Post by danielsmum23 on May 13, 2011 11:48:14 GMT
I have the most adorable 21month old little boy, yes he can be cheeky at times, and he has probably got my temper but I love him all the world!!
I got PND a few weeks after he was born, was diagnosed when he was 8 weeks old. I put it down to a traumatic birth and having to stay in hospital due to c-section. I was also unable to breastfeed as he wouldn't latch and I was severely anemic meaning I would shake like crazy every time I pumped. All this led me to feel like the worlds most useless mother, I couldn't give birth to my baby or feed him the most natural things i the world. Despite it being nearly 2 years later these things still bug me, he will never remember yet I still feel guilty.
Anyway I went onto 20mg citalopram which got dropped to 10mg after a few months and I took myself off them completely by the time he was 9 months old. PND came back with vengeance, but I denied it so it took till December '10 to go back to the Docs who put me back on 20mg of citalopram again. Took about 2 months to kick in then I could feel the benefits of it working, stupidly I missed a few days and felt fine so skipped a week, which turned into two. I've now been off it a month and can feel PND returning. I'm at a cross roads...Do I go back onto meds (which have the downside of making me sleepy and unable to cry) or do I try and get through it without meds?
Its my other half who suffers when I get ill, at the min we aren't close, or at least thats how I feel. I want him home but when he is I feel he's in the way!! He also doesn't know I'm off my medication as he will go mad, took him ages to get me to go to the Doctors!
Any advice would be appreciated =) xx
I got PND a few weeks after he was born, was diagnosed when he was 8 weeks old. I put it down to a traumatic birth and having to stay in hospital due to c-section. I was also unable to breastfeed as he wouldn't latch and I was severely anemic meaning I would shake like crazy every time I pumped. All this led me to feel like the worlds most useless mother, I couldn't give birth to my baby or feed him the most natural things i the world. Despite it being nearly 2 years later these things still bug me, he will never remember yet I still feel guilty.
Anyway I went onto 20mg citalopram which got dropped to 10mg after a few months and I took myself off them completely by the time he was 9 months old. PND came back with vengeance, but I denied it so it took till December '10 to go back to the Docs who put me back on 20mg of citalopram again. Took about 2 months to kick in then I could feel the benefits of it working, stupidly I missed a few days and felt fine so skipped a week, which turned into two. I've now been off it a month and can feel PND returning. I'm at a cross roads...Do I go back onto meds (which have the downside of making me sleepy and unable to cry) or do I try and get through it without meds?
Its my other half who suffers when I get ill, at the min we aren't close, or at least thats how I feel. I want him home but when he is I feel he's in the way!! He also doesn't know I'm off my medication as he will go mad, took him ages to get me to go to the Doctors!
Any advice would be appreciated =) xx