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Post by gizmoracer on Mar 5, 2010 16:05:33 GMT
So a positive start, Joey came 2nd and Jason came 3rd in their costume parade. I had a bit of a wobbly start to the day however. My dream almost came true. I turned up at the docs and the midwife who called the lady before me was NOT my midwife and then I heard her say she had a student as well. My initial reaction was to leg it but to be fair she looked and sounded quite friendly and she was. Turns out my midwife is in the process of transfering (I had been told this by a friend a while back) so looks like I may not see her at all. The student was fine and immediatly put my mind at rest by saying she wasn't doing the blood test. To be honest its the only thing I ever refuse a student to do purely because I'm so bad with them so she wouldn't have had alot of say in it anyway lol. They were both really nice, took a bit longer than normal because everything had to be gone over twice but hey. So main points: Traces of glucose and protein present BUT only a trace and they are not worried. I do have a small chance of going to the ABC (birthing centre) if I stay healthy and don't put on too much weight but it is only a small chance so I'm going to focus on a 'normal' delivery for my sanity. My Blood pressure is much better now 136/80 (a few weeks back it was 151/93). HOWEVER I was dehydrated so they couldn't get any blood out of me at all, so I've got to go to the hosp. on Monday to have my bloods done She was very gentle though and didn't push trying to do it too much. I have to wait for a scan date but it should be from 11-14 weeks (I'll be 9 weeks on Monday). Thats about it really. All quite boring.
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Post by winegirl on Mar 6, 2010 8:20:43 GMT
Mate - being a student nurse myself you think I would let them do anything on me.. But even the best phlebotomist normally takes at least 4 attempts to get blood from me and I HATE it for that reason - so there is more chance of me plaiting fog than letting a student near me with a needle!!
Having said that, part of my remit now is to give injections to some of our psychotic patients, and its annoying if they dont want you to give them their injection! LOL
xx
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Post by monica on Mar 6, 2010 17:00:31 GMT
Hi
How ar eyou doing? Sorry not been in touch but it's not that I'm n ot interested it's just that I dont' have a computer at the minute. You sound well at the minute and certainly leading a full life! I hope the nausea is subsiding.
Glad to hear the birthing centre hasn't been ruled out if that's what you want.
You look after yourself
Love
Monica
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Post by gizmoracer on Mar 8, 2010 20:54:01 GMT
So I think now is a good time to log that I'm feeling very low. Not really upto talking but felt it important to be honest on here, where I know I will get a sympathetic ear and an honest responce. It's more important that hubby knows how I'm really feeling if I want to beat it this time, so I hope your still keeping check on this? I've had a few down days, nothing major just bit fed up mainly due to feeling so rough. I lied on one of the questions on my booking in on Friday. When she asked me if I had a lack of interest in things I said no, when it's actually been quite obvious to both of us that I have had no interest in anything for well over a week now. Steve has been desperatly trying to get me involved in stuff but I just don't want to know. To be honest I'm probabaly too wrapped up in the whole 'lets get a scan done and confirm everything is ok' thing at the moment. Being told that I could have a variety of midwives hit a nerve with me because the first midwife I had is now in this area and I don't want to deal with her. But I know I don't have to and can refuse to see her. (trying to put a few positives in here so I can see them more clearly). It could also be a good thing to see different people I guess coz lets face it there arn't that many scary midwives about. The trace of protien and glucose told me that this isn't necessarily going to be easy sailing and I need to stay focused to keep on top of my health. Focusing on anything is something I'm really bad at right now. I've lost count of the amount of times I've got lost driving somewhere local and even stopped at a green light last week The blood tests, oh boy, not good. On Fri she said I was probably dehydrated and should go this week up the hospital to maternity pregnancy assesment unit. So off I went this morning after 3 tea's, a pint of cola and god knows how much water. Still no sign of a vein in the usual place so she tried my wrist ... nothing a few of them had a good look and decided the only half chance was the other hand just below that bump. They were going to send me up to the blood clinic but I asked them to have another go. I have bad memories of the blood clinic. NOT a nice place to stick a needle, didn't really hurt that much and they got about 3ml out before calling it quits but OMG does it kill now. Seriously right the way from my little finger across half my hand and partly up my arm is real genuine pain. So off to the blood clinic I go. There was huge waiting there and to be honest I was feeling very feint by then so went home to heal. I've been told Wed morning is a good time to go. As far as I know they will get it one way or another but it's 'the other' that bothers me. Mind you I've been sat in a hot bath and noticed that the veins in my hand do get quite prominant when warm so maybe gloves and a slick to bite on could do it. I went to my Angel meeting this afternoon as we were doing some training and most of it went in one ear and out the other, I really cannot concentrate but we had funding for this meeting so had a nice lunch waiting for us and £15 voucher. My sleep is terrible, perminantly knackered but can't settle and can't get comfy. My snoring has become unbearable for OH who has been as polite as humanly possible about it but would, no doubt love to have a good yell. He is shattered and loosing interest in his usual xbox/wii games and becoming short tempered with them too. I'm having some nasty dreams. Some just plain weird and some have me waking up in a cold sweat. Last night I was in some sort of 'scream' film but there was 10 of them all running round with knives. I woke up, calmed myself down, and just as I dropped off again the cat took a swipe at my boob, I nearly wet myself. We shut the cats in the front room at night. However Joey had been up a few hours earlier and must have opened the door thinking we were still up. Thats the other thing, somewhere between 1am and 2am one of the kids wakes me. It's either Jason coughing like mad and needing his inhaler or Jodie with a sore tummy and 'mummy will you sleep with me'. Sickness is now back on a whole day senerio as well. I had a good stuff yesterday as I was unbeliveably hungry but today everything has been a struggle and instead of feeling better after eating I'm now feeling worse. Jason didn't seem right earlier so maybe its a bug? Right ok enoug hfeeling sorry for myself, going to take a leaf out of Kat's diary and finish on a positive. Jodie has passed her stage 1 in swimming and jumped in by herself today ;D
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Post by winegirl on Mar 8, 2010 21:06:44 GMT
Mate - I have refused point blank for ANYONE to come near my hand with a needle (god im so good at this nursing lark...) so they just have to keep trying my arms.. eventually, someone gets something.. But I always ensures that a MW or Nurse didnt do it - just because they couldnt, and even to this day will tell Nurses etc that I will go to a phlebotomist if they want my blood... seems to work..
What is an Angel meeting if you dont mind me asking? Very intrigued...
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Post by gizmoracer on Mar 10, 2010 12:59:56 GMT
WG, you're so funny I've always prefered a MW to do it because of a bad experience at the blood clinic when I was 14, however I've started to come round to your way of thinking. I went back to the hospital today for a third attempt and the phlebotomist got it first go and from my arm Mind you it certainly wasn't plain sailing coz I threw the biggest wobbly ever just before hand. We had just over an hour wait and by the time they were 5 numbers away from mine I was hyperventalating, heart going mad, all the blood had drained from my face (that may have helped I suppose) and was feeling physically sick with the telltail ringing in my ear as though I was going to feint. I then proceeded to collapse in a heap of hysterical tears and blubbering away to an extent of no-one could figure out what the hell I was on about including myself. They calmed me down to an extent but I was still shaking like mad while she did it and was inconsolable afterwards through sheer relief. Anyway feeling mentally a hell of alot better now, bit sicky but glad it's over and done with. All I need to do now is find a way of sleeping at night.
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Post by monica on Mar 10, 2010 13:08:25 GMT
Poor you Giz - what an ordeal! Maybe in future phone ahead and tell them how hard it is for you so they can give you a time slot. Waiting an hour is so long and obviously you got yourself so worked up just sitting there. I'm sure there's a way round it.
How are you now this pm - hope things have picked up for you. I had horrendous insomnia with my third and it paralysing. When you have the opportunity to sleep you can't cos you've got the other kids to look after and when you can you can't. I gues you've tried the warm milky drink (not chocolate) at night? Perahps get up if you can't sleep for 1/2 hr and do something relaxing?
Hoep tonight is better for you
Love
Monica
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Post by gizmoracer on Mar 10, 2010 20:45:48 GMT
Hi Monica. Fingers crossed I won't need another blood test now til 28 weeks. Hubby recons my best bet is to insist in a phlebotomist doing it, which is probably a good idea, but there is no way of booking an appointment at the hospital, however I think our GP surgery has one there and they do appointments.
The insomia is driving me nuts mainly coz I've got no interest in doing anything at the moment so I lay in bed thinking I'll get up and play for a bit but can't be bothered so I just toss and turn instead. The kids have been waking me alot recently too which isn't helping. Last night we had a photo fall off the wall at midnight, Joey up at 1am, 2am and then 3am and hubby up at 5am, Jason did wake up but thankfully sorted himself out but then got up at 6am.
I've had a sleep this afternoon which could well be fatal for tonight but helped at the time lol. I think once I'm feeling less sicky and start doing more I'll be more physically tired instead of just emotionally drained. Jodie has been begging me to start walking to school again and I need to anyway to help with my weight and general fitness, see how we go.
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Post by Weeble on Mar 11, 2010 19:24:10 GMT
Hi Gizmoracer,
just read about your last few days, your OH is so right phlebotomists and anaethetists the only people to let pierce your body. A few tricks to suggest to them in the future, warm water is always good like you say and if it really makes you bad ask for the local anaesthetic gel they use for kids they should give it to you if you insist.
Be proud and least you have booked, I am still on massive avoidance, so you are doing better than me well done. You probably are right about the needing the scan, I am the same I need a scan before I can relax too. I know it is the same for many of my mates.
Look after yourself and looking forward to reading your next installment
Kat
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Post by monica on Mar 12, 2010 9:48:02 GMT
Hi
Hope you had a better night last night. Think I've joined the insomnia club as I've had two really bad nights re: sleeping. It's dreadful so you have all my sympathy.
It'd be great if you could go for a walk to somehting similar. A bit of exercise and fresh air might make you feel better, although the weather is so pants it's hard to feel inspired! It used to help my nausea too,
What ar eyou up to today?
Monica
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Post by winegirl on Mar 12, 2010 10:19:42 GMT
Hope last night was a better nigts sleep for you hun? I joined the insomnia club last night too.. sticks doesnt it?
xx
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Post by gizmoracer on Mar 12, 2010 11:43:16 GMT
Got bad anxiety today, not really sure why. All I can think of is it might be to do with Jason's swimming tonight. He will be told if he has passed his stage 1 or not. We all know he has but his teacher is not the best to be honest. I tried moving him out of her class a while back because she was so bad but I think someone has had words with her and she is better now. Thing is Jason only just missed passing last term and we already know Jodie has gone up so I'm worried this teacher of his is going to do something stupid like keep him down and move the kid up who can't swim to save his life. Deep breath, it's not gonna happen, but you know where I'm coming from obviously. Sleep wasn't too bad last night, Joey still got up once and the smoke alarm decided to run short on battery so woke up up beeping but other than that ok. Joey is driving me nuts at the moment, she is arguing when she gets up, insisting I do everything immediatly (not good when you feel sick) and picking fights with Jay on the way home from school and generally being an arrogant little sod. The other day I had to put Jay in the front of the car to stop her from bitting him , everyone is an id..i..ot and she keeps hitting me. Gonna leave her with OH tonight while I take Jay swimming and see if he can figure out whats going on. I managed to get a few small things done yesterday, cleared the hallway and hooverd it, sorted out a bit more stuff in our room and hoovered in there. It wasn't much but I felt exhausted by the end of it. Still got loads to do, the mind is willing but I just physically don't feel able. I've gone off food again. The sickness isn't too bad, just hanging about in the background but I can't bear the thought of cooking for everyone and don't even want take away, the only thing that appeals is beef burgers for some reason but not homemade ones. Found out yesterday that my neighbour is supposed to be moving in 3 weeks time. I've heard this from her before so we'll have to wait and see. Thats good to a point because all the trouble makers hang out with her son and with him gone hopefully they will be too. However, we have no clue what will move in. In general they have started shoving all the undesirables up here again so bit worried about that. Mind you it will take probably 2 months from now til someone moves in. She did suggest that we try to get her place as it is a 3 bed house, which is what we need and moving would be a doodle. I'm not convinced, where we go next we will probably stay and I'm not sure I want to stay here. Although it would be handy because we have the park right by us and we know the area well now, it would also mean its all over and done with quickly (if they let us have it, that is). OK thats me done for now, I've actually been physically sick this morning weird. Going to look for something productive but easy to do. Oh WG by the way I just relised I never answered your question. The Angel thing is my other voluntry job. We work for CLP which is community learning partnership and we are basically learning champions. We meet up every Monday and plan fundraising events, like the one back in October where I did the PNI stall and we promote the family fun courses and general learning within South Oxhey. Because we are volunteers we also get funding for certain courses so we get to do some cool stuff and if there is money left over they treat us to a costco lunch.
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Post by winegirl on Mar 12, 2010 15:23:30 GMT
Sorry you have been sick this moprning mate - you have my full sympathies - that would have put me in bed for the rest of the week!!
The Angel thing sounds ace! And actually you have reminded me that I need to get on with organising this years meeting! LOL
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Post by gizmoracer on Mar 12, 2010 21:30:56 GMT
YAY staff meeting, could you change that to a week long training seminar which is vitally compolsory for all staff and miles from anywhere but with a good supply of boose? Or is that pushing it slightly? Well today is over, finally. Jason did pass his swimming as expected but so did the kid who can't even float ::)stupid teacher. Anyway thats one worry over with. We have to go on Sunday to re-enrole them both for next term, so we are hoping to get them back in the same class again and probably with Joeys teacher at the beginning of the week. Fingers crossed. Today has really dragged, OH did 3 walks today with one other guy from work so didn't get home til late and was shattered, he then decided he was going to come with us to swimming after all just incase there was a problem. By the time we got back it was back to sorting out dinner again, I did something quick for the kids then couldn't decide what we were having. OH felt rotten and didn't really care and I just felt like I couldn't face the kitchen at all so ended up burning something for him eventually (does it notice I hate cooking?) OH has tried to have words with Joey but I don't think he was really upto it and as per usual Joey insisted in winding us both up anyway, which just made matters worse, so she ended up going to bed bawling her eyes out again and I had to go sort it out again. Might just give up on it all and ignore her behaviour, so long as she is good when he is around it won't make things quite so stressful. On top of all that I asked Jason about his homework and then spent a good 15 mins tring to explain the difference between a half and a quarter again. We did this last weekend. He really can't get it and it frustrates me so much. My Mum phoned to ask how he got on at swimming and he can't even hold the phone to his ear properly and then wonders why he can't hear her, so I told him to go in the other room to use speaker phone, I wish I'd never bothered. OH takes offence that he can't even use the phone properly (when he was clearly distracetd by the tv anyway), Joey shouts at him that he doesn't need to hold the phone to his ear when it's on speaker, I have to tell her to but out, she gets all upset then refuses to talk to my mum, by the time I calm here down and get to the phone myself she is back to climbing all over me. I just want to scream. I shut myself in the bathroom after putting them to bed and stopping her from crying and just sat in an empty bath with the hot water on full. OH came to check on me and he couldn't see for steam lol. Everyone is now in bed and all I can think to do is hide out in the living room all night, it's not like I'm going to sleep anyway so I may as well curl up on the sofa and wait to drop off, I'll probably sleep better out here coz I won't have to worry about waking OH up. Really hope things are better tomorrow.
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Post by gizmoracer on Mar 13, 2010 7:43:28 GMT
Maybe that was just too much to hope for. All I want is one single day without someone arguing, shouting, fighting or stropping. Is it really too much to ask for?
This morning it's Jays turn. My Mum sent over a couple of keyrings with their names on as a treat for passing their swimming, Jay only had his 10 mins before loosing it, then when I told him to go get something to eat Joey says something to him which sends him off on a strop, I swear if someone slams that door again the wall is gonna come down. So I have words with the pair of them and Jay goes off stropping and is now sat on his bed crying and shouting at how he'll never be a good boy etc. it's only 7.30am I can't take this all day. I dread to think what Sunday is going to bring.
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