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Post by bean on Nov 2, 2009 10:34:12 GMT
Hi Wkmmum
Sorry wasnt around last night, hope you managed to chat with WG or someone. How you feeling today hun?
Really pleased you had a good holiday.
Please try not to stress about the 2lb, if you dont mind me asking are you really overweight/underweight? Please try not to lose too much, you will start catching bugs etc and not feel any better.
Sendign you love and strength, hope youre having a better day luv bean xxx
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Post by wkmmum on Nov 2, 2009 14:46:03 GMT
Don't be sorry bean!
In a way I'm feeling good today as I've lost more weight. But in a way that makes me feel even more out of control (if that makes sense?). Put on my work trousers this morning and had to put on a belt just to keep them up.
According to my BMI I'm underweight although not by much. But I just can't see it. I don't think it'd be a problem if I lost a little bit more xx
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Post by bean on Nov 3, 2009 9:23:44 GMT
You totally make sense hun, i understand where you're coming from. I dont see it either when my mum and dad are telling me im a bag of bones, im not at all - just recovering still from the flu.
If you're having to belt up to keep your trousers up, maybe youve lost more than you realise, its a very easy trap to get into. Just try to look after yourself, all the bugs that are around at the mo. Hope you have a good day at work hun. take care, thinking of you bean xx
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Post by wkmmum on Nov 3, 2009 12:52:19 GMT
Well, I had a long chat with someone this morning and since then have done a lot of thinking. I realise that I need help and that I can't carry on like this with the eating. So I've phoned my psychiatrist and left a message asking her to call me. I'm gonna be completely honest with her. I realise that she'll want to see me to weigh me a do bloods and I'm still not sure about that. But I guess I still have time to think about it.
I'm really scared about this as I still don't want to put on weight. But it's worth a try.
Good news today is that a while ago my social worker said that they might be able to pay for me to do an open university degree. I've just had someone come round to do a financial assessment and I don't need to make any contributions so looks like I'll be getting a direct payment to do the degree. Really pleased although a little apprehensive as it's been so long since I studied and I never got any further than GCSEs xx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 3, 2009 14:16:09 GMT
I was the same hun about going to Uni - i did my GCSE's years ago and have never written an assignment! But once you get into it you will be fine - and it will be good focus for you!!
Have you heard back from the psychiatrist yet??
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Post by wkmmum on Nov 3, 2009 14:20:33 GMT
Not heard anything from her yet. Fingers crossed she rings me today xx
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Post by bean on Nov 3, 2009 21:17:42 GMT
Hi Youre doing great, realising that you need help is the first step hun. Im so pleased you are going to talk to her about it honestly, she is there to help.
Great news about the funding, any advice as to how i could get some for my course? Would love any ideas x
How you doing tonight? did she ring you? Take care, hope youve managed to eat todayxxxx
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Post by wkmmum on Nov 3, 2009 21:30:29 GMT
Funding - doing the course has been put down as part of my care plan cos I need a challenge to keep my mind occupied.
She didn't ring me. She may well ring tomorrow but whether I'll be able to talk or not is another matter as I've got physio then work.
How are you? xx
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Post by wkmmum on Nov 4, 2009 11:03:29 GMT
Still not heard anything from the psychiatrist so just phoned again and spoke to her secretary. She's gonna ask her to call me. She said it'd be this afternoon so I asked for it to be before 3 as I'll have to go and pick DS up from school then and won't be able to talk if he's with me. Really hope she does ring today as I'm gonna lose my nerve xx
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Post by cazfletcher on Nov 4, 2009 13:04:21 GMT
any news yet hun? x
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Post by wkmmum on Nov 4, 2009 19:06:45 GMT
Yeah - she rang me at about 3:30. By that time I'd picked up my son from school and taken him back to work with me, so it was really difficult and I couldn't say much. But I'm having blood tests tomorrow and am seeing her on Monday. So all I have to do now is hang on until then. Feeling really ill today cos of not eating but even that doesn't make me want to eat.
Has been a crap day for another reason too but can't go into that on here. All in all, I've just about had enough xx
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Post by bean on Nov 4, 2009 20:51:15 GMT
Hi They always seem to ring at the wrong time dont they?, not when you need them. Have you eaten anything today hun, try to keep your strength up, even if you dont feel like it, just a snack will help. Sorry I had to disappear off f/b but martha was wailing, ill be back on in a min, so sorry about your day. Keep talking hun, monday will be here soon. luv and hugs bean xx
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Post by wkmmum on Nov 4, 2009 21:34:16 GMT
I feel really guilty cos all I ever seem to do on here is take. I promise that as soon as I get my head a bit straighter I'll give as well as take.
But am really gonna need support over the next few days. Right now Monday seems a million miles away and I'm really not sure if I can keep going til then xx
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Post by bean guest on Nov 4, 2009 21:47:30 GMT
Hey, thats what everyone here is for hunni, we all need support sometimes and i personally have found that support right here. And never feel guilty about offloading, thats what your diary is for.
You can get through this, keep talking hun, here listening xx
Hope you have good sleep, catch up tomorrow xx
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Post by winegirl on Nov 5, 2009 13:32:28 GMT
You can keep going, and we are all here right behind you! Keep talking to us and we will do our best to help you through the next few days!
How has today been for you so far??
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