Help: Obsessive Thinking

[claireb]

I don't know if this is the right place, but I didn't know where else to look.
I am 17 weeks pregnant with 2nd baby, and have started having obsessive thoughts about stuff from the past. I suffered with pnd first time round and don't want it to happen again( i know its not avoidable)
I have started thinking about how I was as a teenager, and how i don;t want my child to turn out like that. I had a one night stand 5 months before I got pregnant last time, H knows all about it, but I get paranoid how things could have been different (got pregnant than) i know its not possible as 14 month prenancies don;t exist, but I cannot get it out of my head. I think of all i could have thrown away, and how my child would be mortified if they knew how I was as a teenager ( i was sent away to b.school as going off rails) H really supportive, saying this is norm, we all do stuff, but it does not ean our child will do the same. we teach her oter stuff. but i still cannot seem to get this out of my head.
I know this is not normal and I am going to go to my GP , but I just wondered if anyone else, has experienced / experiencing the same? its scary because its causing anxiety and making me down, when there is nothing I can do about it, and what I did I did, it was wrong but it was over 4 1/2 years ago. Sorry for going on. Help xxx

[kittykatt]

Clare

I frequently do this and this has been the main thread of PNI as well as my other bouts of depression beforehand. What if thinking and analysing every minute detail of mistakes and if you had done things differently. Living in the past and the future. It's still driving me insane but I know it dosen't when I am well and my medication is working. It is a horrible symptom of this illness.

KittyKatt

[kmum]

Totally understand and sympathise with how you feel. Presume with being pregnant meds aren't an option. But CBT is! Cognitive behavioural Therapy is brilliant. They go right back to your childhood and current day. They help you to see what the triggers are and give you new coping mechanisms. You sound like you are in need of a good 'talk it out' session anyway!! Your doc can refer you or sessions cost around £50 a go. I claimed mine back under Benedren health care policy which was lucky as parents still had me added to their insurance.

Have you ever had counselling before?

K