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Post by brach24 on May 5, 2017 15:15:07 GMT
Hey qr, what a week. You've done so much and been through so much. When are you starting the meds? Hope you can have an easier time of it soon. You're amazing still going to your group in the midst of it all xx
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Post by monica on May 5, 2017 16:14:43 GMT
Hey you did well to go to the bf group. I hope the weekend gives you a bit of respite and time to just chill and maybe do as little as possible. Good luck with meds - any chance B can take a day or two off work next week to help you? X
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Post by quantumrose on May 6, 2017 7:22:08 GMT
We've got things we must do house wise today and the psychiatric nurse said to take them when I've got two free days. So B has taken Monday off and I'm starting tmrw. I'm so nervous. But I know its the right thing. I feel so terrible. On edge, my stomach is in knots, I'm hyper aware of my body, Im moving slowly and my muscles ache. The baby fed all night so I'm exhausted. I don't feel like it's possible that anything will make me better. I'm trying to be kindto myself and accept how I feel. Because pretending I'm ok and denying I feel so bad is exhausting. Carrying on as normal this week was a massive mistake. But I don't know what would make me feel better other than sleep...
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Post by monica on May 6, 2017 11:37:26 GMT
Good luck with the meds - great Bs off for a little while to help. You do such a great job with everything and are so dedicated - time to dedicate a bit of time to yourself. Hopefully meds will give you that lift you need.
Re baby feeding, would you consider stopping BF at night? It might give you a better nights sleep x
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Post by quantumrose on May 6, 2017 15:24:24 GMT
Hey Mon (after all this time I want to ask, can I call you that? The amount of times I've written it and deleted it because you might not like your name being shortened!) I am absolutely considering stopping night feeds. From experience it's horrible to start with then so much better after! I feel so sicky at the moment. No appetite and sick. Is this normal with bad anxiety. It's just another thing to worry about :-( I'm starting to feel really depressed about how my life has been for the last year. I feel bad and responsible. Also I'm so tired. Does that sound normal too? After everything that's going on? My head is such a muddle today :-( x
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Post by quantumrose on May 7, 2017 6:14:27 GMT
Day 1 of sertraline. It's amazing how nerve wracking it was to take that first tablet. Can't say I'm looking forward to the next few days but I'm going to busy myself with packing. Big love xxx
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Post by monica on May 7, 2017 17:36:40 GMT
Hi
Of course you can call me Mon - many of my friends do and I see it as a term of endearment.
How are you? Your reflection on the past year is going to be hard - you e been struggling for a while - you've so much rubbish to deal with. Anyone without the exhaustion of kids, PNI would be struggling yet o think you e managed amazingly. You have done the right thing by getting help and you should be very proud of yourself. I hope the meds give you that much needed lift.
Giving up BF especially at night can be hard. I remember my eldest used me as a comfort dummy and the smell is intoxicating ! If that can be broken at least you should get a decent nights sleep which is half the battle. Any chance lo can sleep in another room? X
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Post by brach24 on May 8, 2017 21:47:34 GMT
Thinking of you qr. how have the first couple of days of sertraline go? Xxx
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Post by monica on May 10, 2017 8:15:27 GMT
How are you QR? X
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Post by brach24 on May 15, 2017 13:59:33 GMT
Thinking of you - hope you're getting help and support xxx
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Post by quantumrose on May 18, 2017 14:30:53 GMT
Hello lovely ones, Sorry it's been so long. How are you? So much has happened.... Were moving next week, packing up the house. B has had tonselitis so has been out of action. My eldest has UTI and is uncomfortable but were waiting for urine test to come back. Babe still teething... Sertraline was a week of total hell, I couldn't take it in the end it made me so ill. Mental health nurse was lovely and suggested waiting till after I've moved as I can't afford to be out of action now. She diagnosed me last week. I though it would be scary but actually it was a relief. PTSD and medical phobia along with postnatal depression and anxiety. She made me feel so proud of myself that I've made it through all of this. Do we're working on reducing the amount of triggers I'm experiencing (at least once a day) to try and calm my system down. Then I'm going to find a yoga group for trauma because I need to not be scared of my body. I can't wait to move, I'm so ready. And it's the first time in years that its been our choice, rather than landlord selling the house. I've got my last session for breastfeeding course tomorrow, I'm nervous about the exam but I'll try and so some revision tonight! The one thing I'm finding hard at the moment is the feeling of being pretty abandoned by my friends. I know they're busy. I know they've got children too but I've barely seen anyone for weeks :-( it's partly me being too tired to contact them but also now I feel really hurt! It's silly really. Gotta go, inlaws here x
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Post by Kirsty on May 18, 2017 18:06:05 GMT
It's not silly at all. I know how that feels for sure. Keep going you're doing great. Good luck with the move and I hope they get better soon. Do let us know how you get on xx
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Post by monica on May 19, 2017 19:38:35 GMT
Hi
How did the exam go? You'll be great as a BF expert - so supportive whilst so knowledgeable and approachable.
You should be hugely proud of everything - your determination and courage, stamina and ability to be so objective even when so low. You will never recover from this terrible and cruel illness for sure.
Good luck with move! Glad it's going to be a more suitable place and hopefully that'll also really help your recovery. Big hugs x
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Post by brach24 on May 25, 2017 19:41:30 GMT
Hope the house move is going well. I was quite sick with sertraline too. Will spare you the details but def best to wait till a better time. Mental health nurse seems great. Were you surprised by any of the diagnosis? Sometimes the labels can be really helpful for going gentler on yourself and lowering others expectations too. Also good for applying for PIP if you haven't already. You may also be eligible for a bus pass (not sure about England but here a mental health nurse can sign a form for bus passes). You're entitled to financial help - you'd def be out working if you were well enough... and it won't be all that long till you are well enough for more of the outside world. Just take your time and build strength. Moving house is massive!! Xxx
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Post by monica on May 27, 2017 8:33:23 GMT
How are you QR? X
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