Post by stevensmummy on Oct 13, 2009 8:02:19 GMT
Did i not just crash just b4 I pressed post lol!!!!!
Here we go again.
Well against my better judgement I decided to go pick him up last nite. There wasnt really anyone else so i went. He got in the car, with my full intentions of cornering it straight away. But you know it never goes to plan. We had a laugh at the prospect of him walking in the rain, it was pouring. Then i decided that was enough I was starting to feel sick. I asked him what he meant by what he said the other nite in the kitchen. He rabbled on a bit, what do you mena, I didnt mean anything. U arent annoyed with me now are you. God u hate me dont you, I was trying to be 'normal'. I'm sorry I'm really really sorry. I stopped him ranting on and told him to listen. i explained that i felt a bit uncomfortable by it. That after him saying what he did about him feelings for me i have seen things he says differently. When i thought about it i guess I was overreacting. B4 I'd have told him to dream on he wasnt that lucky and thought nothin of it. He comented that he was surprised i had no retort for him but never thought anything else.
After a bit of talking he agreed that he'd cool it off. i told him i didnt want to lose what we have as I do love him very much as a friend, but nothin more. There has always been a bit of sexual tension between us and I said that what happened was inevitable i thought but didnt think that it would change anything. So we had sex, it was nothin more than that and it wouldnt be happening again. He appologised yet again and said that he does love me, prob more that I do him and not quite the same way but he has felt like this for a very long time now so nothin will be any different for him. He promised to cool it off with a little less sexual content to him taking the piss. That he'd also try not to touch me quite so much but that he doesnt do it intentionally so he might not notice it till its too late. I thanked him and appologised for overreacting, saying that he didnt need to be that extreme just to be aware that I was feeling a bit uncomfortable with it all and to give me time to cool off.
I felt really stupid, but knew it had to be said too. I almost regretted it when he went to get out of the car and to give me a hug. He pulled back and appologised quickly. I instantly said this was what I didnt want and leaned over and gave him a hug. We both laughed and he gave me a kiss on the cheek and said cheers luv, now dont splash me with the puddles!
It went not too badly but I guess we'll see how it really went the next time I see him. It was really hard for me to talk to him like that and I feel a bit guilty about it. It had to be done tho, i was almost at the stage of avoiding him!
Here we go again.
Well against my better judgement I decided to go pick him up last nite. There wasnt really anyone else so i went. He got in the car, with my full intentions of cornering it straight away. But you know it never goes to plan. We had a laugh at the prospect of him walking in the rain, it was pouring. Then i decided that was enough I was starting to feel sick. I asked him what he meant by what he said the other nite in the kitchen. He rabbled on a bit, what do you mena, I didnt mean anything. U arent annoyed with me now are you. God u hate me dont you, I was trying to be 'normal'. I'm sorry I'm really really sorry. I stopped him ranting on and told him to listen. i explained that i felt a bit uncomfortable by it. That after him saying what he did about him feelings for me i have seen things he says differently. When i thought about it i guess I was overreacting. B4 I'd have told him to dream on he wasnt that lucky and thought nothin of it. He comented that he was surprised i had no retort for him but never thought anything else.
After a bit of talking he agreed that he'd cool it off. i told him i didnt want to lose what we have as I do love him very much as a friend, but nothin more. There has always been a bit of sexual tension between us and I said that what happened was inevitable i thought but didnt think that it would change anything. So we had sex, it was nothin more than that and it wouldnt be happening again. He appologised yet again and said that he does love me, prob more that I do him and not quite the same way but he has felt like this for a very long time now so nothin will be any different for him. He promised to cool it off with a little less sexual content to him taking the piss. That he'd also try not to touch me quite so much but that he doesnt do it intentionally so he might not notice it till its too late. I thanked him and appologised for overreacting, saying that he didnt need to be that extreme just to be aware that I was feeling a bit uncomfortable with it all and to give me time to cool off.
I felt really stupid, but knew it had to be said too. I almost regretted it when he went to get out of the car and to give me a hug. He pulled back and appologised quickly. I instantly said this was what I didnt want and leaned over and gave him a hug. We both laughed and he gave me a kiss on the cheek and said cheers luv, now dont splash me with the puddles!
It went not too badly but I guess we'll see how it really went the next time I see him. It was really hard for me to talk to him like that and I feel a bit guilty about it. It had to be done tho, i was almost at the stage of avoiding him!