frogface
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Post by frogface on Oct 11, 2016 14:52:05 GMT
She needs you, don't ever forget that she can't see what's in your head. So you have a supportive partner?
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Post by newmom on Oct 11, 2016 15:04:31 GMT
Yes m husband is very supportive. I know she needs me but frustrated that this thing is not going away . It takes away my ability to enjoy my baby. Not one day of happiness since she's been born, I've been like this since April
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Post by Kirsty on Oct 11, 2016 15:25:32 GMT
I feel your pain
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Post by monica on Oct 11, 2016 16:43:31 GMT
I was like you newmon in the sense that my physical symptoms made feel so ill and triggered the anxiety and when they lifted so did the anxiety.
You are everything to your daughter so don't forget that but I do understand your sadness and frustration.
I'm sorry if I've asked have you tried any exercise ? I know if you feel so rubbish it's hard to do anything but maybe even 10 mins of something gentle like yoga and build it up from there? It made a huge difference to how I felt and helped with the physical symptoms too.
Please don't give up hope! I too felt this was me forever and I'd be the exception who would never recover but I didx
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Post by newmom on Oct 11, 2016 17:43:18 GMT
I'm almost 8 months postpartum, this started 6 months ago. How much longer can it take? I know there's no answer and everyone is different but is there some kind of timeline ? Anything? Yes, I tried exercising but can't seem to really keep up with this. I know I need to do more but I have no hope of this going away ...so why should I even try?
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Post by monica on Oct 11, 2016 18:08:35 GMT
I wish I could tell you but I can't - firstly I don't have any professional training and don't know why some women get these symptoms and secondly everyone is different . So sorry!
For me I had debilitating symptoms for 4-5 months then antids turned this around but I still got the ups and downs typical of PNI incl physical symptoms. I had this illness for 2 1/4 yrs saying that there were good parts in this and it certainly wasn't all bad.
Do you know if there a perinatal specialist in your area? Someone who deals mainly with PNI and could give you answers to your questions. Perhaps you could speak to a psychiatrist about this even if it's over the phone. I know the anti d route has not been a good one due to Sid effects. I think that once you find something that gives you a boost - whether talking therapy or pharmacological advice you'll start to pick up. Also time hopefully with balance the hormonal changes . Could you speak to
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Post by newmom on Oct 11, 2016 18:19:11 GMT
I think the problem is mostly hormonal imbalance that's why even with antids there're still ups and downs. I'm seeing a Psychiatrist who specializes in postpartum depression/anxiety. He says it takes about 1 year to 1.5 year for hormons to balance. He says it's mostly hormonal imbalance affecting the brain chemistry. We're you having regular periods during your struggle with PNI? My periods have been regular since 9 weeks postpartum.
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Post by monica on Oct 11, 2016 19:05:35 GMT
Hi
I got PNI after my second child (was fine after 1st and third), had no history of previous mental health probs and had the perfect birth. Saying that I had quite a few sources of stress around the same time and I ran myself into ground so I think exhaustion triggered it.
I breadt fed for 6 months (mixed last two months) then periods returned to normal X
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Post by monica on Oct 11, 2016 19:07:12 GMT
What does the specialist say given your reaction to meds? Does he think it's worth trying others? Does he recommend anything else? X
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Post by newmom on Oct 11, 2016 19:21:24 GMT
He said he doesn't understand why I'm so afraid of keep trying more medication and why I "want" to suffer like this. I guess he just doesn't understand my fears since I was so so so bad on meds. I'm so horrified of using strong psychiatric medicstions, as much as I'm horrified of my current condition that consumes me so much.
St Johns Wort is not helping at all. It's more for depression and I have anxieties with almost no depression. The anti anxiety med he suggested I take every day but I'm afraid , it's a Benzo and very addictive . I take maybe 1 pill a week. Dying is my only way out of this tortute.
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Post by monica on Oct 11, 2016 20:22:55 GMT
I completely understand why you're afraid of trying alternatives . What did you try before?
Big hugs newmom - anxiety and feeling so well is horrible. Try looking up different relaxation techniques on you tube - they might not be a miracle cure but with practise they might take the edge off the anxiety.
Have you ever tried reiki? I've tried it twice - first time out of curiosity as my sister visits a reiki practitioner - the first time I noticed various positive effects . The second time I went as I felt both very anxious and low after a relationship came to an end to the point I couldn't sleep etc. The day following the session I woke up and the anxiety had gone - I still felt low but anxiety less. I'm not suggesting it might be a miracle cure for you but might be worth a go.
Also I tried acupuncture for physical symptoms of PNI and the first session helped the spaced out feeling and pressure sensation behind my eye.
I know the alternative therapies cost money so not everyone can afford it .
Big hugs - try to have hope / I know how much you're struggling but things WILL get better x
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Post by newmom on Oct 12, 2016 23:27:22 GMT
I'm just scared that this will turn into a chronic anxiety disorder . There're women that never recover from PNI anxiety ... No guarantees that I will recover . This just horrifies me How can something that feels so awful be temporary? I just don't understand this...
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Post by Kirsty on Oct 13, 2016 19:19:56 GMT
My coucellor tells me everyone recovers for PND x
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Post by monica on Oct 18, 2016 14:39:21 GMT
How are you doing?x
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Post by newmom on Oct 18, 2016 16:46:16 GMT
Hi Monica, My baby will be 8 months next week. I thought by this time I'll be feeling better but still stuck. The 24/7 dizziness that lasted for 5 weeks subsided .. Now I have it during the day at times but not as severe. Last Monday I had 12 full hours when most of my physical symptoms mysteriously went away... This was such a relief but it lasted only half a day. Still have this annoying head buzzing I'm afraid it won't go away. Still have random headaches and pain pressure behind the eyes and moments or hours where I feel extremly fatigued like I'm 200 years old. It's all so debilitating. Is the extreme fatigue part of this? All blood work and thyroid were checked, all is normal . I'm afraid the extreme fatigue is the start of depression.. So far I have been diagnosed only with anxieties and panic , not depression.. But maybe it's changed and now I'm depressed, because I'm SO SO SO tired. I can't believe these awful physical symptoms will ever leave me.
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