hooked on painkillers

[lost13]

Im struggling with this depression, but ive also become addicted to painkillers, they seemed harmless at the start, eased after labour pains but also made me a little bit happier.. that was a year ago! Ive tried numerous times to stop, but reality kicks in and i cave! I know i have to stop them and tackle this problem before i can even start to fight the even bigger problem lieing underneath! So tomorrow is attempt number.. ?!! Ive forgotten how many times! I dont know if anyone else on here is also struggling with painkiller addiction as well as pnd, i would love to hear your stories, i dont know how its come to this.. they dont even make me feel happy no more, not even normal, i just have an urge to take them but can feel how messed up theyre making me... so here's to tomorrow, my first day in getting better

[Weeble]

Hi lost and welcome. Hope today is ok. It will be tough but keep focused on the fact that in a few weeks time you will be clear.

Kat

[lost13]

Thanks for replying! Woke up today not feeling too motivated.. but will stay on track, gonna run myself a nice bath full of detox salts! Today WILL be a good day

[monica]

Hello

Good luck with coming off Meds. Ssorry have no experience of coming off painkillers but it's quite common. Have u spoken to dr for advice? I would have thought maybe weaning yourself off them bit like antids may minimize withdrawal effects but don't really know. Maybe try and do exercise - endorphins the feel good chemical n ur body can help no end. Keep talkingx

[lost13]

Hi.. dont even really know why im on here guess i just need to talk! Failed already, and its not even tea time! My partners away this wkend so thought id giv them up now as hes not here for me to get angry with but its just too hard, i know it sounds stupid but i swear my little girl can see how unhappy i am today, i just dont want to be around her so ive ended up takin some tramadols about half hour ago, im such a let down its unbearable lookin at her thinkin why cant i jus be happy, think i need to tell my gp the real truth and say about the painkillers as ive not mentioned them before, really think i need proper help with it or il never get better! Sorry.. im new to this feels wierd telling strangers, im not some painkiller junkie, or maybe i am, but think its got out of my hands now and i dont know how its come to this!

[juppster]

Please don't feel as though you've failed, you are trying which is the main thing. Yes, please do mention it to the gp when you go so you can get the correct help and support. Just think of tomorrow as a new day x

[lost13]

Well yesterday was actually a good day in some ways, i finally broke down and told my best mates what has been going on, i cant believ id actually forgot what amazing friends i hav, ive been so stupid bottling this up inside and tryin to do it alone, theyve picked me right up and im now ready to tell the doctors and hopefully get the correct support and help i need.. i feel so much more positive now, its amazing what a nice bit of grub and a good chat with a few mates can do, i see how shut away ive been now.. Just hope the chat with the gp goes ok.. fingers crossed for 2mro x

[monica]

Brilliant! Getting support is crucial. You will do it but with help incl from dr it will be much easier. Well done for talking - it can be the hardest thing in the world. Let us know how you get onx

[lost13]

Thanks.. just getting ready to go down to see my GP now, not too sure how to tell them, feel so embarrassed.. but pride aside i hav to tell them! Will let u know how it went, thanks for replying all x

[jessibella]

Just wanted to say you should feel so proud of how you are doing. Telling friends and the go is definitely a great step x

[monica]

How did u get on? It s tough telling people how ur and why but ths is common and r dr will have heard it all before. Most importantly it will b ur first step to recovery well done!

[lost13]

Thanks for the comments, the viset to the gp didnt go so well tho, didnt seem to bothered by what i was tellin her, shes sending me for drug counselling, but i pretty much sat there crying while she watched me waiting for me to leave! So now i feel back at the beginning, just hav to wait for my counselling now i suppose, im still going to cut down what im taking in the meantime tho and now that my close friends and partner know the full story i dont feel so on my own! Think i just got my hopes up too much with seeing the gp thinking id be able to stop taking them and they would give me something to help with withdrawals, but i had no advice whatsoever, and when i told her i felt suicidal she told me "not to stress" bit of a joke really.. but im ok and i know i wouldnt do anything stupid, i couldnt leave my baby for a second

[jessibella]

Hi Lost. Sorry to hear your gp did not show much kindness. Glad to hear she's got you counselling though, that is great.

If I were you I'd consider seeing a different go next time if possible. Some can be really understanding and supportive which you deserve x

[juppster]

Sadly it's all too common with Gps to react this way, I too came across it and had to try a few before I found one that was empathetic. Well done for opening up though, I know how hard that is. Good luck with the counselling x

[frogface]

That's awful the way your GP reacted - definitely go and see another one. They shouldn't even be giving you a script for tramadol for this long without a good reason - they have a lot to answer for. Good luck with the counselling but if u don't hear anything soon go back to a different GP. As my dad once said, sometimes you have to be like a bit of snot on the end of their finger that won't go away before you get what you need! Don't give up x