Post by zed22 on Jul 18, 2015 21:15:30 GMT
Hi, I have a two year old and am wondering if because he is a toddler does that mean i am suffering with regular mental health issues, is there an 'age limit'?
I had depression on and off through out my teens and adulthood, mainly due to bereavement of my stepfather, very unstable childhood etc, i never took prescribed meds but i drank a lot and took drugs. I became pregnant, not planned but was very happy and had been with partner for 2 years, crappy pregnancy, pre eclampsia hit when i was 7 months and i was rushed in to hospital seriously ill for an emergency c section, my son was a birth weight of 2lb 14oz, he was in scbu for 2 months, i thought he was going to die and also myself at one point, it was the worst time of my life. I never felt i was able to celebrate my baby like others did, i have very little support from family, when i got my son home when he was 2 months old, he was still only 4.5lbs, he got day and night confused and i slept terribly for the first year, having to move in to the front room for several weeks with him. He then had cmpi and acid reflux which was awful... but grew out of it all by the time he was 1 and a bit. since then i have been on citalapram, took myself offf when i thought i was better, went bad as i had made transition too soon, so went back on to sertraline which helped a lot, then i weaned myself off of them about 6 months ago.. been incredibly obsessive regarding illness and death, at one point a few months ago would cry at the thought of dying, i had uneven periods and was sure i had cancer of the cervix etc, i am over that obsession more or less now, but terrible anger issues, feel alone, like a bad mum, think about putting him into care, feel like a hate my partner, no sex drive for him, my head feels 'frazzled' i cant cope with everyday tasks some days, one min im calm next im erratic, i love my son so much but i still feel i dont thoroughly connect him with my baby that was ill in hospital, it feels as though its not him. i feel love and mother insticts for him but only see/feel his dad within him and not me... could i be just generally ill, or could this be pni?? im sick of people telling me to get on with it because its hard having kids... my patience is at a new time low... my doctors surgery is a new one as have just moved house... you can never get an appt, im thinking of paying for private counselling of some sort... but not sure what therapy would be best for me. my partner thinks i shouldnt go back on anti d's, i think he thinks im just crazy naturally.. we are so close to splitting... have the 'discussion' almost every night now... sorry for such an essay!!! just wanted to lay it all out bare. thanks for reading x zoe
I had depression on and off through out my teens and adulthood, mainly due to bereavement of my stepfather, very unstable childhood etc, i never took prescribed meds but i drank a lot and took drugs. I became pregnant, not planned but was very happy and had been with partner for 2 years, crappy pregnancy, pre eclampsia hit when i was 7 months and i was rushed in to hospital seriously ill for an emergency c section, my son was a birth weight of 2lb 14oz, he was in scbu for 2 months, i thought he was going to die and also myself at one point, it was the worst time of my life. I never felt i was able to celebrate my baby like others did, i have very little support from family, when i got my son home when he was 2 months old, he was still only 4.5lbs, he got day and night confused and i slept terribly for the first year, having to move in to the front room for several weeks with him. He then had cmpi and acid reflux which was awful... but grew out of it all by the time he was 1 and a bit. since then i have been on citalapram, took myself offf when i thought i was better, went bad as i had made transition too soon, so went back on to sertraline which helped a lot, then i weaned myself off of them about 6 months ago.. been incredibly obsessive regarding illness and death, at one point a few months ago would cry at the thought of dying, i had uneven periods and was sure i had cancer of the cervix etc, i am over that obsession more or less now, but terrible anger issues, feel alone, like a bad mum, think about putting him into care, feel like a hate my partner, no sex drive for him, my head feels 'frazzled' i cant cope with everyday tasks some days, one min im calm next im erratic, i love my son so much but i still feel i dont thoroughly connect him with my baby that was ill in hospital, it feels as though its not him. i feel love and mother insticts for him but only see/feel his dad within him and not me... could i be just generally ill, or could this be pni?? im sick of people telling me to get on with it because its hard having kids... my patience is at a new time low... my doctors surgery is a new one as have just moved house... you can never get an appt, im thinking of paying for private counselling of some sort... but not sure what therapy would be best for me. my partner thinks i shouldnt go back on anti d's, i think he thinks im just crazy naturally.. we are so close to splitting... have the 'discussion' almost every night now... sorry for such an essay!!! just wanted to lay it all out bare. thanks for reading x zoe