum on Sept 25, 2009 21:13:25 GMT
Hi Blue I have not written in your diary before but I was just wondering how you are feeling now? Have you been able to see your GP yet?
Steph x x
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Sept 26, 2009 7:30:57 GMT
Post by winegirl on Sept 26, 2009 7:30:57 GMT
Hi Blue
Going back to the GP is the best thing you can do. I have been fine for 2 years and yet had to go back to the gp myself last week as it came back for me. There is no shame in it. I have always said I am no hero and if i need the help i will take it.
How are you feeling now? Did you see your GP?
We are here if you want to talk x
Take Care
WG xx
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May 28, 2010 21:31:15 GMT
Post by blue on May 28, 2010 21:31:15 GMT
I have not writen on here for ages. My daughter is now 18 months, I have been on medication now for a while. Everything came to a head yesterday when I told my husband I wanted to leave him, I just can't take any more. After a lot of crying and atempting to leave the house, I am still here and have agreed to go to relate. I am so lost and confused, I was even going to leave my daughter behind as I thought she would be better off. I don't know what I want anymore or who I am, I hate this, I can't see an light at the end of the tunel.
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May 29, 2010 12:04:03 GMT
Post by gizmoracer on May 29, 2010 12:04:03 GMT
Hi Blue. So glad you've come back to talk to us. Do you think the medication is working? truthfully? You sound like I did a few years back. I had been given prozac and expected it to work. I sort of felt a bit better for a while but in hindsight maybe it was belief that everything was going to be ok. In reality they didn't suit me at all. I stopped taking them and didn't bother to go back to the doc because I thought that was all they could do for me. It wasn't until I scared myself by walking out during an arguement with the full intention of leaving my kids behind and never coming back that I actually went back to a different doc and explained how ill I was and that the tablets had never really helped at all. I was given citeopram and started to feel better very quickly. I have also had conselling. Perhaps you need to go back and talk to the doc?
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May 30, 2010 14:30:12 GMT
Post by monica on May 30, 2010 14:30:12 GMT
Hello Blue
Welcome back but I'm so sorry it's because you are suffering. what caused you to want to leave your oh? Is it more how you're feeling inside than issues with oh. You do need to go back to drs though - it may be that meds aren't working .
Please let us know how your'e doing
Love
Monica
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May 30, 2010 20:04:31 GMT
Post by winegirl on May 30, 2010 20:04:31 GMT
Hi Blue
I am so sorry to hear how you are suffering. Hang in there hun, there really is light at the end of the tunnel...
I am sorry to hear that you so felt that you needed to get away. But try the relate, and try some you time too.. once a week at least just you doing what you want, no LO/Husband etc..
We are here and listening to you hun, so please keep talking if it helps.
Much Love
WG x
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May 31, 2010 19:55:43 GMT
Post by blue on May 31, 2010 19:55:43 GMT
Thank you for your support. I upped my medication about a month ago and I am having conselling, though the medication does supress some of the anxiety I fell it also stops me feeling, I am never really happy and hardly ever cry I am just existing, it is like looking through a window as my own life but and not being able to control it. I started self harming about 6 months ago so there is now another battle I have to fight too. I hate not being in control of my life.
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May 31, 2010 21:15:17 GMT
Post by monica on May 31, 2010 21:15:17 GMT
Hi
Some ladies do say that certain antids have the side effect of 'not feeling' or numb which can be quite distressing in itself. sorry if asking the obvious but have you told your counsellor and doctor about this. have you also talked to anyone about the self harm? It is hard to discuss this but these things are best nipped in teh bud and the best way to do this is by getting support.
perhpas it would be good to discuss alternative meds if you feel this way? I'm certainly no expert on meds but it doesn't sound as if they are working well at all.
Big hugs to you and do talk to us. You know you'll get lots of support here
Monica
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blue
Jun 1, 2010 18:52:01 GMT
Post by Weeble on Jun 1, 2010 18:52:01 GMT
Hi Blue
Hope it is ok if I say hello. I understand the non crying thing, I have cried three times since my son was born ten months ago, I am desperate to but nothing comes out anymore. I tried self harming and it did not work for me too much of a chicken, but I hope you have told you HCP's. Have you managed to work out what you triggers for self harming are yet??
Kat
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Jun 14, 2010 13:33:17 GMT
Post by blue on Jun 14, 2010 13:33:17 GMT
Thank you for your messages. GP know about my self harming which is how I got counseling, it is a really hard thing to talk about, I have not worked out what my triggers are yet. It is one big uphill battle and a huge part of me wants to just be left alone.
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Jun 16, 2010 9:52:57 GMT
Post by winegirl on Jun 16, 2010 9:52:57 GMT
Hi Blue
Yes it is a bit of a rocky road, but yu can and will do it. Just take it all one day at a time. You know what they say about taking it all in small pieces..
WG xx
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