Thought I was Ok...

[Tearyeyedmummy]

Hi,

It feels weird writing this and opening up in text to strangers but here goes... I had a baby 6 months ago, and when she was about a month old I started with pnd. The dr told me to wait n see how I got on and after a few months of awful arguements with the hubby, lots of tears and the feeling that those closest to me had let me down by not being there (although this is probably my irrational thinking) i did start to feel better. However lately iv had awful fatigue (despite having fibromyalgia it was worse than normal) and the dr prescribed me an antidepressant. I took 1 tablet and reacted really badly to it. Im on alot of other strong meds so it must not of mixed well. Iv started university recently in a bid to get some sort of identity other than "mummy" back. However it seems to have set me right back. Im ok while im there but i come home and feel invisible to my hubby. Hes uniterested in my day and it just makes me feel so low. I dont know whether its depression and im seeing things that arnt there or whether he does actually need to try more. Im so cried out right now and in a desperate bid to feel better iv tried half an antidepressant. Hopefully starting on a low dose will allow me to build up. Iv never felt so alone as i do right now. :-( would be good to chat to other mummy's who understand. Thanks for reading x

[monica]

Hello and welcome

I'm sorry things are tough for you but glad you have found us. Hopefully you'll get lots of understanding and support.

Life can unexpectedly become tough post baby. Adjusting to this new demanding bundle isn't all its cut out to be. The dynamics of the relationship with your partner can change especially if you're not feeling quite right yourself. Men often don't communicate well either so if they're finding this new adjustment hard and or can't quite understand this different you, they withdraw. Cou

How has taking the lower dose antid gone? Speak to ur Dr and even pharmacist about how u feel . Hopefully they can advise you about how best to take them or maybe even trying a different type that is of course compatible with your existing meds. Forgive me if u know this already but you can feel worse for up to several weeks of taking them before you start to feel better but of course if the side effects are awful of course get medical advice.

It's wonderful you are taking a course. What are you doing? Are you finding it interesting? It's brilliant you are doing something for you and it can hugely help in feeling like you are an individual and not a person . Or do you thing the course on top of baby is overwhelming you?