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Post by steph on Jun 17, 2013 18:48:21 GMT
Today has been a good day Starting to see glimpses of me coming back. We shall see. Very lucky to have been given my first CBT app for tomorrow eve so that's a real relief! Think they tried to squeeze me in as was a little disheartened when they said next week initially. Will let you know how it goes.
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Post by juppster on Jun 17, 2013 19:12:54 GMT
That's great
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Post by steph on Jun 18, 2013 21:30:04 GMT
All things considered today has been another good day Had my first session with counsellor which went as well as can be expected. She seems really nice and felt I could talk honestly and openly with her. Hoping she can help me remember who I am again. Feeling a little more positive that things will get better with time. No news on job front, should have an idea of where I stand at my present job this week but think redundancy may be likely. Oh well, on the positive side will give me something else to think about. What will be will be.
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Post by Weeble on Jun 19, 2013 5:50:34 GMT
Ouch that's tough, redundancy whilst on mat leave is cruel!! Great news on the talking therapy!! You will be yourself again
Kat
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Post by monica on Jun 20, 2013 6:47:19 GMT
Fantastic to hear you positive. You will get better. Any news on the job front?
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Post by steph on Jun 21, 2013 21:42:35 GMT
Have had a positive few days so I'm really hoping things are on the up now! Think the meds may be starting to help as feeling a lot less anxious than I was, thank god!!!
Had some news on job front, won't be keeping my current job as the lady I job share with applied full time and got it as I only want part time. There is another role I am interviewing for next week within same company with the possibility for part time hours so fingers crossed.
Hoping for a better weekend with children this week, keep your fingers crossed for me.
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Post by Weeble on Jun 22, 2013 7:43:35 GMT
Everything very crossed and a sprinkle of fairy dust
Kat
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Post by monica on Jun 22, 2013 19:30:32 GMT
Brill news. It's such a wonderful feeling when the anxiety eases off. Good luck with interview. How u feeling about that?
Monica
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Post by steph on Jun 23, 2013 13:30:40 GMT
A little nervous about the interview yes especially as I've been feeling so anxious lately. Doesn't help! I am normally quite confident so am hoping I can reflect my true self without this sodding anxiety getting in the way! I did a little interview prep on Friday which gave me a real boost having to right lots if positive things about myself.
Feeling a little low today and anxiety levels higher than they have been this week. Just worrying about worrying! Home alone with children again and hubby working days. Had a few kids parties but I think that adds to my anxiety as its linked to my fears so I'm on edge all the time. Home now and feeling a little teary that I can't just be rid of this but I'm going to try and turn the day around and enjoy the rest of the day!! Due on as well so that probably isn't helping.
I would sum this past week up as a mix if emotions but generally more goodish days so going to focus in that during my woobles!
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Post by monica on Jun 23, 2013 20:35:47 GMT
You sound really positive and are using coping strategies really well. You will recover. Pmt defo doesnt help. All the best with the interviewx
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Post by steph on Jun 24, 2013 12:27:18 GMT
Feeling very emotional again today I love my children so so much and want so desperately to just be with them and enjoy every precious moment instead of having this cruel illness that is trying to twist my brain into to thinking I'm something I'm not! I hate it! I should be cherishing them as I have done so well these past few years. I'm so scared that this won't go away again. I love them so so much, I just want to get better and be myself again!
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Post by monica on Jun 24, 2013 15:19:12 GMT
Hugs to you! This illness is so cruel on so many levels - but you will recover. It can be tough with blips which maeit feel like nothing will ever change.l try to have hope - you are improving all the timex
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Post by steph on Jun 24, 2013 18:31:56 GMT
Thank you Monica, its so reassuring to know that are ladies out there like you that understand, thank you Feeling a little better this evening. Had a very anxious moment earlier which then didn't help when my husband called to say car had failed MOT and needed £500 worth of work done which we really cant afford right now. Luckily my mother in law has agreed to help us out which is a god send as without the car I couldn't get to work! Think all of that mixed in with PMT isnt a good combination! Counselling again tomorrow so that should help xx
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Post by Weeble on Jun 25, 2013 20:50:24 GMT
This illness is pants isn't it. But be kind to yourself everyone has crap days and being a mum is a very very hard job.
Kat
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Post by monica on Jun 25, 2013 21:19:54 GMT
So glad car issues are sorted. That kid of thing is very stressful and can get you down. It's one thing off the stress list. Hope the pmt goes soonx
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